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Hi.. Its is a little hard to admit this but I am looking for a man who would want a "Daddy" "Daughter" type relationship. I have exactly zero experience with this kind of thing. I actually grew up with just my mom, so perhaps thats where some of this comes into it, i am not sure, i am not a psychologist: P
I have been checking out the site, there are so many people here it is kind of shocking! (at least to little old me), and i hope to meet some nice (or not so nice) men on here and broaden my horizons.
Since i really havnt tried any of this, i have tried to just list thngs i found interesting on the interest list (er that sentence sounded dumb: P ). I guess my primary interest besides the desire for an older man I can call dad is the idea of objectification. i am not entirely sure i understand teh concept propperly, but the idea a man would be looking at me as my component parts and judging me that was and less as a whole person is in some ways deeply exciting for me. i get kind of a warm little flutter that runs up my spine when i see profiles that refer to breasts as udders and such. also, reading about the idea of a"1950s household" is something that sounds sort of fascinating to me, i hadnt considered such a thing before in quite those tearms. anywway i hope you have a good night and my profile wasnt too boring
I have seen several places online (over the past little while my interest in D/s has become harder and harder to ignore and Ive begun at least to peak around the net and see what there is to see) that refer to impregnation and "breeding" seemingly as the basis of a D/s relationship, sort of the main focus of it. (However, also just the idea of a normal-ish -haha- realitionship that focused around pregnancy would be fine) It feels very weird to come out and say this, but I find that (the idea at least) sort of thrilling, the idea a man would want to 'breed' me. I have been trying to figure out why this is for the past while, and while I have several ideas (in alot of ways it seeems like the ultimate kind of control a man could have over a woman, to control her body in such a powerful way, to make the decisions on those issues for her) I am not entirely sure I completely understand why this concept has had such an effect on me. I have a large family and
alot of siblings , and I am not sure if that might somehow effect my thinking on this issue, I tend to think not though.
I'd be lying if I didnt say that the idea of motherhood absolutely terrifies me. I really dont think I am ready now, or maybe ever. I feel like I wouldnt really make a great mother , or at least, I dont think I am mature enough to be a good one. (I am not trying to be hard myself, just be honest about where I am in life). I have always sort of wondered about what it will be like that day when I go through it and have children of my own, but more just sort of as a nice dream than anything I'd wanted to see happen in the near future. I am not in college but just got out of HS earlier this year, and I feel bad saying this but people from my class who are already mothers.. I have looked down on them. Not proud of it, but I felt like they were not being reponsible to be this age and be in that possition. Now with these thoughts on my mind, I feel kind of guilty about that ad more than a little confused about why my thoughts for myself seem to be different
than what I'd hold other people to. I guess more than anything, to me its just the idea of *being* pregnant, of what that would be like and feel like, to be like that and to do it for someone else because they wanted me to. On alot of levels this is also a scary idea to me, though somehow less so than the idea of being a mother.
I am not at all sure what I am looking for here, but figured at the very least it would do me good to try and get my thoughts down, and hopefully someone reading them would understand them a bit better than I do myself and I might get some insight.I can see alot of possibilities for where this could lead, but all of them are a bit intimidating and when you have no experience at all in D/s, its hard to know what kind of situation is ultimately best for me here.
PS i am on aol messenger and in case anyone wants to get in touch outside of collarme, i am gastonzero on the aol and
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