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	About paynlover if i were to die today, my life would be more than ok. say what you will, before its too late.. losing track of time is the most i ask from life... ************

remember yesterday...

loneliness is what you make of it !!!?

something really strange happened within me. things that i am still trying to understand. things i may not want to understand.

you dont have to like me. heck, most of the time i dont even like me. but if you want to be my friend, you must respect me. otherwise, i have no room for you in my life.

THIS IS A REPOST FROM AN EARLIER JOURNAL ENTRY OF MINE...

(FROM 1/29/2008 12:25:48 PM)

WHAT BUGS ME ON CM??

ok so this is mostly in fun...

1) people who ive never talked to messaging me expecting me to treat them like they are god or like they are automatically my 'master'. why would i call you master? i dont know you... youre not the master of anything in my life... go master yourself!! heh heh

2) guys who message me who make a better looking woman than myself!! damn you all!! haha... give me some of your beauty tips!! (and that only pertains to SOME of them.. some ive seen better looking corpses!! ewww.. look in a damn mirror will ya!!??!!)

3) crybabies!!!

4) thats it i just wanted to have a number 4 lol

i just might possibly be going up for adoption soon....... ?

ok, so what ive typed in my profile is strictly about me and whats happened to me. im not talking about anyone else or what you may or may not be doing. its only me and my opinions about things. and its only my opinion. why do so many people get in such an uproar about what I write on MY profile about ME??
geez.. even if it were about you or someone else... WHAT WOULD YOU CARE WHAT I THINK?? IM NOBODY!! get over it already!!

you offered me a way out
a way to just disappear
everything ive always wanted

everything ive always feared

how nice it would be
just to get up and go
but too many people count on me
thats the only thing i know
staying here is what is right
although my heart longs for so much
it needs to know some freedom

it needs to feel anothers' touch

I WANT YOU TO WANT ME, THE WAY I WANT YOU

ive risen from that place of dark, for now anyways.....

i will attract you with my look
i will intrigue you with my thoughts
i will dominate you with my eyes
i will tease you with my tongue
and for a special one.....
i will love you with my body.

Am I not pretty enough
is my heart too broken
Do I cry too much
Am I too outspoken

Don't I make you laugh
Should I try it harder
Why do you see right through me

I live, I breathe, I let it rain on me,
I sleep, I wake, I try hard not to break,
I crave, I love, I've waited long enough
I try as hard as i can

Am I not pretty enough
is my heart too broken
Do I cry too much
Am I too outspoken

Don't I make you laugh
Should I try it harder
Why do you see right through me

I laugh, I feel, I make believe it's real
I fall, I freeze, I pray down on my knees
I hope, I stand, I take it like a man
I try as hard as I can

Am I not pretty enough
is my heart too broken
Do I cry too much
Am I too outspoken

Don't I make you laugh
Should I try it harder
Why do you see right through me

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