nightfury

I find myself at a crossroads

not sure which way I should go

I will just sit still and wait

until it is time that I should know...

I have found a most wonderful slave

she submits to all that I crave

only time will tell

if she will serve me well

You came and stole my breath

And left me with an empty death

No traces of life shall remain

as death takes away my pain

Leave my lifeless body behind

Peace at last I shall find

Nothing holding me any longer

I've lost the will to be stronger

The light is growing dimmer

My existence a mere glimmer

These are the words that are spoken

When the will to live has been broken

I Long for the eternal sleep

Death my soul will keep

Out of focus and out of range

Suddenly I feel the change

The time has come nigh

My last breath I quietly sigh

My body I no longer feel

This feeling is most surreal

The same thing everyday

Makes me want to run away

It makes my blood run cold

This routine is surely old

So to this I will choose to say

That I will no longer live this way

Life will always beat you down

I am tired of being the clown

Wearing a painted on smile

I've been searching for awhile

Looking for a new solution

Looking for a new resolution

I wonder many things of late

Is it too late to change my fate?

I am going to survive?

I am going to thrive?

I wonder if I am strong enough

This is going to be very tough 

Looking to the future squinting my eyes

and believe my soul surely tries

I can see a light in the distance

I believe I there is a chance

That if I am going to make it

The time is now to take it

A fool and his heart will soon be parted...

Things seem to be going great

On the future I can't wait

They say life is a dance

I am ready to take a chance

Only one thing in my way now

Only need to figure out how

Then at my feet my slave will bow

Her submission makes me say wow

Death can not come quick enough

feeling the coldness taking over my body

as the warm blood exits the wound

of this I will not haughty

Looking down the road of life

I wonder what is going to be

I squint my eyes to get a better view

but darkness is all that I see

Looking for direction and the path

that will take me to where I want to be

through the thistle and the thorns

all ripping at the flesh of me

Tired of being blind

tired of being mislead

all I hear are the words

echoing in my head

Hoping the sun will rise

to give light so I can survive

to feel the warmth on my skin

no one makes it out of life alive.

After being called a loser today I had to laugh...I have been called worse things by better people..The rest of my thoughts after that I will just keep to myself...

The definition of insanity is repeating the same actions expecting different results...

Doesn't matter whether you danced or not

Everyone has to pay the band

When you lose everything you got

You have to take a stand

When you have lost yourself

and you forget who you are

Left your heart sitting on a shelf

and your a burned out star

Just remember the way you felt

Every time you heard me say "I love you"

The way it made your heart melt

to know that I meant it true

Staring into the distance

Mind locked in a trance

Many things have left me torn

Many things have made me reborn

Changes are hard to make

Change is harder to take

Only dreaming of one

What is done is done

Sitting here day after day

So many things I want to say

Many things deep within my heart

Hardest to find the place to start

From mistakes I have grown

I have reaped what I have sown

Only time will tell

if all goes well

Reaching deep within

Trying to find a place to begin

An animal locked in a cage

Victim of his own rage

Feeling the deep aching yearn

Still feeling the deep burn

When push comes to shove

Greater is the need for love

You have to make a choice

Your heart you have to voice

Be careful of desire

It is a burning fire

Nothing in my life will ever be the same

My love must have just been a game

I hope that one day you will see

Nobody gets you like me

I am perfect by no means

The other side you saw fields of green

Leaving me standing there all alone

Even as my love light shone

You chose to lie and betray

Nothing could make you stay

Now I awaken to my reality

Life is now with banality.