To be real....

Time after time after time I keep seeing people posting about "fakes" or why they can never find "real" people. I've read journals and watched someone progress from wishful eagerness to meet and grow in BDSM to being jaded and distrusting of everyone! I wonder about this sometimes... is it a matter that we seek out someone to share what some of us fear is "abnormal" or "strange" and the lack of finding someone to trust with our secrets and our faith is so jading that we would rather turn someone down to avoid the chance of being hurt again? Perhaps it's our hope to dive into the new strange world or have that deep relationship that forms between a dom and a submissive and the disappointment of realizing the person you've been chatting with has no real interest in being that meaningful other half to our relationship?

I've been called a fake before, I personally took it as quite offensive. I believe myself truly submissive but not blindly obedient. I will tease and resist at times but when the Dom cracks the whip so to speak, I get in line. The person that called me a fake did so after I refused to send him naked photos of myself as commanded in his first e-mail to me (this was before I was owned). I thought it reasonable that I did not have to do everything this stranger told me to do because I had not yet chosen to submit to him! I firmly believe that submission is something you must give, it can not be demanded or taken. I choose to serve you.

In the end I suppose there is no simple answer to why some people react so harshly to 'fakes' and 'pretenders' but I suspect it is a matter of betrayal that one person feels. We are all looking for acceptance and that deep relationship with deep trust and love so when the hope of such a relationship is lost, we feel hurt....

...and so the rantings of a silly little girlie boy come to an end

A word on Tributes....

I have seen a few doms on collarme.com that demand tribute and such for attention or services. This might sound a touch rough but this sounds like prostitution to me… you pay money for sex. Well ok maybe it’s more they pay money to have a dom spend time with them. Ok I guess I can see that, but it seems wrong that they demand you send them money just for them to talk to you online or in email. I don’t know maybe I’m overly romanticizing this whole thing but it seems like paying money for a dom’s attention isn’t healthy. I mean it’s supposed to be a relationship between submissive and dominant, it just seems weird to me to have to pay the dom for their attention.

Well to argue with myself here, I can see a submissive going out of their way to pay for things like meals or entertainment if they go out with their dominant, or letting the dominant hold your wallet if you want to give up some control. I guess I can see some people view tribute as a form of dedication and giving up financial control but to me I just get the feeling it cheapens the entire relationship between Dominant and Submissive…and in the end I still believe it is about love

Changes, personal growth and collars....

I  have moved in with the dom couple CaptainSpookshow and I have a good feeling about this. I believe Lord B and Lady Jill will help me grow as a person and as a submissive/pet. I am living with them and things are a sort of 'casual' 24/7 where we slip in and out of the Dom/Submissive relationship throughout the day but it's not like I'm being left in a cage or given commands all day. This feels...nice, natural. This is probably one of my biggest steps into submission and I feel very secure in this step...and I feel I can trust Lady Jill and Lord B (the two doms that make up CaptainSpookshow)

Currently talking with a dom couple and not looking at other relationships just now

(feel free to message me to chat but please no messages about submitting just now)