12/30/2011 5:17:10 PM: ::Update of sorts:: I've decided against posting most of the conversation because validation aside, wasting any more time of this individual would not be a productive use of my time. I'll provide instead a bit more info on myself to hopefully prevent this from happening again in the future along with a warning. I am a student of life, a gatherer of knowledge and experience in various occupations and roles; I move and evolve and attempt to better myself with every step I take. I also attempt to understand the opinions of others, and don't pretend to cast judgment of others unless there's a specific reason that calls for it (I know that no matter how much I learn I will never know everything). If you get to know me (or don't) and disagree with my opinion, by all means call me out on it, that's you're right as an American and as a human being in my eyes. Now that being said, when you call me out you better be able to back up you reasoning with with fact or experience with why you think I'm incorrect in my reasoning; then I will either keep my opinion (while acknowledging yours just as valid) or change it to reflect to the newly gained insight. If you decide to to not do this and just view my opinions as incorrect or flawed due to either some delusional notion of superiority without reason or maybe due to perceived education/training influence(as in the case of the sub Litlebabiegirl) you better be able to back of your reasoning or else I will rip your arguments/logic/reason apart and toss them back in your face and most likely make you cry. LitleBabiegirl apparently believed her worlds carried weight due to her Masters in Psychology (Human Behavioral Psychology I believe), this is not the case and I'm sorry you didn't get the memo. I highly doubt she had a masters level psych degree (or any psych experience for that matter), since she seemed more than a bit clueless on even the most basic psychological terminology/knowledge they would probably use every day and became more than a bit defensive when I actually tried to explain my reasoning and where my experience comes from. It was either this, or she was incredibly incompetent at her job. I'm not here to jump through hoops in order to be 'worthy' of anyone's time; I'm here to make connections, further my learning, and develop myself as a more well rounded person. This means I will not cater to your whims or illusions of grandeur because some previous Dom didn't praise or punish you enough, I'll just help you to realize how much you sound like an idiot. In any case I would not recommend LitleBabiegirl to anyone else on here if you're looking for a friend/partner/etc of any actual quality. While she may be attractive to some she also comes with a personality that’s hostile and judgmental, and she lacks an open mind to be asset to to any real conversation. So until this person grows to where her maturity meets her age, I suggest those interested in her proceed with caution. The actual discussion her and I had was about a couple of things. I'll give you both of our general thoughts on the matter, and if you want you can give me your input as well since other opinions/experiences are always good to consider. Topic: People choosing their roll in the Lifestyle and how it's affected by personality traits. Her: People can only be Doms or Subs, if you've switched at some point it's because you didn't understand yourself and made the wrong choice. Switch isn't actually a real role, just someone who doesn't know yet. Me: While some people can be as she said, I pointed out that people are in a constant state of flux and evolution. I also pointed out complex relationship questions with her theory, since I've meet many people who may be a Sub to one person but then a Dom to another. Her words on this were ' In your opinion they are valid, not in mine ' (note I was only pointing out another way to interpret it, not the only one) Topic: Poly Relationships Her: People in them have morality issues (I'm not sure if this was directed at just people who may be married or Poly relationships as a whole). Me: Whatever floats their boat. While there are plenty of pro's/con's, in the end it's none of anyone else's concern.   (one added just because I thought was funny) Topic: Reading and Comprehension Her: If you are coming at me in a psych way..i have my MS in psych so please stop Me: 'coming at you'? I'm assuming you mean that in a context of where I'm attempting portray you in a way of intellectual inferiority? Her: 'Coming at me' meant if your approach is psych. based Her: Don't read into my words Me: ….......   Sorry if my writing is a bit off as well, coming off of an all nighter.

12/27/2011 1:00:27 PM: I'm thinking about posting an conversation I had with a fellow CM'er on here today, if order to gauge your opinion on if I am writing as if I have some ulterior motive or if this woman is just viewing me with a distorted perspective (or under some kind of assumption)? I just have to figure if I want to make her anonymous or not at this point (I would think that to be the respectful thing to do, but I feel that all throughout the conversation I was being disrespected in some way and it makes me wonder why I care). Either way this will most likely be a place holder til that decision is made.

7/6/2011 3:23:03 AM: Found this journal entry while browsing and though I should re-post it, since it seems to sum up what I'm thinking quite well.   'So, I see all these people bitching about how there are never any real people on this site.Bullshit.I met 2 real people in my first month, 3 in my second. Just because you are not interested in a person or what they offer doesn't make them fake.So shut the hell up and lower the settings on your overactive 'fakedar'. You'll be pretty suprised, and the rest of us that don't bitch will be glad for the decrease in journal entries bemoaning the lack of real people.'

9/8/2010 7:01:27 PM: Awesome times! The photoshoot is done and past, and I looked pretty good. Still going to keep up with my workouts though since I believe I can become so much larger. But we'll see what happens. Looks like I may also be moving to the DC or Fayettville area in the near future, so fun times with that.

8/19/2010 6:06:13 PM: Holy crap! Been at this for almost 3 1/2 months now and its almost over. All I have left is about 2-3 more weeks. In this time I've lost about a little over 50 lbs, and now I'm centering down on sheding the last of the fat I can before I start the Drying out phase before the photo shoot. Wish me luck, and hopefully I'll post some of the pics we take haha! And if you go to Dragoncon, you should see I Tan giant in the "300" portion of the parade!