Alright... Let's get a couple of things straight... I am a work alcoholic if you don't like that then don't bother to contact me... If you think that I should be drawn to sit on this computer and have no life think again... Sitting on a computer doing nothing other than chatting it up repulses me... yes today is an odd one for me I came in early and decided to check in but, by no means is that to be a indication that I enjoy just chilling chatting online... If you are offended by this then You were never a strong enough Dom to even consider placing a collar around my neck... One day all the morons and idiots around here will learn real submissive's will not sit back and just be a doormat to appease you... We are highly intelligent and looking for those who can not only stimulate our bodies but, most importantly we are looking for those who try a little harder to stimulate our minds before attempting our bodies :)... Daily soapbox stance over now you are welcome to go about your evening... huggles n snuggles 

K two really quick things.... first, just as a fyi i've put my lifestyle needs to the side to focus on my career and, secondly, when i saw this i found it quite ironic.  i believe though there are many here that can put this myth to shame LOL.

#11 No Love For the Girls

If you're boyfriend was turned off by your crying, don't feel bad -- there's a scientific reason for this. When women cry from sadness, men detect a unique chemical component that discourages them from feeling sexually aroused.

Ok.. So, I know I've been absent but, sorry that's just life in the industry i work in.... I'm back in CA finally... Yayyy!!!.. god how i missed home... i won't be around much for a grip as i am just getting things started here and CA is my biggest contract... hope A/all are well... smooches 

Just a fyi.... i am currently in Washington and won't be returning to Cali at the earliest mid September.  That though is in no way written in stone.  

I was asked yesterday if I missed you.....

I couldn't answer....

All I could do was close my eyes and walk away......

As I walked out the door I whispered to myself.......

Sooooo much

I've painted a million kisses for You.........

I've filled an ocean with tears for You......

I've walked a million miles for You............

I've counted the stars for You..................

I did  that and more because i loved You.

I loved you yesterday....I love you still....I ALWAYS HAVE and I ALWAYS WILL!!!!!!!!!!

 no matter what, once in your life, someone will hurt you. that someone will take all that you are, and rip it into pieces and they wont even watch where the pieces land. but through the breakdown, you will learn something about yourself. you will learn that you are strong. and no matter how hard they try to destroy you, that you can conquer anything.

Of course, you never really forget anyone, but you certainly release them. You stop allowing their history to have any meaning for you today. You let them change their haircut, let them move, let them fall in love again. And when you see this person you have let go, you realize that there is no reason to be sad. The person you knew exists somewhere, but you are separated by too much time to reach them again.

I want to let go. I want to walk away from what we had and make every day a conscious step towards something more positive, something where I don’t factor someone into my life who no longer cares about me. I want to be brave in a way I always used to be, but haven’t been for some time. I want to return to the me who laughs at jokes the loudest and is always up to try something new. I miss her, and at times have almost forgotten who she is. Part of me believes that the moment I truly let you go will be the moment I get her back.

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