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Two days ago i learned that pleasing my Mistress was evolving from a desire to a need. That evening W/we talked online and the main topic was some of the things She would do with me when we next meet next week. my Mistress was direct about what she intended to do with me and what i will become. my head was spinning as yet again i realised She really intended to make me into the lowly worthless slut that i had always secretly craved to be. my face was red, my cock was rigid and i could feel my need to submit in the pit of my stomach. After about twenty minutes of talking she suddenly said "nite" and fell silent. At first i asked if everything was alright with no reply. i worried that i had displeased or offended Her. i began to apologise and then to grovel. i felt slightly ill with worry.  After increasingly rambling apologies i asked "is there anything i can offer You to please You that i have not?". Then at last i had a reply "oh dear is the little slut panicking?". i confessed i was and my Mistress found it hilarious. She had had to answer the phone for an important call and i had dissolved into a complete state by the time She returned.

i realised how hard my Mistress's disapproval or disappointment hits me now and how deeply the need to please Her is already ingrained. i know that this need will grow stronger and become the invisible collar and lead that my Mistress will use to lead me further and further down into submission. Later that evening i texted my Mistress and said i was glad that i had amused her but would try not to be a whiny pain in the ass in future.  my reply was "Did you not enjoy Your mind fuck?"

During my previous task some Dominant gay men had enquired whether my Mistress ever lent me out to be used on webcam. When i first put my new profile on here a gay Master had asked about hiring me for online use and my Mistress had been agreeable to the proposition. He did not follow up this proposition in the end. i therefore knew it was possible that i would have to entertain people online. She had already said that she thought it would be good for me.

The following day (02/01/12) my Mistress.informed me that She was lending me to one of the gay Maters for online. She told me to report to Him but to keep Her informed as it was only a loan and i was still Her property. i set up a Skype account and reported for use as ordered. i knew that my Mistress intends for me to suck a cock for Her entertainment amongst many other things and i felt that this was forming part of my education and training. i also knew that this was to be another step towards becoming a male slut to be used by my Mistress and anyone else Whom She decided. 

He contacted me on Skype in the afternoon and i called him Sir as my Mistress had taught me i should. She had told me to be a good slut and to make Her proud of me as such. i was determined to be respectful and to please Him and in doing so please my Mistress. After agreeing to be on camera at 22:00 He told me to go on webcam quickly so i obeyed. He had me strip off and show him my cock and bend over and show my spread ass. He then had me lube and finger my ass. i had to play with my cock for His entertainment while He had me agree to his comment that i was a "dirty fucking cunt". Next i had to bend over and spank my ass cheeks twenty times each. i was then made to try to make and put on a pair of pants made out of a bin liner. i tried but was unable to put the bin liner on properly. i was told i would try again for Him that evening. i was told that i should report with bin liners, lube, my butt plug, my collar, toothpaste, lotion, four clothes pegs and a clear vessel to piss into. If i forgot anything i would be punished. It felt strange to have submitted to a man but He had only typed instructions so it was somewhat removed from the reality of another man using me.

my Mistress wanted to know what had been done with me and how it had made me feel. That evening She texted me and i told Her about my day. i unthinkingly sent a joking text about something She had said. i was ordered to do fifty sit ups immediately and told "How DARE you be rude to ME". i felt mortified that i had displeased Her and told Her so during a grovelling apology when i had done fifty sit ups. i felt awful and i was surprised by how much displeasing my Mistress affected me. It was a horrible feeling. She then told me "What i say and how i say it does not require comment from a worthless little whore". It was like being slapped across the face. In that moment it really hit me that She was right. That was my status now. That is my place and who and what i am. i felt totally humbled and more submissive than i ever had. my Mistress then checked that i was ready and told me "be a good whore, make Me proud".

i set up my webcam and prepared to submit and entertain the Master. i laid out the items i had been told to have ready and waited behind them naked on my knees. i felt nervous and did not fully know what to expect. my Mistress had told me to obey and please Him. i knew He planned to humiliate me as well as making me put on a show of submission for His entertainment. While i waited i reflected on how much had changed within me since i became the property of my Mistress. i had become more submissive to Her and felt a greater need to please. i also realised that this was just the start of my journey as Her slave. i wondered for what, and by Who, i might find myself waiting naked on my knees to be used in future. After around twenty minutes He had not come online. i texted my Mistress and recieved the one word reply of "patience". i resolved to be patient and at 23:00 He came onto Skype. i nervously readied myself and prepared for whatever uses He had for me only to be told He was busy.

i was surprised to feel disappointment. Surely i should be regarding it as a lucky escape? i realised that i felt robbed of the opportunity to entertain my Mistress with all that had been done. Later when i had thought about it i was able to tell my Mistress that i knew that deep down i also felt disappointed that i hadnt been used. She said " See you truly are a slut toy". Yet again my Mistress was identifying this need in me and i was beginning to understand and accept who and what i am.

i had very mixed feelings initially after being so casually disregarded.  A part of me felt annoyed for being "messed about" another part felt excited by being treated in such a desultory way. My feelings began to sway towards annoyance as i realised i was disappointed. In the past when i was unowned i might have made a disrespectful remark to Him. i  knew that my Mistress would want me to be respectful no matter what though. Then it dawned on me. i was a mere piece of property now and had been lent out as such. This was yet another understanding of my status. The master had no duty or reason to be considerate towards me. It would be like worrying about the happiness of a table or your car. This is what i had wanted to become when i first submitted to my Mistress and now my wish was coming true

After a day my Mistress called a halt to my task to get six texts "confirming that you are a dirty whore who needs it's slut hole fucked hard" from Dominant men on Collarme and . i started by messaging Doms who had viewed my profile already on collarme. i then tried gay or bi Doms that were online as i wrote. i must be respectful to all Dom/mes at all times and i tried to ensure that i followed this rule during my task.

After a day i had not met my target but having reviewed my responses my Mistress decided that i had tried hard enough and called a halt. i would like to thank those that confirmed what i am and need now. There were others who expressed disinterest but still took the time to reply to me. i would like to thank Them too and apologise if my initial message was an irritant or a waste of Their valuable time.

Today i was given my first task of the year. Mistress told me "your task is to approach Masters on Collarme and and get six responses confirming that you are a dirty whore who needs it's slut hole fucked hard. Have fun my slut". i have to begin this task this evening and don't know what sort of response i will get. i have been told it had better be good. i feel very humiliated knowing i will do this but i am also glad that it will hopefully amuse and entertain  my Mistress.

Last night my Mistress told me to wear the panties She had picked out for me when i went out. It felt strange to have a reminder of my submission in places where my submissiveness is normally not in my mind. i tried to forget about it but every time i thought about it my cock got hard. When i got home i talked to my Mistress and She had me rub my rigid cock through my panties while She decided whether She was going to let me cum or not.  i also had to rub my "slut hole" through my panties while She made me wait. i had to beg and tell Her how much i wanted Her to use and degrade me before finally She said "get on your knees on the floor in your pretty pink pants and wank, but you have exactly 5 minutes to cum". i was so aroused and so pent up that i came within minutes. i shuddered and spurted and found myself on my knees spent and broken as my Mistress told me "Happy New Year My little slut, 2012 is going to be filled with lots of fun and you are going to be My little toy - used and abused and left wanting more".

This morning i met my Mistress in person for the first time. i was to go shopping with Her to carry Her bags and take Her to lunch. i met my Mistress in a park and ride car park and we took the bus to the centre of town. my Mistress naturally took the last empty seat while i stood before Her.

my Mistress browsed a number of clothes shops and bought a top at Marks and Spencers. i carried shopping baskets and the carrier bag. After an hour or so my Mistress took me into a ladies underwear shop. She made it quite plain that She was looking for a pair of ladies panties for me. i am easily embarrassed in such situations and she was hugely amused by my embarrassment.  She picked out a pair of lacy pink panties for me. i carried around that bag with my new pair of panties inside it for the rest of the day. W/we had a very pleasant lunch in a Spanish restaurant. my Mistress then continued clothes shopping again. The clothes shopping was interrupted by a look in the Anne Summers shop to see if there was a bigger butt plug for me to start using. my ass needs to be able to take my Mistress's strap-on and anything else She wants. 

When the time came to take the bus home i was allowed to sit side by side with Her. my Mistress left hand began to stroke the inside of my right thigh. i had been walking around in a state of semi-arousal all day as my Mistress made teasing comments and generally had fun. my cock was now rigid as i sat in the window seat with my Mistress's hand exploring me. i cannot remember anything of the bus journey except the sensations of my body. i felt so submissive and i think i whispered that i was Her property into Her ear. i was in a complete daze. i felt Her hand running over my balls, my hard cock and down underneath me as She searched for the entrance to my ass.

i can't remember walking from the bus to the carpark. i do remember standing in the carpark as she held my cock through my jeans and kissed me. She held the cock that was Her property now. i remember instictively holding my hands behind my back as this happened at one point. i stood there offering myself to Her.

i was in a stunned, horny, submissive, happy mess when i finally sat in my car.  i had met my Mistress and She had confirmed and shown that She owned me.my Mistress told me to take some pictures of my new panties and to post them on my profile. i have done this and updated my journal. It has been a busy and very enjoyable day.

my Mistress wanted to know how many clothes pegs i could attach to my cock and balls before the pain became too much. i was told to send a picture showing my efforts to my Mistress. i attached twenty pegs and took some pictures. i told my Mistress who said "is that all?". The pictures i had taken were somewhat blurry. my Mistress had a simple solution. She told me to "do it again". The second time i managed to attach twenty four  pegs and it was agony. The pictures i took a second time were no better. my Mistress was hugely amused and decided i could be allowed to stop trying. It was a relief as i knew i had to get up the next morning to go and meet my Mistress in person for the first time.

i am going to be my Mistress's shopping slave on Thursday! i will carry Her bags and buy Her lunch. i am so excited. It is another step towards being the slave She wants. i can't wait to meet Her and meet Her eye. i knowing that this is the woman who owns me now. Her appraising me and knowing that She has total power over me. i hope She will meet me and enjoy the prospect of having me as Her slave. To the rest of the world we will appear totally normal but we will both know my status and that i am just a piece of Her property. This excites me enormously. i think i will feel even more submissive when i stand in front of Her than i do now. If that's possible!

my Mistress told me to go and buy a leather dog collar to wear until She can collar me properly. i purchased one from a pet shop. It's black leather with metal fittings. i now have to wear it whenever i'm online. i am currently updating this journal naked, collared and with my butt plug in as my Mistress has told me to. Being like this makes me feel owned and also makes me feel like a submissive, owned male slut. i love that feeling and my body is constantly aroused.

Yesterday i set my alarm to ring for 20:00. It was 17:45 and my task was to stand in a corner without moving for two hours. i would be naked with my butt plug inserted. If my phone rang i was to ignore it. i am the property of my Mistress and She had decided She wanted Her property in the corner naked with a butt plug up his ass for two hours.  my Mistress had told me to hold my hands behind my back and stand totally motionless for the entire two hours. For the first ten minutes or so i achieved this relatively easily. i'd had to blink but then settled on keeping my eyes closed and trying to let my mind just drift. Some slight itches came and went. i resisted the temptation to move. i have very sensitive lips and coming up twenty minutes i had to moisten with my tongue. i believe this was the only movement i made for around three quarters of an hour. i had also tensed my ass against my butt plug to give myself the feeling of movement. i don't believe this caused any external movement though. At this point i had realised the corner i'd chosen wasn't the warmest place in the world. i was feeling a tingling from the soles of my feet but didn't know if this was from not moving or from the cold.

After three quarters of an hour my body betrayed me. i had shooting pains in my knee. i had to take my weight off it and lean against the wall until it subsided. i stayed in the corner but i knew that my task had been to stay motionless. i resumed my position and continued. It was frustrating. i had set my mind on achieving my task and had been unable to do so. i also did not know how my Mistress would react to my failure. The previous day i had failed Her. i wanted to perform Her task perfectly to try and make amends and show my gratitude for my second chance. i have played football for many years and have injured that knee twice. i had not realised it would give out or i would have told my Mistress.

Finally after what seemed an age my alarm sounded and my task was over. Still naked and butt plugged i contacted my Mistress. She questioned me and learnt all the facts of my performance. She appreciated that i had tried my best and i was not in trouble. i was so relieved. my Mistress was amused that Her "little slut" was so happy. my Mistress even decided to let me cum as a reward for my efforts. i was permitted to wank but had to cum in a glass and then drink it. i gladly did as my Mistress told me to.

i felt mentally and physically drained but happy. i asked if i might remove my butt plug but received a curt "no" in reply. About fifteen minutes later my Mistress said "You really are a worthless little whore at heart aren't you". i became aroused immediately. i have never recovered after cumming that quickly before. i had to agree that i was. my Mistress had seen straight into my heart.

i was later given permission to remove my butt plug. i once again experienced that strange feeling of missing it once it had gone. 

On Saturday i did not complete my task and jeopardised my future as Mistress Cane's slave. i should have stood in the corner motionless with my butt plug in for two hours. Circumstances made it difficult for me and i didn't do my task. i sent my Mistress an email explaining what had happened. What i should have done was text Her telling Her my circumstances so that She could decide what i would do. Instead i made a decision. i should not have done this and now find it hard to understand why i did it. On Sunday morning my Mistress learnt that i had failed Her. i failed Her twice over. i did not complete my task and i made a decision regarding my submission to Her. It is not my place to make a decision and in doing so i let my Mistress down. Mistress phoned me and questioned me about it and said she would make a decision regarding what i had done and let me know. It was now doubtful that my Mistress would still want me as Her slave. i had made a stupid mistake and i was probably going to be discarded. i just felt depressed.

At 15:23 my Mistress texted me "You may write a 2500 minimum word essay regarding why I should give you another chance. you have until 6pm to email it to Me".  There was a tiny ray of light for me. If i could write the essay in time and make a case that i could be a useful and good slave i might just survive. i began my essay straight away but every time i counted the number of words i had typed i realised how short of time i was. With half an hour to go i realised it was going to be a very close run thing. Right on the deadline i emailed my essay. i hadn't even had time to see if i had met the minimum amount of words.  i had typed my essay right up until the last possible minute as i desperately tried to get over the finishing line. i took a moment to recover then checked. i had just scraped home with enough words.

i hadn't had time to structure or really think about my essay. i had sent it and now all i could do was wait. The hours passed and my worry deepened as all i could do was sit and wait under the dark cloud that had hung over me all day. All day i had contemplated my Mistress discarding me and the thought of it was terrible. i realised i was already a different person from the man who had submitted to Mistress a week ago. On four o'clock the previous Sunday i had become the property of my Mistress. A week later i was furiously typing and desperately trying to plead to continue to be Her slave. Hours passed and at five to nine that evening i finally got a text message from my Mistress telling me "I have read your essay and made My decision". i texted back asking if i might know what her decision was. One very long minute later my phone finally buzzed into life again. Her message was "I shall allow you to have another chance".  i felt relief wash through me and resolved to never come so close to losing my Mistress again. i can never fail Her again. i will submit completely to Her every wish and will always ask myself what my Mistress would want before i take any action.

Today my Mistress gave me my next task. Within a week i must learn to stand in the corner butt plugged for two hours without moving. i must face the corner with my hands behind my back and not fidget. i am to use an alarm clock to time myself. i must be able to to stand perfectly still in the corner in this way when i have the opportunity to spend time with my Mistress. She told me She will be testing me on this and that if i fail i will be caned. i will find this task difficult but will try my utmost to get to the standard my Mistress requires.

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This evening my Mistress had me use my butt plug for the first time. i waited naked and ready with the butt plug and lube in front of me until she gave me the command to insert two lubed fingers into my ass. She wanted to know if i was hard. When i said i was she told me "you may insert butt plug". She also told me to take pictures of myself with it in. i struggled to get past the fattest part of it and keep it in but persevered and managed to push it in fully. It was a little painful and felt very strange. Gradually my body seemed to form around it and i became fairly used to it. Mistress decided I should stay naked and plugged. She wanted me chat to other subs on Collarme like that until She wanted to speak to me. When i got to speak to my Mistress later the first question She asked me was "and how is My little slut now that his ass is filled?". Yet again i realised what i now was and what i might well become. Only my Mistress can fully know what the future might be for me now. When Mistress had finished with me I asked if i could remove my butt plug. i was told i could when i asked nicely. i humbly asked "Please may i remove my butt plug from my slut ass my Mistress". i waited until she finally said "you may". Today the process of making my ass more suitable for my Mistress's purposes began and i am happy.

Today i purchased my first butt plug as required by my Mistress. She has said She looks forward to taking my ass so i guess this is the very start of my anal training. i went to a quiet sex shop in town and tried to slip in unobtrusively. i felt very embarrassed and blushed but luckily they were just hanging on pegs. i took one and payed for it then left. i sent a text to my Mistress saying that i had bought the butt plug. She was amused to find out i had blushed and been very embarrassed. I was then instructed to take a picture of my new butt plug and send it to Her. i can't wait until my ass is how my Mistress wants it and is trained for whatever use she chooses to put it to.

Happy Birthday Mistress! It's my Mistress's birthday today and although She did have work, i think She's having a fun day. i'm glad She is because She's wonderful. i'm also glad because yesterday when i said i hoped She had a nice birthday She told me "I had better or we know who I will take it out on". As a special treat to celebrate Mistress's birthday i was allowed to cum today. She phoned me and i got to hear her voice for the first time. She was relaxed and confident and i knew that i would love being her slave but i wouldn't be able to get away with anything. She would easily keep me in check. We talked and She told me that i could cum as a special birthday treat. After she had hung up i knelt down in front of my laptop and looked at a picture of her and imagined i was naked and collared at her feet. My cock was rigid and leaking some precum. i began to wank slowly then harder and harder, holding on to the feeling until i exploded. i came incredibly hard into my left hand. i thought about an earlier comment my Mistress had made about me licking cum off Her boots and tasted my cum. It's a taste i'd better get used to now. i am the luckiest sub in the world.

This evening i received my punishment for the poor grammer in my previous journal entries. i was instructed to purchase a tube of Deep Heat yesterday and did so. Earlier i had emailed my Mistress a set of pictures of me using the toilet in the manner she had instructed this week. i have been following her instruction to always sit facing the cistern for all my toilet needs all week. i also had not been allowed to cum since Mistress took control of my cock on Sunday afternoon.

i was told to undress and await instructions. After a time i was told to put deep heat on my hands. i did so and waited until i was told "and now you have permission to wank". It felt so good at first and i so wanted to cum. Mistress then told me to make sure i had plenty of Deep Heat on my balls too. i smeared it on my balls eagerly. Then the heat started to build. i thrust my hand up and down my cock trying to race to an orgasm before the heat kicked in. The heat built and then suddenly agony, pain and desperation. i suffered for only a tiny amount of time before i broke and begged my Mistress to be allowed to wash it off. She mocked me saying "awwww not so horny now then?" and asked me if i still need to cum. i pleaded to stop and wash my cock and balls clean. A curt "no" was the reply. i literally begged and was told "you will learn to be a better slave". i promised that i wanted to be and would be a better slave. After establishing i no longer wanted to cum and telling me that next time the Deep Heat would go up my ass She eventually relented and let me wash it off and put my clothes back on. i was then told i was dismissed for the evening.

i feel humbled. My Mistress has punished me with discomfort and pain. It is the first time She has done so. For me something has now changed a little. It is another expression of Her power over me and although I did not enjoy the experience i am glad that i said thank you for my punishment when it was finished. It is right that my Mistress should punish me when i displease Her and i have learnt that i will be a better slave or suffer. i will try my utmost to be a better slave,

Yesterday my Mistress instructed me to watch or read femdom porn with a strap-on and anal virgin theme for fifteen minutes. Having watched appropriate videos i thought about what it would mean when She takes my anal virginity and how i will feel.

i am sorry Mistress. Thankyou for correcting me. i will try harder to be a better slave as You deserve.

Greetings and salutations My little man whore, your Mistress is not pleased with your incorrect use of the English language.  You will, therefore, face punishment.

Mistress Cane

Living up to my profile name.

my Mistress had already expressed an interest in having me perform with a man for her entertainment and She had the power to effect whatever She wanted.  Her having this power over me and her apparent relish for humiliating me and making use of me in all ways excited me with a tiny tinge of fear which made it even more intense. I have also been forbidden to cum without permission, a privilege i have yet to earn, so I have felt permanently turned on and submissive since She assumed control.

Within one day of my new profile a gay master message to ask if She was interested in hiring me out to him to submit online. She was and today they chatted online and negociated him using me. Negotiations that i had no say in. I know I will feel very ashamed after submitting to a gay man even just on webcam but it also excites me that my Mistress gets a kick out of making me into her man whore and will exploit me as such.

I don't know if this is an experiment that amuses my Mistress or just the start of one aspect of my life as Mistress Cane's slave. Only She knows and only She decides. I am Her personal slut, Her slave, Her servant, Her whore. I will do what She wants and be what She wants.

On Sunday afternoon I wanked for the last time as a man with control over his cock. At four pm. my body became the property of Mistress Cane.  My profiles were changed to my Mistress's requirements. ownedwhore2012 was to be my  username and I was to show that I was owned by Mistress.

My first task was that for the coming week if I had to use the toilet I had to sit facing the cistern legs astride it. THe first time I felt ridiculous but also turned on. Going to the toilet had become an act of submission. I had to go out one evening and hadn't given it any thought until my Mistress texted me "have fun when you go to the toilet". Having to strip from the waist down to urinate in a public toilet felt humiliation even though no-one could see. My toilet task continues....

At four pm yesterday I became the property of Mistress Cane. I am very excited to be getting the chance to be her slave even though I know that sometimes it will be hard. She has total power over me now to decide happens to me.