Sorry for the length spelling and grammar errors. I Plan to sit down soon to clean it up and rework it a bit.

To be fair I'm bi and mostly straight. But I'm an extremely perverted bottom for older men. Looking for a daddy to turn me into his sissy slut I'm into exhibition, dad/son roleplay, w/s,forced sissification, forced feminization, forced slutification, forced crossdress(im as macho and masc as the come so any kind of emasculation, especially skirts and lingerie for some reason, are big deals on a personal level which ill explain another time should if u want to know), enemas, spankings, emasculation, humiliation private and public, public sex, public nudity, public submission, bathroom use control, forced pants wetting, butt plugs,poppers,rare pnp,bath houses, forced to look you in the eye while I suck you, forced eye contact while you fuck me,used infront of others,prostrate milking,forced to say (or yell loud enough for others to hear in certain situations) filthy/embarrassing things during sex, anal training,making porn, embarrassing pics, High risk sex(as in sex that risks me getting caught and exposed as a sissy slut for daddy to people i dont want to know. or high risk public sex),forced to call you daddy and think of you as and treat you like my real dad (my blood father is a great dad so being owned to the point I disrespect and or under mind those im close to is a huge turn on. I can tell you some storys trust me) I consider myself straight my rep with friends and fam is straight macho ladys man. Does the thought of turning a straight boy, turning another mans son into your twisted perverted cum slut make your cock hard? I could list kink after kink till my list is a mile long (seriously you should see my fetish list on )and barely scratch the surface trying to fully express what Im all about and what Im into and looking for. Im looking for a new dad/son dynamic relationship not a boyfriend or a romantic relationship.I need my daddys cum. I was raised that a real man doesn't suck cock or get fucked in the ass. A real man doesn't get spanked by other men or submit to other men. That if you take another mans cock he will always be more of a man then you and your father(like the father wasnt man enough to raise his son to be a real man). I crave that shame. Does the thought of turning another mans son into ur twisted cum slut make ur cock hard?". For me on some level I'm really attracted to the idea of lowering myself to older men. I'm masc and live act, and consider myself mostly straight.As I said though I get off big time on lowering myself to older tops. There are a lot of factors for me. One purely being a submissive bi bottom of course(though very much the masc dom straight alpha male type in my day to day life). Beyond that I get off on how shameful I was raised to believe this part of my sex life is. I get off on the disrespect to my own father(though not till my first daddy trained me or whatever,to get off on sex that was disrespectful to my real father), I get off on feeling like a slut.each of my daddys has guided and trained this side of my sexuality in profound ways I remember when I first indulged this side of me. I was a eighteen. I was bi curious and had shared fantasys with him that embarrassed me. Over time her suggested even naughter fantasys. long story short he had been trying for a long time to talk me into living out all the fantasys. One week end my parents were out of town. I finally gave in and invited him over.After lots of perverted play (i can elaborate another time) and extremely filthy dirty talk. I was laying naked flat on my stomach in my parents bed on my dads side of the bed. A over weight man in his 50s covered in thick body hair that was soaked in sweat was sliding his cock into my ass. He pushed in all the way and layed on top of me while may ass accepted and relaxed around his cock. I could feel his swear while he shamed me for taking his cock. While he boasted about making my dads son his bitch in my dads own bed. Eventually he started slowly thrusting into to my ass or what he called my pussy. He made me tell him I loved his cock. That I needed him inside me. That i was his bitch his slut his little girl. He made me made me call him daddy. He made me admit he was more of a man then me. he made me tell him he was more of a man then my dad. Lol he was one of those alpha male twisted doms oviously. He got off hard on anything that was humiliating for me and disrespectful to my father.I loved ever minute of it. I loved the shame the humiliation. I loved it all. He made me beg yell at the top of my lungs my full name and that I needed his cum in my pussy. He had pushed all my buttons turned me on so much that when i felt his hot cum pump into my ass. I truelly felt like his cum was a reward from being a good boy. From there i was literally his slut. He demanded that nothing in the world be more important then to me then being his slut. I he'd make me wear pantys(I'm wasnt and still not naturally femme or a remotely passable crossdresser). he especially enjoyed raiding my moms dresser (again he and my dad hated each other so there weren't really lines he wasnt willing to cross). Through him I developed an "absolutely anything to please daddy" no matter what mindset. Which only continues to grow over time. So if hed tell me to put on a skirt so short my ass peeked out the bottom, and a garterbelt and stockings (his fav of my moms cloths) and walk to his house (risking my dad waking up and catching me) I'd do it. If he wanted to talk pictures and videos of us having sex, me dressed like a sissy, anything he wanted I let him. He liked making me suck him or get fucked by him infront of windows. He really liked the idea that someone who knows my dad might see. I wont publicly get into the really fucked up things I did cuz he asked me (though any daddys who want to know can ask privately). My point is oviously I was bi before him. I oviously had a thing for older men. I was oviously a sub and a bottom by nature. But Through him pushing my limits I evolved sexually. It's how I learned that the more wrong or taboo something is the more it turns me on. I'm being up front about that. So thats my long drawn out rambling story about where my particular kinks and interests stem from. I continue to evolve develope new kinks and fantasys. Different daddys like different things. Ultimately I like balls to the wall really nasty pervert types. I've had a few other daddy/son relationships even when I was married daddy came first(yea i get to some of you this makes me sound terrible).I'm very submissive for daddy though in my typical day to day life im more the alpha male type. I'm only gay for my daddy unless he decides otherwise. See I identify as straight. I don't have sex with men just to have sex with men. I don't simply hook up. Ill just put it bluntly. Its been a little over two years since ive been fucked, because my last daddy moved and I wont submit to just anyone. I get a ton of messages on several sites like this one and on (if ur a member on mme know i have a mile long list of kinks and fantasys on there u might be interested in reading) and a few other sites. I rarely respond to most men who dont seem to match the type i seek. The story is about some of my experiences with my first daddy. My first gay experience was my initiation into slut training. I know it was wild and kinky but it also oviously steered and influenced my sexuality in a huge way. I mean i was simply bi curious before things began with him. Its a perfect example of how I put my daddys first. That I'm willing to cross almost any line to please my daddy. That has never changed. I met my last daddy before I got married (I'm divorced now for unrelated reasons and trust me if you knew the whole story youd understand why I dont feel bad about all i did with my daddy while i was with her) and maybe its wrong or twisted in some peoples eyes but I always put daddy first and there werent lines I wasnt willing to cross for him. Lol at times taking big risks that could have got me caught. Some examples being...on my second anniversary my daddy at the time told me not only did he want to have sex with me before i could have sex with her, but he also insisted I wear the lingerie she had bout to wear for that night with me. Soo I went into the bathroom put it all on under my normal cloths came up with an excuse to step out for a while and met him down in the parking lot. once I snuck him into our apartment while she was sleeping it was a huuuuuuge risk. he and i were bare ass naked he was sitting on the couch I was riding his dick facing him with my back to the hallway where our bedroom was. But thats what daddy wanted he wanted me to ride him right out in the open like that. Or getting me to agree to go shoping for sluty lingerie for me to wear for him at the sex shop right down the road from my wife and mines apartment. the same shop she and i frequented (well we went once a month or so) while we were there he made a point of bring the girl at the counter over to help us. Asking if they had a few things in my size making comments to her about what he likes to wear for him and asking her for ideas. He even had me ask a few questions. This woman was unbelievably hot im not a cheater but I would have fucked the shit out of her married or not. not to mention whether she remembered or not she had help my wife and i on a few occassions. And there i was asking her If they had any skirt just long enough to barely cover my ass because my daddy likes my ass to peek out if i bend over even a little. when we were at the register getting ready to pay while i was standing right next to him, he asked her if there were possitions that were better for anal that would help me take his dick deeper. which wasnt an actual issue he just wanted the woman to know i get fucked by him. I should point out that im not a crossdresser. I a masc guy i have body hair and facial hair I could never pass as a woman. I dont enjoy wearing stuff like that at least at first with a new daddy (if he likes it or is turned on by forced sissification, knows i dont like it so use's it as a tool, especially early on, to or whatever reason he might have)its really embarrassing to let a man old enough to be my father (or anyone else he might have me dress like that for or infront of) to not just see me dressed in girl cloths or underwear but to do it because he told me to or wants me to which is amplified when i have to wear it while we have sex.The doms im attracted to get off on pushing my limits over time. testing how far im willing to go to submit to them. Anyone whos sexually submissive will submit within their comfort zone. You want an obedient son right daddy? But I'm guessing more often then not your previous boys would only submit so much, and no matter what theres always lines they wont cross. with me over time as the I grow more attatched to my daddy and once I trust him completely there are no lines. Id let him strip me naked in a park and fuck me in broad day light (if he promised hed protect me from any trouble i could get in). Eventually I grow to need daddys cock and need his approval. There comes a point where daddy, daddys cock, daddys cum, his sexual pleasure become a literal need. Indulging every fantasy or sexual whim no matter how perverted no matter how risky (to my reputation or chance of being exposed as his slut or whatever)I willingly and happily do for him. Like earlier when I told u about riding my previous daddys dick out in the living room while my wife was down the hall asleep. the lights were on he and i were completely naked he went as far as having me take all of both his and my cloths to the bathroom ( which was just past the bedroom) See he wanted me to show I belonged to him and prove how loyal i was. he made me remove our cloths far out of the room so there wasnt a single way for use to cover ourselves in the living room. He also made me ride him nice and slow he wanted it to take a long time for me to make him cum. If she would have walked out she would have seen her husband clearly naked, straddling the lap of a balding over weight man convert bushy thick grey body hair, his hands firmly gripping and spreading her husbands naked ass cheeks, The old mans big bare cock very clearly in her husbands ass (Ive been tested twice for everything since the last time i had sex with anyone. I only ever take my daddys cock bare and only in a dad/son relationship. so I can only be with a daddy whos tested and std free. and isnt running around fucking every slut willing to give it up. I have to be able to trust him not to put me at risk when it comes to that.) and me very slowlly lowering down till i could feel his balls touch my ass then rising all the way up till only the head of his cock was in me and back down. I road him exactly like i described for about an hour. We even talked almost the whole time. Hed ask me if i was worried she was going to wake up and I told him no and that his cock was all i cared about at the moment. So he told me "fine then talk in normal voices no whispering, and if she wakes up and catches us not only are u to keep riding me, but i want you to look her in the eyes while slowly sliding down till every inch of my cock disapears in you." I told him Id do anything he wanted if it meant we didnt have to stop before i got to feel him cum. I remember it so vividly because It was so erotic It went beyond submission. I wasnt repeating what he told me to say I meant every word. I got so wrapped up in the sex even while talking about her i forgot she was just down the hall. shes was in a crazy deep sleep that night. because he decided we had to talk in normal tones and not only do i love a very verbal daddy, who talks really fithly through out the sex, but Im a big dirty talker. whats crazy is on of all that we both got carried away when he was getting close to cumming. He suddenly speaking much louder he started telling me to say things She never woke up "tell daddy you love him" "i love you daddy" "tell daddy he has a big cock" "daddy your cock is so big" "say out loud what your doing" "I'm riding my daddy's big cock" "talk a little louder and be very blunt and very specific" so I said much louder this time cuz i knew what he wanted "I'm naked straddling my daddy sliding his big cock in and out of my asshole" then he told me he was close and made me tell him i need his cum made me beg him fairly loudly to cum inside my ass. he was thrusting into me i was riding him harder and faster suddenly not only were we talking filthy back and forth way to loudly but we were have loud sex. And yet she never woke up she didnt hear any of it. then he grabs me twists around and puts me on my back his big hairy body dripping with sweat laying on top of me. Feeling his chest heaving from being out of breath his cock still in side of me. I thanked for letting me ride his cock and for cumming inside of me. I really meant it I literally felt like his cum was a reward. I told you all that because I to demonstrate that I know and understand what it means to be obedient and also to show my true willingness and desire for my daddy when i have one and to submit to him. I was unfucking believably lucky I didnt get caught. In fact its mind blowing that I didnt considering how loud we got in the last 20 mins or so fallowed but laying naked together on the couch for a long while after. He wanted to test my devotion, loyalty and the bond between us. Me being willing to flaunt that I was his slut or whatever to strangers or being willing to risk getting caught submiting to him by strangers was one thing. It was naughty and dirty it was about obedience training and cheat sexual thrills. So he wasnt sure if my submission and all that was real. Like maybe i was going along with all of it because i secretly wanted to and not because it was what he wanted. You know like if someone whos submissive really likes....i dunno, lets say... being spanked in public, are they really submiting if they let a dom spank them in public? The weird thing is stead of being stressed and scared out of my mind that wed be caught any second, I literally didnt care if I got caught. I can honestly say that night part of me even hoped she would catch us. Part of me really wanted her to see my daddys cock slide in and out of my ass. I wanted to flaunt that I belonged to him. That I was his slut,bitch,fucktoy,son hell sometimes i was his depending on his mood daughter lol....You know being real with you thats whats so fucked up about it. when i have a daddy eventually I seem to reach a point in which my sexuality becomes defined by daddy and daddys cock and give my self to him completely.cock worship dosnt begin to describe it. Pleasuring him becomes more sexually satisfying that having an orgasm. I even passed up a 3 some with my wife and her extremly hot friend because daddy had some perverted adventures he wanted to have. he promised if I got away form home for till the next day hed let me fall asleep with his cock in my ass (In stead of sleeping sandwiched between 4 big perfect tits,I fell asleep with him in my ass, and woke up with my hand cupping his cock and his balls and his hand had a firm grip on my booty well worth sacrificing a threesome i still dont have a single regret about it). The truth is early on with a new daddy I do get off on the shame(how and why is a story in and of itself)I dont like traditional mutual gay sex. I prefer cumming form anal or being fingured or from jacking myself off. It kinda ruins the relationship dynamic if my daddy is overly concerned about making me cum. I take daddys cum not the other way around. I dont switch Im a bottom only with my daddy. to be perfectly honest I'm into getting blow jobs. It's way to ingrained in me to view sucking a mans cock as submitting to them.Lol I know im weird. Anyway my point is I've been looking for a new daddy but on top of needing a dom perv daddy as u can see in my profile, I need a dad who understands the dad/son relationship dynamic. I'm open to ltr but not in the typical context. I don't have conventional romantic relationships with my daddys. I've loved my previous daddys but the love was more the love of a son to a father rather then romantic love. Which will sound fucked up to some of you, who will think I have daddy issues and need help or something. But to those men who understand the dad/son/mentor, older/younger dynamic and believe ur a lot similar to my previous daddys in mentality, and liked what you've heard so far, send me a message.