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	Hey A/all, i have been on CM now for a few months and the time has come to update. I am interested in learning all about the varying aspects of living the BDSM lifestyle :) Feel free to drop me a line sometime!

12/6/2009 3:42:20 PM

Being a sub to me means:

My submissive journey has only just begun, and I am still working out what it means to be a sub. I guess I will spend a lifetime refining the meaning but for now I can only share what I think for the moment. I do believe that being a sub involves giving oneself 100 % to another. Trusting them to care for and nurture, while in return giving them every ounce of your being. Inherent to being a submissive is the need to please your Master/Mistress. Without that desire, there does not seem to be any point. Through my submission I gain pleasure from satisfying my Mistress through fulfilling her requests/requirements regardless of whether I want to complete them or not. Being a submissive means that my Mistresses needs are first and foremost and my thoughts should be constantly centred on what I can do to please her.

What I hope to achieve if I get a permanent collar:

I consider being offered a permanent collar the greatest honour possible. To be officially owned by another, to belong to someone is my ultimate goal. For a Mistress to offer this to me would mean that she deemed me worthy enough to kneel by her side, linked to her name and reputation. It would also mean she was not ashamed or embarrassed of me. If I was ever so lucky to be offered a permanent collar, I would want to constantly please my Mistress and ensure that I did not act in any way that would taint the honour of being given the collar in the first place. My focus would be always on my Mistress and what I could do to become a better sub for her.

11/29/2009 12:04:55 AM

More than anything else I seek an emotional involvement with a dominant partner. After a significant amount of time I have found a way to give myself emotionally to someone, a feat that I never dared think I could achieve, in any lifetime, let alone my BDSM one. The power of my emotional being belongs to her, she has it in her hands, with the ability to do with it as she pleases. The thought of her not being prepared to give herself emotionally to me also crushes my soul.

8/5/2009 10:23:13 PM

After a little over two months of exploring my submissive self I am absolutely certain of only one thing. I still have so much to learn!

I am still very naieve to most things relating to BDSM, and I am afraid that this may come across to Dominants as insolence. I have this tendency to ask stupid questions, but someone did tell my that it is better to ask, than to assume and get it wrong!

When I think about BDSM, and my little experience I feel excited. I am eager to please, and each little taste I get leaves me wanting more. I think about nothing else most of the time. Normally I am afraid of the unknown, but I cannot say this of my BDSM journey, it's not fear that drives me here, but something else entirely.

I have so much to give, I hope in time you will see that.