paulfrmfra

I keep turning to D/s and B&D when I'm missing being with someone...  When I am seeing someone, I always wish they were interested in the lifestyle as well.

Incredible the phases that I go through; these days, the need has resurfaced like a banshee! The need being to serve, of course. It's an all consuming desire to be controlled and dominated, in a relationship, not just a couple of hours in a session. Kind of incredible.

Also, and this is something that has been going on for quite some time, I love playing with and torturing my nipples. I've managed to get them to stretch and enlarge (without the usual snake-bite kit  or other suction aides). And it's to the point where sometimes they are just such a turn-on! They can get very firm and are always sensitive now. But what really turns me on about it all is how I fantasize a Woman using them for her pleasure; to hang things from, to pull and squeeze...  there is definitely something there now for a Woman to have fun with.  :-)

I keep thinking about how I'd love to be in a relationship with a power exchange. But meeting someone is difficult enough without the added "complexities" of a BDSM relationship.

I am an eternal optimist. Maybe to a fault....

But it would be wonderful to be in a relationship where She is enjoying shaping my mind and body to suit her needs. Of course, this doesn't come without trust, attraction, feelings...