nezzibell


	NezziesDaddy Transgender Submissive, 36

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	About nezzibell I have been a sub for 18 of the past 33 years of my life (read the journal for more on that)..I have discovered that I am good at being the top as well....I can do both just as easily as I can go grocery shopping.... I am interested in meeting intelligent, like-minded others..please don't be afraid, I do bite....but i promise you will enjoy it

She kneels before her Master's feet and looks into His eyes searching for the truth she needs as she vows to Him her life

Four packages lay on the floor
all are wrapped with love
she reaches low to place the first in the lap of the one she adores opened as quickly as He had won it.

He views her heart inside,
it's yours my love and has been since the day you held me to your side.

The second gift is smaller
the paper silver gilt tis just my mind, she whispers yours to do with as you will

The third one is small and compact white paper, small white bow she watches as He opens and whispers...and now, you own my soul

She bends to pick the last gift up and trembles as she holds it small tears of love run down her face?this gift has been the hardest

He smiles at her and reaches
and watches the gift dissolve
Master, my love, she whispers
this gift is more than just my love
It can't be held
It can't be wrapped
The gift is my surrender

Part Three

He withdrew from her suddenly, and pushed her down on the bed.? "get up, and get the shower ready."? She ached for more, but dared not disobey.? She rose up, and headed for the shower, her pussy ached and her knees were weak.? "forgetting something are you?" she froze mid-stride, and dropped to her knees to turn and face Him.? "Master?" He was standing there pointing to his cock.? She rushed over and immediately put it in her mouth, licking and sucking and tasting herself on it. He pushed her head away then, and pointed to the bathroom.? She hung her head and crawled away to get the shower ready.

She had packed his things carefully the night before, just as he wanted them.? She turned on the water, and laid out the floor towel, the soft washcloth, and his bodywash that smelled so good.? She knelt by the shower door and waited for him to come.? He entered and shut the door, trapping the steam and heat in the small room. She opened the door to the shower and stepped in after him, remaining on her knees in the water spray. He stood there a moment letting the water run off his body onto her, then he grabbed her hair and pulled her to him and pushed her face into his cock.? She obediently began working her tongue over and under, pausing to lick and suck his balls briefly, then deep in her throat bringing him back to full erection.? God it felt good he thought.? He pushed her away again and she got right to work, rubbing him with the soft washcloth, starting at his neck, massaging a little with the bodywash. He tilted his head back and she washed his hair being careful to keep the soap out of his eyes.? She presssed herself against him as she washed his body gently and looked up at him as she worked her way down to his cock. There she really began working the soap to keep his cock hard.? The tile floor was slippery, but not as slippery as her hands. He had to lean against the wall of the shower to support himself.? She continued to wash his cock, and he wanted to blow, so he made her stop and continue on down.?? He wanted to push her down and shove his cock in her ass, but he was ready to get out of the hot shower, so he rinsed and turned the hot water off and stepped out leaving her in the freezing spray. "rinse quickly and get out here slut."? She hurried and got the soap off herself, and turned the water off. She got out and began to towel him dry shaking and shivering herself.? The fresh air when he opened the bathroom door almost made her dizzy.? He laid down on the bed facedown and said "massage me."? she wasn't told she could towel off, so she was still dripping wet as she grabbed the olive oil and headed for the bed.? She was an experienced massage therapist, so pleasing him like this would be easy she thought...as she approached the bed she saw the wicked gleam in his eyes and the twisted smile.....he was waiting for her and she had a feeling it wasn't going to be easy....

Slave Girl Credo

I am going on what I was taught.? I learned from a very young age, raised mostly by my Grandparents, that the world is a "Man's World", and the woman's place is in the home, doing everything she could think of to make her man (Lord and Master) happy and comfortable, no matter the personal sacrifice.
I grew up admiring their happiness.? I developed very early my ingrained desire to please others.? It wasn't until my teenage years that I discovered sex, and BDSM.? My goal of pleasing finally had an outlet that gave me pleasure back.? My very 1st boyfriend would slap me and spank me before he would tease me with his cock and make me beg for him to put it in.? I was given as a birthday present? to the man who would become my 1st true Master and trainer.? He had me sign a six month contract, in which I would live as His house slave, and he would provide for me food, shelter, and training.? I ended up renewing the contract 3 times. ??
He had me write this the first week I lived there, and I have revised it a little over the years....

I do what feels good, and right.
I believe in God and so much more.....

As a submissive, I seek to be Dominated....In All aspects of life.

Domination (to me) means giving up control of my body, mind, desire and will.
Domination can either be temporary or permanent as the situation requires.

I can adapt to my Master's needs and desires as they evolve.
I need to let go whenever the opportunity presents itself.?
I honestly do not care who knows I am being Dominated.
There is a time and a place, and Master will decide that for U/s.

Whenever I can, I should be on my knees, and my head should never be above my Master's. I am not supposed to look up at Master unless he wants me to.? I will always address Him as "Master" or "Sir".

I love to be tied up.? I love to sleep with at least a loop around one ankle so Master can always have control over me even as he rests.

I will wear a symbol of His Domination on my body.

I love to be beaten and spanked when I am bad, and even more so when I have been good and pleased Master.
I need to be comforted after a whipping session.
My favorite comfort and reward is an orgasm.
It has always been hard for me to achieve orgasm.

I need You to make me do things I wouldn't normally do, I crave humiliation.
I love to serve...please let me sit at your feet as you watch T.V., let me be your footstool.
Let me be your pet, I crave affection, and I am happiest when I am close to You.

I love sex, and pleasing Master is my main objective.? I receive pleasure from His presence alone, and the mere though of Him is enough to make me wet.? When He grabs my hair and pushes me to the floor or bed, my stomach starts flipping in excitement.?

I love to be called slut, and dirty whore by Master, and enjoy Him making me really feel that way.?

I love it when He rapes me, and find myself begging for more.

I am a pain slut, Whip me hard, I can take it, and ask for more.

All I ask is to serve You, and be cared for.

Yours,

little one

Part Two

?He stood over her, his acrylic rod in his hand, and watched her tremble.? She had seen it, and he knew she feared it.? It truly was his favorite tool for spanking - more pain, less damage.

He had the end of the rope in his hand, and pulled it tighter, bringing her feet to touch her hands.? Hog-tied she was now, and at his mercy.? He felt his cock growing hard.? "She's actually pretty good at rope play", he mused to himself, marveling at how she managed to make the rope tight, and yet when he pulled the end, it slid easily to bind her further.

He had told her to be there at the motel, ready for him when he arrived, and she was, with the exception of the blindfold and gag, she did well.? Whoever had trained her had obviously taught her complete, unquestioning obedience.? She had told him of all those years she had been forced to repress the submissive part of her...what a shame...."Ah, well, no matter....she is Mine now" he smiles to himself as he brings the rod down hard across her ass.? She was expecting to get the 1st one on the feet, he knew, and he loved to watch her writhe in agony at the blow.? She screamed into the pillow and panted hard for a moment struggling to regain her composure.
He moved closer to her on the bed and covered her body with his, pressing her into the mattress.? He nuzzled her neck and gently bit her there as his hand moved to her ass, now reddening with a nice hot, red welt.? "That is just the first one my pet, there will be more." he murmured into her ear.? He let her enjoy the heat of his body and the coolness of his hand, and watched her visibly relax into his touch.? She was fun to watch, he could see her trying to anticipate his next move, in order to prepare herself for the pain.? She loved it though, he knew, and damn she sure could take it.?

He remembered the whipping he gave her the day she brought him the rope....she was testing him, and he was testing her...he let her have it with that rope, looping it in his hands and swinging at her back, ass, chest and pussy.? She had been beat before, and trained to assume the position on her knees, thighs open, and hands either at her sides or behind her back.? While he was thrashing her tits, she had turned her head to the side, and when he moved to her back, he could see her head hanging a little as her strength waned, and "sub-space" threatened to take her.?? That would have been unacceptable for him to let her off that easy.? She needed to feel it all, every blow, every word, every command.? He needed her with it enough to let him know she had enough...that sub-space can be very dangerous if a submissive is so far gone into the pain they slip into a kind of stupor and become unable to use safe words.? That was only their second time playing and he could see she would go there easily.....If he let her that is.....maybe this time he might.

He unwound the rope from his hand, and began to untie her.? She whimpered a little in disappointment, and dared peek back at him with questioning eyes.? He silenced her with a look and rose off the bed.? "Now you will undress me slut, and shower me."? He loved taking showers with her, she was so careful to gently wash every part of him thoroughly, with special attention to his cock, of course.? He liked watching her on her knees in the shower, water running off her body, struggling to breathe at times when he had his cock in her mouth and the shower spray right in her face.?
After the shower, he would sit on the bed, and let her lick and suck his feet and toes.? She loved to worship his feet, he knew, almost as much as she loved his cock.?

"Get the rope now, you dirty whore, and get ready for your Master to punish you."? Her eyes widened with fear, and in that split second she hesitated.? "you are in deep shit now little girl", he said as he advanced on her, pushing her down onto the bed hard.? He grabbed the coiled rope himself, and swung it across her back and shoulders and heard her grunt in surprise and pain.? He hit her 3 more times across the ass, then grabbed her ankle, and pulled her towards him.? He quickly thrust 2 fingers into her pussy and pulled them out, then shoved them into her mouth, making her taste herself....God she was sopping wet, his cock felt like it was going to burst....he grasped her hips, and pulled her onto himself, shoving it in deep.? He moved so fast she wasn't hardly aware of what was happening until he was inside her, fucking the hell out of that pussy.? He thrust a few more times, then slowed down, and grabbed her hair.? He pulled her head back towards himself until he could get his arm around her throat, and he began choking her as he pushed his dick harder and harder into her.? "Play with your clit slut.....but don't you dare cum" he told her even as he could feel his own pressure beginning to build in his groin......"Ahhh yes, it's going to be a long night."

Part One

She lay there on the bed, quietly waiting for Him to arrive.? The rope she bought her Master the only thing touching her skin.? She?trembles with anticipation, and?rubs her thighs, slick with?her pussy juice together.? She holds the end of the rope in her mouth, able to release herself anytime, but she won't.? The training too deeply ingrained in her to ever?release herself without Master's permission.? She has tied herself this way, taught many long years ago by her 1st Master.? She stars by wrapping the loop around her left ankle, then around the right.? From there the rope is pulled snug, and then in a series of contortionist movements, she loops it around her waist, and neck, through her legs so that the rope rubs against her clit if she moves, and finally she pulls her hands into the twisted rope and leaves the end piece in her own mouth.? She appears to be bound tightly and helpless and she is helpless. Helpless?against HIS will.??

She?lets her mind drift a little, the way subs often do, and remembers the afternoon she bought the rope, and the way He stood over her, whipping her breasts, back,?thighs and ass with it.? She feels more wetness between her thighs at the memory.....she had cried out?one of the safe words that day, and hated herself for being so weak.

She remembers her training....those long months?living with her 1st....she is beginning to feel the old comforts of the D/s relationship, and wonders if she can ever feel it all again.....so many years of repressing it, so frustrated....afraid to let herself go completely yet........yet....there is hope in this new Master....

She looks at the door again, and wonders when he will arrive.? She feels herself getting more and more wet just thinking about what he will do to her this time.??She can't help but be a pain slut, most times she doesn't feel all of it, just sees the bruises later to remind her.? Ahhhh, sub-space.....that blessed place where all she can think of is nothing, it's nearly?impossible to say much more than, "Yes, Master", and "No, Master."?? She is beyond all reason in true subspace, she probably couldn't remember the safe word there, let?alone say it....It is?there that true trust comes into play.? She smiles to herself thinking about the 1st time she was beaten "senseless"..so many years ago...Thankfully?the Master then?knew when to quit, and bring her back to reality.?
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She hears his key in the lock, and she snaps back, terrified he will know she has been daydreaming ......He opens the door and closes it behind Himself, and makes a "tsk" noise....."What do we have here?? No gag? no blindfold?? you have failed me little one, and Master is going to punish you for that."?? She looks up at him, afraid to say anything.....He walks over to the bed and sits down next to her as he unlaces his shoes and kicks them off.? " I have been working all damn night long, thinking about what a good girl I have, and here you are not prepared for me like I asked.....is my pet wet for me at least?"? She opens her thighs a little for His hand, and pleads with her eyes for him to see that she at least did that much right....She mentally curses herself for not having put those on before she bound herself.....

He takes the end of the rope from her mouth and kisses her lips tenderly, then suddenly pulls back and slaps her across the cheek, just once.....He gets off the bed and grabs the acrylic rod,? his favorite whipping stick...."On your stomach, slut, feet up in the air for me."? She quickly rolls onto her stomach, closes her eyes and waits for it to begin.

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