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I am still searching for either a true Master or Mistress to teach me what it is like to have my control taken away.

I am intelligent, educated, self-sufficient and very capable. I am attractive, witty and fun to be with. I am worth the trouble.

Initial mails of a demeaning nature will just get your profile banned from contacting Me. Let me put that another way; if you call me names or suggest that I am sexually lewd in your first few mails, I will assume that you are not a suitable match and ignore you from that point forward.

Thank you for reading.

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9/2/2006 6:30:04 AM

Hey guys,

Another crazy week has been put to bed. Got to bed at a fairly respectable hour last night and slept right through to noon.

Remember I told you I had been promised chocolate and champagne? Well, both were excellent. No, no men were involved. A friend of mine who happens to be a girl (last time I said 'girlfriend', a thousand drooling guys mailed me for details) invited me over for dinner, bubbles, chocolate, Rom-Com and Haagen-daz. She knows what makes me tick. Somewhere around midnight between 'Stage Beauty' and 'Somethings gotta give', we started talking about what she was working on. Turned out she had a shoot Saturday afternoon and she invited me along.

One lazy morning later we hopped in her jeep and drove over to the studio. The guy showed up late but was cute enough to forgive. He was trying to get his portfolio together for a modelling interview. My friend - evil bitch that she is :¬) - suggested he might like to include some shirt-off shots. He thought it was a good idea.

I just spent a few evening during the week helping her go through the proofs. But that is just the kind of friend I am - always ready to help a girl friend in need. [innocent little smile]

Am I evil ?


8/25/2006 7:30:52 AM
Hello silkie-fans !

Time to hang up my halo and put on my weekend face. I am feeling good ! Looking forward to having a few days off 'cause this week was sheer MADNESS.

What is the word? - I can never remember whether it's flotsam or jetsam. It describes the crud that washes up on the beach after big waves. Y'know ... the stuff that is absolutely useless !! It doesn't look good, sound good, smell good and anywhere it touches leaves an icky feeling.

Why do I ask ?

More slugmail

"I will own you completely. You will follow my every command no matter how simple or complex. I will guide you in every aspect of your life, from what you wear to what you eat to whom you are allowed to talk to.be my gang babg s!ut and w&ore. You will In my home you will be nude and collared 24/7. When I come home you will have your ass in the air ready for me to fu€k it and c^m in your mouth. You will be my property and nothing else."

I swear I am not making this up. This on a first mail. He didn't bother disguising four of the words that I have edited above.

He didn't even say hello ?

Y'know what? I don't care. It is the weekend and I am going to kick my heels up and have some fun. I have been promised chocolate and champagne. [wls]

I will be back with you all on Monday.

silkie has left the building

8/1/2006 6:06:16 AM
Hey guys,

Logging on while taking lunch at My desk. I don't usually do it but I wanted to check and see if a mail had come in.

And I found this in my inbox. Just imagine the warm fuzzies it gave me to know there was someone out there who knows me so well that he can see right through my pathetic attempt to disguise what I truly am.

"
I just love to make pain sluts scream and cry
while they make me feel great. Well what you need you will get from me
slave!!! Currently still only submissive I see. So how about [Location deleted to protect the identity of those living there] for
your little slave soul? ..."

It goes on in that vein but I won't waste your bandwidth. I was so underwhelmed that I could not bring myself to contact such a perceptive and sensitive man.

However, if the author of the aforementioned mail IS reading this, please DO wait for me to contact you before sending me any more mails. I don't think I could stand the excitement of any more mails of such quality and clarity in my little slave soul.

*silkie goes off muttering in quite a brat-like fashion*

7/20/2006 11:05:23 AM
Hello peeps,

I finally got around to updating my profile. I have included more information than I have ever put up before.

The main reason I did not put this up before was for issues of privacy. Sounds weird, huh?

I was just kinda twitchy about putting my preferences up for all and sundry to see.

But I guess that is why I am here.

So *deep breath* here goes ...


7/11/2006 11:19:07 AM
Hello people,

she's back, she's bad, she's slightly mad!!!

Okay, not mad maybe -- just a bit frazzled with work and other things. I have tried to get back before now but got dragged away before I could get too far. I have a new boss. When he walked in everyone in the office did a double-take. Sharp suit. Blue, BLUE eyes, one of those chisled chins that you cannot find outside of chicklit.

Mmmm, I thought!

Two days later, he asked me to stay late and go over some of the draft scripts. No way! I thought. This is just too cliched.

Turns out all he wanted to do was go over the damn scripts. But. He is really nice.

And so gay.
Damnit.

But it does make coming into work more fun in the mornings. 

There were a couple of pages of mails waiting for me when I signed in. I am going to apologise right now for not being able to respond to all of them.

Lots of people ask me to write back and tell them if I am not interested. Thank you for the courtesy but I don't even have time for that right now. If you have not received a reply, I am sorry. It does not mean that you never will, but it does mean that have not responded to your last mail. I am grateful for the compliment of your having taken the time to sit down and write to me.

So, about these recent mails. Um, guys ? I am not a Domme. No, really. I am REALLY not a Domme.

Nope, not really interested in being a Domme!

Well, not yet anyway. Mind you, there is one or two of the people who sent me mails who would greatly benefit from having their you-know-whats under the 4-inch heel of a strict Mistress. I am not a slut and putting the word into three sentences on eight separate occasions will not endear me to respond. *sweet smile*

Not favourably, at least!

Again, I have to say that right now, I am not in a position to relocate. Yes, I know you have more money than Croesus (if you dont know, look it up, or ask me -- *grins*). Yes, I know you have a big boat/big car/big house and I am sure I would love to join your stable but -- not. right. now.

Oh yes. If you happen to have a big anything else -- I SO do not need to see it. Not sleeping, not at half-mast, not saluting the colours.

I am a nice, normal girl. All I want is a nice home, someone to love, little white fence -- dungeon in the basement.

That's another thing! WHY don't Irish houses HAVE basements? I mean, they are great for storage, nice quiet places for TV room, or a study. Or, say, a dungeon.

No, think about it! Nice solid walls. Probably a few wooden beams to hang chains out of. Some candles, maybe a pillow or two and it would be quite homely.

[sigh]
A girl can dream can't she?
~~~

5/1/2006 6:23:09 AM
Hey guys !

::sighs::
I am back. I don't know for how long but I wanted to come back in and leave some news.

The last few months have been kinda busy. I have had to deal with a lot of unexpected stuff. Very little of this needs - or requires - to be mentioned on here. So I won't.

I want to apologise to a few people for not being able to keep in touch. I think you already know who you are.

My life is still full of things I have to deal with right now - so matters of CollarMe must wait - but one day I will be back with enough time to properly reply to those whom I would like to get to know a little better.

And for those of you who have been following the journal ... 'Fraid it didn't work out with my movie quoting friend.

I am sure this will make some of you out there VERY happy.

So, keep writing to me if you are still interested - only ...

... one little hint ... ?

The opening line - Yes! The OPENING line - of a conversation probably shouldn't be

"Hey babe. Bet youve gotta great ass   write youre number in lipstick on it and send me the pic   okies ?"

Do you think he got what he was looking for ?

Show some interest in me (rather than a few square inches of my body), or make me smile or - at least - for the lovagad, try to be vaguely polite. It might save your bandwidth.

Sorry if I sound like a bitch right now.

10/27/2005 11:06:59 PM


Hey there ! :¬)

It is nice to have a little time to post again. I am enjoying being back. More in the last day or so, if I am honest, than I have for a while.

I have met a few new people - okay, I haven't MET people - but I have been contacted by a few interesting folks; the author, the lunatic pianist, Army Guy (with the muscles ;¬)) Thanks guys ... It is being fun !

And there are the constant friends, like Mel. Another magnet. The Seadog. And Sarge, Where have you been lately ? And a possible new friend also ... Hey kitten !

And then there was a mail I received yesterday. No, not like that. This was kind of cool. It was just a quote from "Princess Bride" and the way He put it made me smile. So, I thanked him. And He wrote back and said I was welcome. And He seems nice.

And, and ... and I'll let you know how it turns out.

Anyhooo, going away for the weekend so have a really great one and be excellent to one another.

silkie
[already bracing for the plethora of hands waving in the air and the 'I know what movie that's from ! Me, Me, Me, silkie']


10/23/2005 4:26:29 AM


Hey peeps !

Two updates in two days? Inconceivable! And yes, I do think I know what that word means. And the movie that it comes from.

Yeah, I'm a dork. So, spank me ... !
I used to say 'sue me' but this is more fun ... ;¬)

Thank you so much for the warm welcome back. It is really, really nice to hear such nice things being said. Thank you all.

I apologise to those that I have not managed to get around to responding to. There is never enough time to get to everyone. I promise I read every message and many make me smile.

Peculiar thing. Ever since I mentioned that I like bikes - what ? You didn't know I have a thing for motorcycles ? - anyway, ever since I mentioned it, more and more guys are posing with a bike.

Dirtbikes, streetbikes, superbikes, cruisers and ... OMG ... a Soft tail !!!!

Okay, back. Got distracted there again.
Guys ... it works ! Pose with a bike and you got my attention, no question.

The only problem is ... how do you pick the right bike to pose with that will get me sitting up and grinning ... without just being the man-shaped blur in the background as I focus on the bike ?

Not asking for much, am I ?

And where ... Oh where ... are the girls with bikes ?

Be good to yourselves.

Silk
::now off to read 'I will NOT try to Top from the bottom in Ten Easy Lessons'::

10/22/2005 11:42:35 AM


Hello everyone.

It feels like I have been gone forever ! I know, I know ... I am supposed to be using small 'i's 'cause I am a lowly subbie and don't deserve to use an upper-case letter.

Or something.

To those of you to which it matters, I am sorry. I truly mean no disrespect. It is just strange for me to think of it that way.

It is nice to see that, even though I have been away, the same people are still here.

Sometimes using different names. Sometimes using different genders. Still the same mails ... down to the poor spelling and bad punctuation.

In the last 20 minutes, reading through the mails I had waiting, I have been referred to as a whore, a f&cksl&t, a c&msl&t, a f&cktoy and a ho.

Always in a nice way, you understand. As in the "Hey ! [insert name used above here] Wanna be abused and raped ? How about this weekend ?"

There was more, but you get the gist of the mail.

Guys, most of you are really, really nice ! But there are a very small few that need to get a freaking clue ...

Girls, if you can live without this kinda response. You know what you have to do. Block the fudermucker and report the mail to the Mods at CollarMe.

Apologies for the rant.
I was just really looking forward to being able to come back and find something nice waiting.

Silkie

8/15/2005 5:28:31 AM
Hello peeps,

Well, I'm back !

Thank you to those people who left messages of good luck. Thanks also to those who kept asking why had I disappeared and why I wasn't on-line anymore.

Sorry, thought the journal entry explained that I was going to be away for a little while.

It went well, BTW. Thank you for asking.
Actually, it went so very well that I am back on assignment from the end of this week. I am going to have to spend the rest of the week clearing the backlog of things that have happened while I have been away. Before going away again ...

Anyhooo ...

A few of you constant readers hazarded a guess as to where I had been.

No, I was not in Paris.
No, I was not doing the Da Vinci Code thing.
No, I was nowhere near Roissy.
No, I was not doing the whole Story of O thing either.

Where I was at least gave me an opportunity to get up close and personal with some hardcore ... architecture.

The Basilica di San Giovanni in Laterano, a lovely little church in Bavaria and the Frauenkirche in Munich.

The things I do for God and Country ... on an expense account.

So, no one got it correct.
Therefore, no extra photos this time and no rewards.

"Must try harder in future" is going straight on your report cards, children !

I will check in when I can and hope to see you all soon.


8/5/2005 10:34:57 AM

Hello people,

 

This is just a quick entry before I disappear off to fly the friendly skies. Something came up and I was made an offer I couldn’t refuse.

 

No, it didn’t involve a horses’ head.

No, it didn’t involve a horses’ ANYthing !

 

No, I am not going to either Thailand or Scandinavia.

No, it didn’t involve cages, welding anything anywhere or barbed-wire piercings.


Don't even ask !
 

I am not going to be around for the next week or so.

Try not to forget me while I’m gone.

 

Remember to let the cat out once in a while.

And feed the goldfish.

 

I have just had an evil impulse … [weg]

One person I know is on here and knows where I am going. She won’t tell ! ;¬)

 

If anyone else correctly guesses what I am doing, I will post another photo on my profile AND send them a special photo as a thank-you-and-well-done.

 

I am going to be travelling through Europe and visiting three major points of a story.

No, I am not going to give you another hint.

 

Sufficient incentive to keep you interested until I get back to amuse you once again ?

 

I’ll come back soon.

 

Silkie


7/29/2005 8:34:46 AM

So, welcome to the weekend.

Assuming of course that you are reading this on Friday. If not, hope you are having / had a great weekend.

Here in Ireland we are looking at a Bank Holiday weekend ... pity it has been raining for three days :¬(

So anyway, the adventure continues - as my friend Melissa says - and so too do the offers.

I got a mail a few days ago that started off a bit abruptly. I thought that the person who sent it was quite rude...turns out he seems to be a nice guy. Notwithstanding his request to consider letting him punch pieces of steel through VERY sensitive parts of my body.

And being chained outside.
In Norway.

I did ask if it would be cold.
Apparently it would be.

I am not sure if it was the 5mm rings through my ... well, never mind ... you can just imagine where, or being in a steel chain outside that I considered worse !

Actually, I do.
I LIKE being warm.

Then there was the charming four-word introduction of "Enjoy big black men?" to which my attempts at being disingenuous just seemed to encourage him.

So he showed me his photo.

Oh My God !
He was not kidding !

Just hope I can get to see some more of the muscles.

And, of course, the regular round of "give up your IM and phone number, $!u7 / B!7€# / other four-letter gynecological noun ... go buy a web-cam and I will consider taking you on as MY on-line slave, $!u7 / B!7€# / other four-letter gynecological noun.

Guys ... really ! It doesn't work ... trust me on this one. If you don't want to believe me, stand up, walk out of your bedroom, go downstairs ...

... and ask Mom !

On the upside, I have met a few cool people this week. There is one I am flirting with - just a LITTLE - at the moment. I can do that ! It is allowed. It is not his name but I always think of him as Marlon when I see his name pop up. There is Mr. Muscle, of course. There is a guy who taught me something about trains - kinda :¬) and a guy who thinks I am insane.

And to think I was considering pulling my profile.

Anyway, I am quite satisfied because I have managed to respond to every mail I recieved this week. Granted, some of the responses I made were short.

Okay, very short !

But I responded to everyone. I DO try to not be rude no matter what I see when I open the mail.

So, have a really, really great weekend and I will see you soon.

Oh yes ! One other thing ...
I think I may be turning into a brat.
:¬D


7/26/2005 11:37:17 AM
Right, back after the break :¬)

Thank you nice collar-me-admin-type-people for letting me post again.

No. That was a joke ... I am sure it was something else entirely.

People are still mailing me. I guess you haven't got tired of me yet. Getting a lot of comments about how much you like the journal ... let me know what you'd like to hear and I will try to oblige.

For all of you who have been mailing and not getting any response, I am sorry ... I have been very busy lately.

[slaps own wrist]
My CollarMe Report Card reads "Must try harder !"


7/18/2005 12:52:51 PM
I have received mails asking when I am going to update my journal.

I would love to.

But the last few entries I tried to still don't appear to have hit the site.

Please, please nice collarme-admin-people ... was it something I said ?

:¬)

6/15/2005 11:29:18 PM

Hello.

 

I have not been able to be on-line as much as usual lately. I have popped in from time to time to pick up messages and see what was going on. Unfortunately, I have had NO time to respond to anyone. Please don’t think I was ignoring you, I just didn’t have time to do anything about it.

 

If you are interested in getting in touch, and I have not responded, do not give up. Give me a week or so and try again.

 

I will be back soon.

 

And No !

That didn’t sound ANYTHING like Arnold Schwarzenegger   :p


5/31/2005 7:02:32 AM
I spoke to a friend recently who has a lot more experience of these things than I do. It was in relation to some mails I had received. Her opinon went along the lines that some people are definately in need of therapy.

What were we talking about ? Well, two of the mails I recieved over the weekend were as follows;

A scandinavian Dom mailed me and wanted to weld piercings is some VERY sensitive parts of my anatomy. Why weld, you ask ? Well, apparently, once they were welded in place, I would not be able to remove them.

Say it with me, girls !
Ouchie !!

The other was an offer to fly to Bangkok (at my own expense), where I could - if I wished - be kidnapped at the airport and wake up in a training cage. Experience was not essential as all sexual training would be given. I should plan on it being a long term stay, I was told.

Now, when I was growing up, I used to dream of a lot of different things. Ending up on the floor of a cellar in Thailand was not one of them, as far as I can remember.

No.
Pretty sure that didn't feature in the Barbi meets Ken series of adventures !

Now, don't get me wrong. Thailand is a beautiful country. It is simply that I would have no interest in seeing it through the bars of a training cage.

I don't think that has much of a career path ?

5/30/2005 6:45:07 PM
Questions for the guys.
How many times have you walked up to a pretty girl and said ; "You are obviously a bisexual sl&t. Tell me what you like to do with girls!" ?

What kind of reaction do you think you might get ?

Why do you think you will do any better if you ask me the same question ?

Seriously, Guys ! If your ability to finesse a girls' attention is as skilled as your apparent ability to introduce yourself as one of the higher primates, I am not surprised you are sitting in front of a keyboard on a Saturday night.

5/30/2005 6:23:00 PM

Ice-cream.

Ice-cream is a very undemanding pleasure. I decided to go with Phish food. I was good ... I didn't eat it all.

Okay! I didn't eat it all at once !!

175 mails over the weekend - just when I thought people were getting tired of me. Seriously. At the start, there was a lot of mails, then it eased off and I thought "Okay, that was my 15 minutes of fame." Seems not  !

Still trying to catch up with the responses. If I have not managed yet, be patient with me please. If you cannot be patient, feel free to mail me again.


5/30/2005 6:20:20 PM
Shall I tell you a secret ?
If your mail can make me smile, I will probably respond. If you can make me laugh, then I will probably look for your name in the incoming mails.

If you keep asking for naked photos, or when I will be ready to relocate to [insert location here], your ability to arouse my interest - or anything else - will diminish. :-)

Please do not take offence, it is just that I am not that kind of girl. There are a lot of us on here who think in exactly the same way.

5/27/2005 3:31:23 PM
Oh. One more thing.

Someone I have been admiring since I first came here has contacted me, just to say 'Hi' and say they like my journal.

And that REALLY cannot go anywhere !

Dammit.

(might just get that Cherry Garcia after all !)

5/27/2005 3:26:12 PM
Many, many new messages !

Guys, I am sorry - but there are simply too many to respond to with my life story / complete list of interests / reasons why I deserve to be accepted as a submissive by you.

I am responding to as many as I can. I will admit, some are very short responses, but I read each and every one. And I have not blocked anyone yet.

One of you came close, but redeemed himself at the last moment. :-)

And, a really sweet guy has contacted me. He seems really, REALLY nice but he lives a long way away. I am trying to decide how to handle it. I kinda like him already - which, I will be the first to admit, is kind of weird 'cause I don't know him - but it cannot go anywhere. So, should I stop it before it goes somewhere that will lead me to the Ben 'n Jerry area of the fridge ?

Sigh.

I need more sleep.
Which is where I am going right now !

Night, guys.
Thanks again for waiting up for me. See you in the morning.

5/27/2005 3:18:24 PM
And I am back !

I have spent a lot of time over the last few days in my car, listening to the radio and people waxing lyrical about the police and the 'should-they-have' / 'shouldn't-they-have' debate.

I wrote another two paragraphs, but deleted them immediately. My views on this are not relevant. Enough people are burning up the airwaves with their personal beliefs.

A good friend of mine was held up by a guy with what was probably a real gun a few months ago. He took her purse, her watch and a large amount of her self-confidence.

That might have been the groping.
He had one hand free, you see, after putting her stuff inside his sweatshirt.

My views on what I would have done to him if I COULD have are also not relevant.

So if, over the last couple of days, any of you may have seen a p!$$3& off looking blond somewhere in the Donnybrook area strangling the steering wheel in a little black car ... now you know !!

Grrrrr !!!!!!!!!!!!

5/23/2005 12:26:45 PM
I started this journal to 'Shhh' some of the jitters I was having on my first day. It kinda worked.

Then I posted my thoughts on a message I had recieved. people wrote back and told me they really enjoyed seeing it. I posted another about a job offer I had been presented with.

Since then, I have had a lot of messages saying that you really enjoy the accounts and to please keep going. One girl told me she enjoyed that entry so much, she sprayed her morning coffee across the monitor.

And I recieved one message saying that it was off-putting for genuine Doms and implied a mockery of real Doms.

On the earlier matter of the ... Ahem ... Client-facing slave; in retrospect, it is not for me. That is not to say that I descry anyone for whom it is a deep-rooted dream. I will stand and applaud then for going after what they want.

It just is not for me.

If I have affronted any genuine Doms or Dommes, please believe that was not my intent. I was just posting my own thoughts on messages I had recieved. I do not want to upset anyone who may, in the future, be holding a long piece of leather near my bottom.

5/23/2005 6:44:08 AM

Hello everyone, I think I have lost my nervousness. My mail count has reached almost 200 messages. Many of them were lovely !

Most were male mail. Most of those were quite pleasant. The others were amusing. Okay, some were shocking but when I had a chance to think about what they were saying, I was amused.

Kind of.

And the award for most amusing mail goes to ;

"... we own a [information deleted] company, most of our clients are large office buildings and it is often that we bid on contracts and that is where we would want you to tip the scales in our favor."

"... for our clients sort of [a sex servant], but you may [also] on ocassion be required to please a client with your body ..."

But I get a day off during the week and have my food and clothing chosen.

Lucky, lucky me !


5/22/2005 6:26:51 AM

I have just received my first offer of marriage.

It was a foregone conclusion that I would give up my career, relocate to an uncertain future, and bring up his children.

All this on the fourth mail.
What's a girl to do ?


5/22/2005 4:42:24 AM

Well there was my first day !

67 responses to my profile isn't TOO bad, I s'pose. I've met another submissive (who has a lovely photo with a corset - waves at CmK!) and SHE had 97 by last night.

Not sure if I'm jealous or I hate her !
Just joking, sweetie ! :-)

I have had an education regarding the male of the species. I had heard that people who post on dating sites get a lot of "You're here so you must want it BADDD...drop your linen and spread...!". I ALWAYS thought it was an urban myth.

Right ?

Nope.

A good few of the 67 responses were of the one-line variety. I paraphrase them as "I recognise you as the $lu+ you are. Send ME your naked photo, e-mail, messenger, phone number and wait for MY call ! you are now MY property."

Shock, became bemusement, became amusement.

Happily, the majority of men who contacted me have been lovely, and they are being very helpful with my silly newbie questions.

Thank you, you know who you are.

I am also talking to a rather intimidating woman from Sweden. She has made me a VERY interesting offer. My head is saying "Are you mad ?". Other voices are saying "Mmmmm........!"

I am really glad I came on here. I am having the best time.

Talk to you all soon.


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