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Was in a serious realationship and got burnt...not into head games or playtime....looking for my soulmate....One who will complete me as i complete them...i am a BBW and am proud of who i am... if you want to know about me and what makes me tick then ask... if you are looking for a pic... well that comes after getting to know me...sorry too many wannabes on the net...i value my privacy ...... read my journal entries.they tell you alot more about me.the person i am

6/22/2009 8:04:58 AM
It would be nice if people on here could actaully be true in who they are....do people not realize that many of us live this lifestyle...that it is not a game to us...it is what is in our heart and soul...it isnt something we care to make a mockery of...i do not come on here to play online...if i wanted to play i could do that in the privacy of my home...to me to serve is the ultimate...it isnt something i do to pass the time of day...i do it for that special someone...who makes me feel alive and excited....He keeps me on edge....always challenging me sexually and emotionally....He pushes me to acheive goals...and in turn i give my all....pleasing His desires and needs as much as my own desires to do so...it isnt about me me me...it is about us....and how we fit together as one...i often wondered why so many were against this lifestyle.i always felt they didnt understand it so they ran from it.......but too many portray it in a bad light and i am so tired of those that do....if you want to just play then just go play...but please do NOT say you are lifestyle if all you want to do is play online...you NO nothing about what it takes or what is within a person to be able to give unconditionally of yourself....if you  are out here to play then you are a me, me, me person.....and that is one thing i am NOT...
6/21/2009 12:01:43 PM
Life is good...have met some really good people and then not some good people....that is what makes life go forward...reflecting on my past i no what is a need and what is a desire...i need to serve...i desire to be the best at doing so...i feel in any realtionship both needs and desires of both partners are special...like they say you cant have one(Dominant) without the other(submsisive)...just my thoughts on the subject....
6/15/2009 7:35:50 AM
to give of ones mind body and soul is to give unconditionally....communicate, learn, grow and continue growing....two people becoming one....like a pin to a hole....each compliment one another....with that said i wish people would learn to get to know a person before they assume a D/s realtionship....this one will wait until she finds that someone that will want to grow with her and learn about her....she will not settle to just play.... she wants the whole ball of wax...she seeks the "ONE" that will turn her into jelly, that will pick her up when she has fallen....will use her for His pleasure but love her unconditionally....destiny is a journey into the unknown...the unknown can be frightning...yet rewarding....so with that said...........i sit back and wait ....wondering when that "One" will come along.....
6/13/2009 4:31:29 PM
I am comfortable in who i am and what i seek in a realtionship...i am not one to want to jump into a realtionship without even finding out whether as two we can mesh...i could sit here and say i am into this or that but yet...it all depends on the person you are committed to....limits and issues change as does relationships....people need to learn to grow with each other and change as the realtionship changes....you need to keep the play aspect as well as the mental on an everday basis....i am not saying you need to play hard, but what i am saying is that it cant just play once in awhile then you decide you want to have your submissive submit to you in a really intense scene....rituals help in keeping a realtionship maintained...if you want a submsisive to submit you need to keep her/him in working order...lol yeah i am rambling...but it seems so many want to just have it once in awhile... you can expect your submsisve to play hard if you havent played with them in a couple weeks...some forget how to maintain a level of D/s on an everday basis......and those things can be as subtle as saying have you shaved today.....or i want to see my property.... even  having them  wear an egg when you go out in the general public is a good way to keep them in a good head space...sometimes the lil things is all a submsisive needs to maintain a good head space....at least for me i know this is what i need....and many of my sisters feel the same way....
5/21/2009 2:08:42 PM
to me getting to know a person and what they desire is first and foremost on my mind......meetings come afterwards.once two people are comfortable with each other and what each other wants.......communiocation is the key to any realtionship and so many people forget that..............i want to know what i am getting into before it ever even happens....but that is me........i guess i like to be safe first......i only have one life and i value it......
5/19/2009 2:30:28 PM
Sometimes in life things arent always as they seem..........and then sometimes they are......sitting back and reflecting on the correspondance i have gotten i often wonder if there is a better way to find that speical someone..........dont get me wrong.i have met some wonderful people here......and also in my own community but sometimes the bs out here is a lil much...you get a message from someone that wants to chat and get to know you  and then wham the second sentence out of their mouth is do you want to play? geesh............i have toys i can play with if i am in that bad of shape......makes you kinda wonder what or who is serious!!!!!
4/30/2009 7:16:52 AM
Sitting back and reflecting on what one truly wants or needs in life is kinda condesending for me....is submissiion what i want.....or need...no it is a part of me...right now in my life i am without a partner but i still find my self doing things for others....not in the same manner or nature that i would do for my Dominant but in other ways....i can be a bit outspoken as well....that is a defense mechanism i think alot of submssives have at some point or another...i do tend to speak from my heart when it is something i truly beleive in and i am passionate about....i cant just sit back and watch people bash what is important to me...and yes i am venting .....only because after reading emails it makes me want to hide my profile on here at times....dont get me wrong there have been some serious and then not so serious replys...i am not into just playing online....that is not my cup of tea....i like to get to know  a person and go from there....sorry...but that is who i am... and yes it can be fun to banter back and forrth without really getting off...so there i said how i feel and i feel better...
4/28/2009 1:56:36 PM
I sit and read emails sent to me and i wonder just how many people truly are in this lifestyle for the lifestyle.So many fringe on the word abuse it makes my stomach crawl...
4/26/2009 4:34:24 PM
To me submission is something i give to one who truly takes my breath away...To me it is not just about the Dominant....it is about both...In order for a submissive to be able to give her heart mind and soul over to another she must know that they compliment each other....It is two people sharing what they are about...and giving and receiving on both ends...Dominance is not something to be forced....but accepted by thier susbmissive as a way of life....submission is given becasue it comes naturally....a submissive is not a doormat...nor a person to be used for no other reason then to use her....she has value and worth just like her Dominant....they compliment each other in everything they do...one helping the other fulfill their destiny....as a submissive i want to be playful and exciting....i want to be excited....i want to make things easier for my Dominant/partner......to fulfill him sexually as well as socially...See to me it is a greater level of intimacy that is involved....i am not looking just for a  strictly platonic D/s relationship....i want an all around D/s lifestyle......laughing, playig, cuddling and scening...i want to serve in all capacities that i can..to me to please Him on an everyday basis is natural...and i want Him to feel it is natural to  respond to me in all aspects...this is who i am....not what i need or desire...just the lifestyle i have lead and what i want to lead....
4/22/2009 8:07:20 AM
Only been a few days since i made my profile and i have found more Dominants that want to play rather then learn about a person...go figure!!!
4/21/2009 2:53:36 PM
Kinda strange...wasn't expecting this much attention so quickly...be patient with me as i am going thru messages and trying to weed out the REAl ones....if you are NOt serious then please do not message!!!