i love it when you message a Dominant and they read your mail but they don't respond.... does that mean there fake??? i mean when DOMINANTS, message me... i usually respond back with a nice reply :) the least you so called DOMINANTS could do is reply back -- is it that hard to type on a keyboard :) that is all

well tonight was awesome -- went to my first BDSM play party and Miss put me up on the cross and wailed on me.. it seemed like i was up there for hours on end -- all i could here was "make "her" say ouch"... obviously they couldnt, because i was taken into subspace... Miss SAID that i broke her massager ball over my butt when she was whipping( i call it a beating) and She also broke one of Sir's canes on my ass...Noone could believe how pain tolerant i was.... it was great and i want to do it again and again -- also i am transitioning and this sub lady came in tonight, and gave me a green and pink dress -- thank you a bunch :) now thats tonights journal entry -- havent wrote one in forever ;)

Todays Journal: NO journal entry tonight -- i will give you a break from my stories :) goodnight everyone :)

just wanted to say a little about my first munch -- it was awesome and i met some new people in the lifestyle as well -- i thank Miss and Sir for allowing me to go with them tonight -- i have learned alot from them :)

TODAYS JOURNAL: Past vs Present

How time flies when your having fun....i myself have a past longer then the eye can see...in my past, i have done alot of good things and also some very bad things...what i am leading to is my life....in the past and right now... When i was trained as a BDSM slave at 12 years old, i didnt think i was gonna like it -- but with my twsited mind -- it turned me on. Now, there was alot of "natural training" and of course on everyday life as well, as hypnotic training with the mind. Now remember when i said about MENTAL BONDAGE lastnight??? the mental bondage is like when your mind is trapped in a whirlpool of rapture -- hynosis is like mental bondage, well a form of it --i have learned alot in my past trainings and servings of Mistresses and Masters....:) Now that brings me to the present, aka the FUTURE. what is my future? well, noone knows that except for the man upstairs, but i have a general idea of what is instore for my future :) The past training i had when i was 12 years old, vs my present training NOW has made me more confident today :) to all the slaves, subs, and Dom/mes out there -- your past will carry you to the present :)

Todays Journal: What is BDSM ??

YOU know when your at a store or maybe even at a library, and you pick up a book or something and you start to read it, and all of a sudden your like "whats this really about"?? Thats kinda like what BDSM is like... some people know the terms, but they really dont know what it entails... Lets take the "B" in BDSM for example... some people say "blowjob" or "bondage".... Well the B is actually bondage... that was a no brainer -- right?? wrong....you would think that bondage would enatil just typing people up... yes, that does happen, however there is a subspace called "mental bondage" I will get into that more later...

Next the D in the word BDSM -- stands for dominance -- what does that word mean to you??  you would think that you would have to be dominant in everything you do -- well that does happen as well -- however people have a lot of labels to put on things, but the dominance i am talking about in this lifestyle, is when a higher superior tells the lower individual what to do, and when to do it.....when i have time -- i will give you the exact definition of these words and what they mean :)

Next the S in BDSM -- is of course sadist -- whats a sadist ?? well dont go to sleep at night, because whether you see it or not -- everyone in the world is a sadist in there own mind -- whether there dominant or not --at the end of this journal tonight i will look up the words i am saying in here so that way you can get a good look at what i am talking about :)

And of course -- the last letter in the BDSM would be the M -- now when you was a kid and you fell down and got a scratch from your bike when you fell -- some of you liked that pain -- thats sorta what its like in the lifestyle -- but a masochist can take just about any type of pain there is -- and again i will be giving definitions for that word as well :)

The following are several decriptions of the lifestyle --> enjoy :)

BDSM is a convenient abbreviation for most of the interesting activities discussed in alt.sex.bondage. It's so convenient that it packs six initials into four letters: B&D/D&S/S&M => BDSM. It's generally understood to include related activities/phenomena that don't fit strictly into any of those three catagories. An "umbrella term" like this is useful because so few actual (as opposed to theoretical) activities fit into only one catagory.

Bondage

Bondage deals with tying people up (or being tied up). Or chaining them up, or restraining them with straps, or straightjackets, or ... well, you get the idea, no? In theory it can be enjoyed simply for its own sake -- the sensations and images of it. In fact, some people do enjoy bondage as bondage, without any interest in D&S or S&M, but far more people find it pushes their D&S buttons at the same time, or use it only for the D&S aspects, or combine it with D&S and/or S&M.

Dominance and Submission

Dominance and submission deals with exchange of power, trust, obedience, role-playing, "slavery" ... one person submitting to the commands of another. Like bondage, it can exist as a separate phenomenon, but it's likely to incorporate the others. Bondage may be used to enhance the feeling of submission. Pain-play (i.e. S&M) may be used to emphasize the position the submissive is in or as punishments for disobedience.

S&M

S&M sort of stands for "sadism and masochism", but not quite the same way the psychiatric establishment uses those terms. So it's less confusing to keep the phrase tidily together as "S&M". S&M involves strong sensations. It's associated with pain, in particular, in most people's minds, but in fact pain is only one class of sensations used. Furthermore, some stimuli which would ordinarily be perceived as pain are not perceived as pain by some participants when in an S&M headspace! (Note that I said "some".) While I don't have statistics on this, it's my impression that S&M is the one phenomenon of these most likely to occur without the others. Nonetheless, it is quite common for one's interest in S&M to be in the context of bondage or D&S (the pain makes it so very much clearer that one can't get away because one is tied up, for example) or simply alongside an interest in bondage and/or D&S.

Interestingly, while most "vanilla" (i.e. not-into-BDSM) people do not consider tickling to be a BDSM activity, many BDSM folks do.

More terminology

Some people like to tie people up, whip people, or give orders. Others like to be tied up, like to be spanked or whipped, or like to obey. Because so many of the words one might use to describe these preferences seem specific to just one aspect of BDSM, push people's buttons, or only fit the ways some people play, folks in the scene use the generic terms "top" and "bottom". (Note that these words have a different meaning in gay male culture, if I'm not mistaken.)

In bondage, a top likes to tie up bottoms. In S/M, a top likes to provide strong stimulation (pain or otherwise) to a bottom. In D&S, a top orders or controls a bottom. A "switch" is someone who enjoys being both a top and a bottom.

Note that it's not always the top who's in control of things -- in fact, much less often than the other way around! For example, a bottom might ask to be tied up, and his or her top might decide to honour that request, asking the bottom if there were any particular things he or she wanted the top to do to him or her tonight. Also, many people use "safewords", code phrases that mean, "I'm not just playing, I really need you to stop." If a couple uses a safeword, the bottom can stop the current activity by using the safeword.

Some people claim that the bottom is always the one who's really in control, no matter how things look. They're mostly right, but things can get more complicated

TODAYS JOURNAL: Reputation as a slave vs reputation as a "normal human being"

Today i have gave some thought into what has been transpiring in my life from my past to my present to NOW... you know when you come to be an adult -- you start to build a reputation..... and what that basically entails is how you build your credit, do in things in your daily life, go to work, and even talk on the phone.... thats all in a normal human beings life -- well you ask why i am writing this ??  well there is also another type of reputation that goes along with this in this lifestyle -- it is called the slave reputation -- what does that consist of ?? well, it consists of how many owners the slave has had, if the slave is a very loyal and dedicated individual, or even if the slave picks up on things quick -- also its not neccessarily how hard the slave works -- its how hard the slave sets its mind to doing things the OWNERS way.... when i say that -- its like -- when your at an auction and the auctioneer says -- how much for this -- and everyone raises there hand at once -- well think of it as a slave auction -- would some want to buy a slave thats freshly new into the lifestyle??? -- and micromanage its every move??? -- well for some yes, but someone thats going to buy something, goes off the individuals reputation -- So new slaves or subs -- the point i leave here with tonight -- is BUILD YOURSELF A SLAVE REPUTATION if you want to be noticed -- i did.................now look where i am :)

Todays journal: Transition vs Reality

Today has been a long and productive day today… this journal is going to be a lil different from the ones before… what comes to mind when you hear the word… “transition”? well, I would think of work, moving to a new city, or even finding a new job… you have to transition into the “change mode”.  Well that’s the point I am trying to make – coming into the lifestyle of BDSM at 12 years old coming into the lifestyle and serving Mistresses, and Masters… is a form of transition… How do you ask? Well lets take a look -à transitioning from your old way of doing things, to be controlled in what you do, eat, wear, and even use the bathroom…Another way of a form of transition is when your told to do something and you have to adjust to what you was doing or how you was doing it in your personal life.. à On that topic – its going to bring me to my next topic in this journal today à what does the word “reality” mean to you? Don’t know?? Well the word “reality” comes from the word or base word “real”à whats real you say?? Well the world is real, your human self is real, and the food you eat is real… why am I mentioning this à that is because the BDSM lifestyle is a reality in everyday life à we are all slaves… well were slaves to taxes and the entire governement à the president is our Master so we must follow him in everyday life à slaves and Masters aka Owners/property à this is what its like in today society as well à we never have no control over our own self à to all the slaves out there that are unowned à when you go and search for your Owner à three things you have to look for: contentment, honesty, and respect, but more important… TRUST THE potential Owner(s) à ask them questions before making a life changing decsion :)

TODAY: i liked when Sir came and picked me up --

TODAY: i loved when Sir and i talking on the way home --

TODAY: i was a little afraid when i was working hard, and not enjoying my work -- that Sir was gonna yell at me

TODAY: i was glad when i got the call from Miss and she asked me -- would you like Sir to come and get you ?

TODAY: i am so looking forward to meeting new people in the lifestyle -- and the training that is still ahead

well today was the first official day that i had arrived to my NEW Owner(s) -- today Sir had boy do several tasks -- first HE told boy to cut the grass -- and boy went over the boundary and cut the ditch included -- then Sir had me cut paper towel rolls into seed pots to start the veggie garden -- after that he told me to take out all the weeds in the garden and to make sure to ENJOY MYSELF -- then he told me to till the dirt because we are getting ready for beans and carrots and peas -- and again he reminded me -- to ENJOY MYSELF -- i did ask Sir some hypothetical questions -- and he told me to "not worry about anything and that everything will be okay" -- after that Sir had me to weedeat the lawn from before -- I have leared alot from Sir, and will soon to hope that i learn alot from Miss as well :)

NOW on to today -- before i was moving, Sir and i had some time to converse -- i think (not sure) that Sir is oepning up to me more and more each day -- Miss had to work today and then before she got home --  Sir had me hop in the shower -- Sir told me to stay in the shower until someone came and got me -- i did -- and thats when Miss came in and asked if i was done -- i helped Miss do a few things and then she gave me direct orders to go and kneel on the floor -- while she done some humiliation play she then said -- kneel in front of me -- and show me some devotion -- i am so happy that Miss and Sir gave me this grand opportunity to be in there presence --

my feelings or thoughts are so superb, today when i was doing the things that Sir asked me to do -- i looked up at the sky (reminded sevral times) and i just wanted to cry -- i told Miss and Sir that noone ever told me to enjoy serving -- and now i see why all the slaves are scared to serve -- i still want to cry for tears of joy -- but for some reason i cant -- but when i dont think about it -- i can LOL.   Miss and Sir are Godsent -- from heavens above -- and i appreciate that God put them in my life :)

Well, all i can say is OWNED ---> I got the call at 8:30pm --> and Miss asked me "how do you feel about Sir picking you up tomorrow" All i could say was GREATTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT --> finally Owned at last --> and now i can be remolded and broke again --> :) thank you Sir and Miss for givong me this grand opportunity :)

well, i woke this morning and went to my interview -- and again -- i took a test and missed one -- therfore you were supposed to miss zero -- so i didnt get hired -- well i thought that was gonna be a miserable day -- yesterday Sir was like "your not going to get hired" and i said your probably right lol -- well Mistress texted me this afternoon -- and asked me how it went and i said -- "i didnt get the job, and that Sir has to be a genius" well Miss said she would call me -- and not even 45 minutes -- SHE called me and we talked for a bit -- Sir and Miss are nothing compared to the previous and past Owner(s) i once had -- after getting off the phone with Miss -- i feel lost now -- is it because i am connected -- or is it because im yearning to be owned so much that it hurts :) ---> also those of you who read this --> please keep my Miss's grandma in prayer as she is on her last wishes slowly --> hang in there Miss ---> submission is a gift :)

WOW, what a fabulous day... It started about 1:30pm when my phone rang and it was COLLARME user: we2foryou or we2foru -- something like that.... Lady Eagle came to my house and picked me up -- when i arrived in her car she handcuffed me -- and we drove down the road -- She started asking questions about me -- and i answered fully -- Before i go any further (the reason why she picked me up was to do yard work for them) When i arrived at the HOUSE -- i was put to work by mowing the grass with a riding lawnmower and then weedeating what the lawnmower couldnt get -- After that, Sir and Mistress set down to eat and then i followed to sit right after them -- Sir made a healthy salad and rolls for dinner -- and i only ate half the salad and ate both rolls and drank my water... after that if i didnt have this interview -- i would have stayed there and been taken back in the morning -- After everything was over -- Sir and Miss went over some household rules -- and they asked me -- "what do you feel is right for you" or something of that nature... before i went home though -- Sir told me to go sit with Miss in her office -- and i was quiet (just texting my friend) and Miss asked me how my massaging skills are -- i said "not very good" or okay :) then after some massaging that was done by me for Miss -- then she took me back home -- she drove me back home and we talked a bit -- and we said our goodbyes --

*Note* ---> the only problem i think i made today was when i got Miss's big toe with the weedeater ----> ..... WOW -- it feels so good to be in service once again ---> Sir and Miss is thinking or have thought about putting me "under consideration" --> the best thing i can give you slaves advice on is ----> life is too short to be scared :)

LEGIT DOMME - youknowwhotoobey -- FROM moline -- we had met today and she did say that i wouldnt be a fulltime slave for her, but she would still use me in ways that is fine and great by me as slave -- EVERYONE, that comes in contact with Miss Tia -- she is a great person and is NOT like all these "pushy Mistresses"

slave has a mentor on here and any potential DOMINANTS that come into contact with slave will AT some POINT.... SPEAK WITH my mentor..... the reason for this is because that way you can hear of what she has to say... about slave and the safety between the potential and or the slave... also my mentor is one of my references and has been a Domme for 22 years....