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| I love girls and pussy, and get hard for girly porn. if you desire to change that, I need to be owned. I need to be trained to love cock, cum, being used, and to become a sissy, my true self. I need to be conditioned to be useless for women. I will not be allowed to give pleasure to girls or allow them to give pleasure to me. Girls may only use me as a sissy slut. my need is conditioning me to only react to cock, and to crave it in any of my holes, be it my cock mouth, or boy pussy!!! Every hole i have will eventually be used like a pussy! My cock will be as much use as a clit, essentially i will an enlarged clit that will be locked away under masters orders, my boy pussy is to be filled all the time by plugs unless i am to be fucked! Either by plastic cock or as my master orders real cock. . I feel dirty when I think of it, can you mold me? to be what you need me to be, to be conditioned to react to others
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I am currently at work, and leeking so bad it is showing through my clothes, im cleaning as much as I can and swallowing my own juices, last night, master ordered me to have a caesar salad with my own cum as dressing, i had to ride my dildo deep, and cum within 5 minutes, my pussy was spazming around the dildo, i did not last 3 minutes and my clit was never hard. I plugged myself again and locked up my self, before eating my cum drenched salad, thinking this is the best my life will ever be, fantasising about someonecontrolling and conditioning me, and being raped. I none stop leak at the moment. Later in tge night, i positioned my dildo on the wall and had one in my pussy bouncing up and down in the floor, as i sucked the one on the wall, i leaked so much, my balls really hurt so much lately, what use are they, they only hurt, my clit is still tight in its cage but that is a matter if time. I keep hearing i am a sissy princess, why is this? |
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I am currently at work, and leeking so bad it is showing through my clothes, im cleaning as much as I can and swallowing my own juices, last night, master ordered me to have a caesar salad with my own cum as dressing, i had to ride my dildo deep, and cum within 5 minutes, my pussy was spazming around the dildo, i did not last 3 minutes and my clit was never hard. I plugged myself again and locked up my self, before eating my cum drenched salad, thinking this is the best my life will ever be, fantasising about someonecontrolling and conditioning me, and being raped. I none stop leak at the moment. Later in tge night, i positioned my dildo on the wall and had one in my pussy bouncing up and down in the floor, as i sucked the one on the wall, i leaked so much, my balls really hurt so much lately, what use are they, they only hurt, my clit is still tight in its cage but that is a matter if time. I keep hearing i am a sissy princess, why is this? |
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I have been dying to abuse my pussy today, my clit has been leaking at the thought of having no free will, due to mental conditioning and triggers, make me do things unaware. Today I remained caged, but eventually it will be pointless, as my clit will no longer work. Be it chemically or mental triggers. When my pussy is unplugged it craves to be filled again, tonight i got naked and had my dildo against the wall, and rode it doggy style while going as deep as i could listening to sissy hypno, telling me i love cock and worship it in all my holes. I dripped all over the floor for 2 hours, i licked it up while still filled, my insides hurt, my balls ache, thinking i will never have another orgasm ever, i pull myself of the dildo, and been ordered to remain un plugged |
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Master has given me my ultimatum, and within 6 months I have to make the transition in to becoming his full owned sissy, and property. I will have to sign a contract to give up all my freewill and allow him to make changes, be it piercing, modifications, chemically changing me, yatoos, and even permanent brainwashing with triggers. This truely scares me, but I have no choice, cock will be my life, I no longer have one of my own, it is a clit that can manage to get semi hard at best, i have to fuck my pussy every day, deep as I can to sissy hypnosis. It hurts, but i am compelled to do it. I must clean up my juices. My mouth will be used to please whoever master wants. My clit is no longer hard enough to go into a woman, I like women, because I want to be raped like one.
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Its been a long time, but Slowly I have been unable to satisy women, my girlfriend broke up with me, as I could not please her, my clit gets hard for women, but as soon as i'm in one, I soften, and cant cum or please them, so now i am single, my master owns me fully, and controls me, with his goal of turning me in to a cum hungry sissy brainless slut, who always needs filling, and when i am not to have cock, i am to be filled and stretched. Last night i had to ride my fake cock, watching conversion videoes. and stroke my clit, never cumming and saving my juice for my dinner |
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After a long time. I had been not worthy of my master, My only name now is stephanie, and I am to have my clit locked up permanently, I will no longer be useful to women, and my pussy is to be plugged all the time, this is what I am to be, permanently conditioned to think about cock, sucking cock and being filled by cock, i need cum in me, i need to watch sissy porn all the time and to use my pussy. My girlfriend will find out, my days sleeping with a girl are numbered. Yesterday i was allowed to cum watching cock. And had a cum coated breakfast |
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My master had given me 36hrs of freedom do do what ever I wanted, so I did. I have done many things over the past few days, and I was allowed to do anything. on my first morning, I removed my cage and plug, I felt empty, but looked forward to be able to touch my clit, I watched porn of girls riding cock cowgirl style, I was leaking badly, and needed to cum, I sat there stroking my clit, and got very hard, something was missing though, so I went and got my dildo, I lubed up and sat down on it slowly and started to ride it, whilst watching a girl with big tits riding cock, i rode fast and slow, and went deep in me as i stroked myself, and eventually I cum, allover my hand and the floor, without thinking I licked my hand clean. it took me 20 minutes to cum, I pulled my self off the dildo, and plugged myself up again. and within an hour, I wanted to cum again, so i repeated it again, but this time I did not get quite as hard, but I cum in 10 minutes, and again i licked my hand clean, but this time when i pulled off the dildo, I lubed my plug up with my own cum. I did not cum again until later in the day, when my girlfriend came home. we had dinner, and went upstairs, she looked so sexy, and smooth all over, I was hard in an instant, all i could think of was her flesh being around my clit, and my balls to be bouncing on her thighs, when she layed back, i kissed her breasts, and worked my way down to her thighs, and to her pussy and back up again, and then whilst still being hard, my clit slipped straight in to her, I almost cum straight away, but controlled it, I rode her like this for a good time, and she was moaning, and feeling her flesh around me was describable . I went deep, and all of a sudden, I shot my warm cum into her, it was allmost painfull when it cam out of my clit, and there was alot, when I pulled out, my cum was dripping out of her, and I went to work, licking it up, an sucking it out of her. a little later in bed, my girlfriend wanted more, she stroked me for a while , and i got hard, but not veiny, almost semi, she climbed on top of be and tried to ride me, but my clit, was not hard enough yet, eventually when she loosened up, my clit went in her and she rode me spread legged, every thrust she did, made my cock bend and partially went in her, I came quickly, but she had not cum yet, she moved up and straddled my face, and rode my head, I could feel my own cum, on my face, in minutes she was cumming. again later that night, my girlfriend wanted sex, but this time in her ass, but I could not get hard enough after having sex with her several times that night.
my master wanted me the next night to get her to fuck me in the ass, but I know she will not, do it, but I still tried to convince her.
The following day I did not touch my clit until she cam home, so when it came time to go to bed, i was thinking of ways to get her to do it. she went upstairs first, and when i got there, she looked gorgeous, had the most sexy stockings and panties on, I was hard straight away, I got her bent over the bed, and lubed my cock and pulled her panties to one side, I tried pushing it in her hole, but it would not go, eventually I was in and she was very tight, and moaning it took me while to get deep, but once i was there, I was thrusting away, whilst stocking her clit, she did not cum from this, but I cum in her ass almost straight away, I went and had a shower, and got back in bed, later that, night she straddled me and had her pussy on my mouth, and took my clit in hers, she took me deep in her mouth, as i sucked her clit, and within minutes I cum, but she did not stop sucking me until I made her cum too. we had sex again several time that night but, I did not get fully hard, and cum within minutes, later though , i decided to give her a show, and got my plug, bent over and said, i would like her to take me in my hole, like this, she looked discusted and walked off.
I am now again plugged and my clit is locked, and have to watch sissy hypno porn while I work both my pussy and sissy mouth, I have to refer to my self as a girl, my name is now Stephanie, and that is who I have to think of myself as, I have a pussy, a sissy mouth, a clit, and ovaries. but now I have to take 2 pills a day to reduce my male hormones, but now my clit will start to fail, but as I type this I am leeking badly I will ride my dildo thinking of my name and what it means as I practice sucking my plastic cock, listening to sissy porn.
Stepanie
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my master has been preparing me to be spit roasted this weekend, and I have been continuing taking the pill, a few nights back my master allow me to be out of my chastity, but I had to fuck my boy pussy and mouth, but the killer was that I had to cum in under 5 mins, wondering why it had to be less than 5 minutes, is my master trying to condition me so my clit will not function for long periods of time and make me suffer the pain of premature ejaculation if I am ever allow out, and making my clit useless?, I fucked my boy pussy and my sissy mouth until my throat was sore, it did not take me long to cum, and it was alot, i licked my hand clean and cleaned the floor, while, the fake cock was imbedded deep in my pussy, once everything was all cleaned up, my plug was back in and chastity back on, my plug seems to be getting looser now though, or is that my sissy pussy getting used to being stretched. then I went to bed.
everyday up until the weekend, i have been leeking profusely, and cleaning, i'm even having a damp patch on my trousers, but I was really scared about getting fucked by two guys this weekend, and returning to the club where I was first fucked in my pussy, albeit this time dressed up sluttyish.
saturday came, and I had to take some calm pills, as I got dressed, first in my panties, then in nylons, and a shortish skirt, I even had to put on a little lipstick, ( I have never been so embarrased in my life) finally I put a blouse on tied up in the middle, I had to drive to the club, this time it was alittle later, as I did not want anyone to see me!!
When got to the club, i walked in, hoping no one I knew would see me, and I went to the bar and got a drink, I had a few funny looks, and then sat in the corner, I was there for an hour, and then I felt a tap on my shoulder, and a guy said to me, that I looked familiar, except less manly than last time he see me, it was the guy that forced fucked me months ago, and he was laughing and said "guess you have no choice now do you", I just replied, I'm here because my master wants me to be fucked in my pussy and mouth at the same time, thats when I was about to go, and the guy blocked my path and said, where are you going, I have a friend who might like your pretty mouth. then I was dragged out the back where there was a couch, I was push down on the sofa, and forced to sniff some bad smelling liquid ( he said it would make me have a better time and to loosen me up)at this point, he said I dont want you in this crap, I want you, naked, and he proceeded to remove everything. I felt light headed, he did not want me to get away and he tied my hands over the arm of the couch, he pulled my plug out, and my hole felt empty, but that changed because in no time he slid his cock into me, I started screaming, but at this point I had not noticed someone else come in, and he watched for a bit, after a few minutes, the over guy came over and said "i'll stop the bitch screaming" and then just as i screamed he thrust it into my mouth, i thought i was going to be sick, they did not care at one thrust, it pushed me back on to the other, this went on fro an eternity, they see that i was dripping and just continued, my sissy pussy was huting and hurting deep, and now i was gagging as the guy infront of me, his pace was picking up and he thrust deeper in my mouth, by this point i'm thinking hes gonna cum, but not in my mouth, he could see that and then said" theres no way you are gonna spit me out, and gave an almighty thrust and his cock stretched my throat and stayed there as he cum,and he took a picture with my phone. i could not fight it, it was going in my belly just as i felt cum entering my sissy pussy. they both pulled out, and the guy behind me said ohhh you need to keep my cum inside your pussy, sissy, wheres your plug, he forced a babycham bottle into my hole wide end first, i was so scared he pushed it so hard and it hurt so much, i nearly swallowed it in my pussy, they left me there for a few minutes, and took all my clothes except my panties, how on earth am i getting out, a little while later a girl from the bar released me, and was laughing, and said "you can get out the back, funny that you getting out back doors, being as some one has just cum in yours", I ran to my car, I and got in gingerly, I could not get the bottle out, and tried sitting in the car until i got home, but it was difficult, when I got home it took me an hour to get the bottle out, I was hurting and very scared, I showered and got cleaned up |
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I have to do my journals more regular, or my master will punish me, he has even threatened to have me gang banged if I do not keep up my training to be a total cock loving whore, I keep having male urges and find it difficult to not think about my clit in its cage, I have started to take the pill again, to keep my hormones in check and to make my male self disappear and allow the girl inside me take control and to totally crave cock in all my holes. I am not allowed to wear under wear over my cage at the moment and I am totally plugged when my hole is not of use, I have been leaking all day up until last night, when I had to use my sissy mouth and pussy and train my holes, I placed my sucker dildo on the floor, and removed my plug and sat and my pussy slowly opened up to allow it in me, and as i was doing this i started to suck on my fake cock, with my eyes closed thinking it was real, i started to rock and make the phallus slide in and out of me, my balls were really tight, and my clit in its cage was hurting, and each time taking the fake cock deeper in my mouth, my clit was leaving a pool on the floor, it come to the time where i was gagging on the cock and trying to get it in mt throat, and eventually it gave way and went deep, my clit almost came, but sadly not, I kept this up for an hour, my pussy was getting extremely loose at this point, and then i licked all my juices off the floor. but more so the thought of master ordering me to go out at the weekend dressed as a slut and to get spit toasted sent me over the edge, even typing this morning has me dripping |
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My throat still felt sore this morning, but when i woke i found that my locked up clit had leaked during the night, my cage was very slick. All day i kept typing my passwords wrong, and wanting something other than having my boy pussy plugged, even typing this makes my clit try to get hard in its cage, i have started to take the pill again so its a matter of time before my male urges will lower, but mt balls are aching so bad with no release. I have been ordered to ride my dildo tonight, and i started watching sissy porn again, before starting my task i was leaking so i used my juices for lube, i removed my plug and slid down the shaft going deeper with each movement, whilst watching the porn i went so deep my pussy almost closed over the dildo, kept doing this but after a while my pussy loosened and started to get trapped air. I was so desparate to cum but never able too, and left myself in a state of arousal. And plugged myselt again |
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After last night my throat is still sore, my boy pussy is permanently filled with a plug, as my master has ordered unless other wise, my clit is caged and not allowed to go in in anything especially my girlfriend, i went to work today plugged and caged, and i had to think about cock i was leaking allday, it even made a patch on my pants, which i licked clean,my balls have been aching for weeks with no way of release. Tonight i spent an hour riding my fake cock, licking my juices and using it as lube, whilst watching sissy hypnosis, wishing i was being used, but wanting to cum so badly, my clit was tight in its cage when i finished and my pussy felt loose, i could almost sit fully down on the dildo, and turned on even more with each time i rode my own form of lube |
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It has been a while since my last jjournal entry, but I have been on a journey, My master gave me a task with no choice and I did not think anything of it, this is what happened !!
I was debating on going to a club at night, but got a bit drunk
And just stayed at the bar most of the night
Some guy came over and chatted with me for a bit, did not think anything of it.
I made an excuse to get away, and went to the bathroom
Went to the toilet and when i was at the urinal he came behind me, and grabbed my cock saying, this is what i want
I said, no but i got hard, thats when he made me go into a stall, I was so disgusted with myself.
He made me pull my pants down and place a bottle on the toilet seat, i felt. Compelled to fo this, i was made to sit on the bottle whilst he closed the door and he took his balls and cock out.
He was shaven and my hole hurt with the neck of the bottle
He spat on his own cock and he said you know what to do, i refused but he push my head down and pulled me towards him
And as i tried to say no, he forced his cock in my mouth and held on to the back of my head
And said if i did not start to work on his cock and take it down my throat he would hold me till i chocked
I had tears , so i had no choice but to move my lips on his cock, never had my throat stretched so much in my life, his pre cum tasted discusting, but as he moved my head the further his cock went down my throat, all of the time the bottle worked in further
At this point he decided to tell me he had slipped something in my drink, to
make me susceptible, i did not care at that point i wanted it to be over, then i heard a click he had taken a pic of the back of my head, and at that point i was almost sick and chocked as he shot his cum in to my throat, he held me there and his cock in me until i swallowed. Then he let me breathe, did up his trousers and walked off saying now i have you
I am so ashamed , i fee l dirty and used, and not clean, what am I? my master has made me do this, in my head I did not want to, but felt I had no choice, I have a girlfriend too, why does he have such a hold on me to make me do this? my sissy pussy hurt for weeks and my throat still feels weird.
My master has had me tonight watch sissy porn, whilst practicing swallowing a fake cock, but also I had to collect any pre cum that leaked from my clit and in to a glass, I had to keep deepthroating until I had sufficent amount in the glass to fill up to a third, I could not swallow to start, but more importantly, my hole was still plugged and my clit is caged, I have not cum in nearly 2 months as master will not allow my clit to go in anything or anyone!!, so any sexual thoughts or images be it straight or sissy, has my clit trying to get hard, and leaking most of the time, tonight was no different, i was leaking straight away, and nearly an hour and a half later and a very sore throat after chocking with 9 inches imbedded in my mouth, my glass was full enough, even my sissy pussy was pulsating, I drank my pre cum, and licked the glass, i'm permanently discusted with myself but also turned on at this, my master is sorting my clit problems out too, which is worrying me and he is making me take the pill, to change my male hormone levels, and this will stop me being a man, and could ruin me permanently.
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I went to bed plugged but uncaged last night, very frustrated that i could not be sexual with my girlfriend, my clit was very hard, i woke up that way too, tried to soften but thought of my hole being filled slowef it down, my girlfrien went to work and i managed to get my cage back on, but as soon as i did that, my clit tried to get hard. I removed my plug and lubed my pussy and proceeded to watch the sissy hypno master had ordered me too. I lowered myself on to the dildo and began to ride it whilst trying to swallow the other dildo, images of cocks going in pussies and t girls were on the videos and over and over again im hearing im not a guy im a girl, my clit leaks so much. Went the videos finished the images were still in my head, and i licked all my pre cum up, i feel frustated and dirty |
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It was saturday afternoon and my master requested that i watched more sissy hypno porn this time there were three, totalling over an hour, i had flesh dildo on the wall at waist height, lubed it up and pushed back on it, as it entered me i started the videos, and images of transvestites kept flashing between pictures of a girl being fucked from behind moaning, then pictures of boy pussies, my clit was already leaking, if it was not locked up i would be touching it wanting to cum, im rocking back and forth a puddle is forming under me, and all im thinking is, what if i was not tge one controlling the trusts, i went on fo half an hour and also sucking a dildo too , then master ordered me to stay filled and pee myself, it took a while, and i did allover my feet, it was embarrasing and yet it almost felt like cumming. When the videoes fibished i felt relieved, but my balls hurt. Master ordered me to cum in a bowl and fill my boy pussy with it using the dildo. I cum in minutes, and coated the dildo, it was like lube went it entered my, my cum was used and now its trapped in me by my plug, im now caged and not allowed to cum for 5 days or be sexual with my girlfriend. I am allready frustrated again, but in my head i have images of cocks entering pussies, whats happening to me, im a straight guy |
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I have upset master after being busy for work and not doing journals, so i have been banned from cumming and any sexual contact with my girlfriend.
What i did do the last 2 days was to wake up, wear plug and cage, feeling very controlled. Sometimes i become unsure but turned on in my cage at the same time, im leaking constantly and with having to clean my clit i can always taste pre cum in my mouth. When i get home i rode my fleshy dildo and watched sissy hypno porn i wanted to cum so much but not allowed to, and makes it worse as i did this three times and locked myself up again, i feel frustrated but always turned on. Sometimes i wonder what it would be like when i watch the porn to have real flesh pushed into me |
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I really let my master down last night, I had been plugged and caged all day, and leeking from my clit, I had to clean every 20 minutes and licked it all up, most of the day my clit was hard in its cage, last night master had me remove my cage and ride a fleshy dildo whilst watching sissy hypno for 40 minutes, I had to stroke but not cum, all that was going through my head was princess, when it finished I was allowed to cum, I rode the life lick cock whilst watching the video again and it did not take long to cum, my pussy was full, and I was licking cum off the floor, I thought is this what I am reduced to, I was so embarrassed, I went to work this morning plugged and caged and ashamed |
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I got up before work yesterday and as ordered by master to cum and eat it for breakfast, i was plugged and watched sissy porn whilst doing this, i have no longer got a cock i have a leeky clit!, my boy pussy was filled, i felt so hard watching the sissy porn wondering how it would feel recieving, i cum in my hand an licked it up, tasted weird and warm. Then my clit was locked up.
My master ordered me to wear my girlfriends dirty panties all day, my clit was hard in its cage, it leeked so much and whatever i leaked i was compelled to eat up, all day i was turned on as being controlled did this to me.
What i wanted to feel was instead of watching porn andd seeing cock go in to pussy, what would it feel like to be the pussy,
Later that evening my master sent a link to sissy hypno porn and i had to almost cum three times, i did not cum but it left me wanting to all night. |
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I have recently been taken ownership of my new master "Convenience", He has ownership of me and my body, I am allowed to do as he sees fit, he will make me into a cock loving sissy whore and make me addicted to cum, I have to eat my own cum daily for breakfast, I have to be plugged at all times until he says to remove it, this has left me semi hard most of the day, and leeking pre cum. my girlfriend does not know, but how long will i still be able to get hard for her or when i think of naked girls |
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| Age: 25 |
| Jersey City,
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