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I guess this is going to be a long read. Ill start with WHO I am first,WHAT I am and WHAT Im looking for second, WHO I am looking for finally .
Who I am
I am a Tunisian girl in my late 20s, fair-skinned, hazel-eyed and curvy. I am funny, goofy at times, sophisticated and classy, multilingual and articulated, intellectual and smart, ambitious and independent, low-maintenance, fun to be with and easy-going and a romantic at heart. On the other hand, I am impatient, I get upset rather fast but calm down as fast, and I am too nice for my own good. I have a tendency to get bored quite easily, which gets infuriating at times.
What I am and what I am looking for
I am a Submissive, plain and simple. As independent as I am on a daily basis, I crave most of all the mental release and protection that submission provides. There is a sense of liberation in being a submissive that is fundamental to me to get rid of the burden of making decisions, survival, thinking ahead and power struggle in the relationship. I never feel freer than when Im under the mercy and control of that one person who owns me heart, body, mind and soul.
I might come off demanding regarding what I want, but i believe that this type of relationship is the healthiest and most complete dynamic I can possibly be part of. I want a whirlwind-type of a relationship where we both are consumed by our unconditional love for each other, co-dependent, striving to make the other the happiest they can be, make each other crazy mad horny and make up like nothing happened. Others may perceive this relationship as unhealthy and destructive, but it is what I need and want, and I am not willing to settle for anything less. Wed be each others everything, friend, soulmate, confidant, lover, support system. In relationships, I dont like playing games, saying what we dont mean and vice versa. I believe transparency, communication and trust are key to making it work.
Submission will be my gift to this wonderful person who would steal my heart and earn my trust and affection. As his submissive, Id live as his cherished, most valued possession, under his feet, serving his every whim, striving to draw a smile on his face and make him proud. Hed be my owner, my savior, my Lord, my master, my punisher, my torturer, and my priority in life would be to please him and fulfill his wishes, regardless of how insane they are. I do not wish to be his equal for he will always be my better half, my king. I would put my life in his hands, knowing for a fact that he will take care of me, protect me and guide me to be a better submissive and a better person. My life will be at his disposal and he will have the final say in everything regarding our life together.
Now moving to what I enjoy and dislike in the lifestyle, I love being restrained under his mercy, taking pleasure in the pain he will inflict on me, being humiliated and disciplined and living by his rules, fighting for breath under his choking hand and going beyond my comfort zone as he so carefully pushes me there. However, what is out of the question is sharing each other with other people, scat, blood, fire, knife play, permanent damage to the body and ification (i.e. I will not eat or sleep on the floor). I will accept his punishments and rewards without complaint, as he see fits. His rules will be my Bible and his body my altar, his pride my heaven.
WHO i want
A macho with a heart of gold a hard exterior with a kind soul, a MAN who represents all the power and strength that the word entails. An enforcer, an authority figure, the epitome of pride, high self-esteem and confidence (please do not mistake this for arrogance), humane, protective, caring, kind and sweet at heart, responsible. I value intelligence more than anything, so being smart and intellectually accomplished is an incredible turn on. I also appreciate an honest direct person, for those traits will make it easier to get close and start trusting each other. As to more superficial traits, I have an incredible weakness for authority figures, especially army and navy (former or current).
quotes that say it all
*When a woman submits to a man, its the most precious gift she can give. Herself. Unreservedly.
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i cant explain it better than this quote I do not want to be the leader. I refuse to be the leader. I want to live darkly and richly in my femaleness. I want a man lying over me, always over me. His will, his pleasure, his desire, his life, his work, his sexuality the touchstone, the command, my pivot. I dont mind working, holding my ground intellectually, artistically but as a woman, oh, God, as a woman I want to be dominated. I dont mind being told to stand on my own feet, not to cling, be all that I am capable of doing, but I am going to be pursued, fucked, possessed by the will of a male at his time, his bidding. ? Anas Nin
Its easy to take off your clothes and have sex. people do it all the time. But opening up your soul to someone, letting them into your spirit, thoughts, fears, future, hopes, dreams... THAT is being naked Rob Bell
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