mywitchyone

I have a dream to one day be the owner of a lifestyle bed and breakfast. My subs running the place as I direct and waiting on the guests, maintaining the property, building the dungeon and other play spaces, etc. I doubt it will ever come to fruition, but it makes me smile to think about it. 

Whispers of empty promises blow past like an arid desert wind, leaving me more chapped and thirsty in their stead by inaction. Time stretches both forward and back again. Searching for some unknown variable to enlighten me, or at least light a path.

Within the darkness an endless array of shadows reaching out flickering before me. A glint here and there. A memory captured in my eye for only a fraction of a second. All gone. Paralyzed by the promise of fulfilled desires, or simply playing pointless games.

These ghostly figures hang in the air of my mind, like a snapshot to remind me of fireflies dancing in the night, yet frozen in time. They all fade and vanish one by one or are picked off haphazardly. Some disappearing back into the depths on their own; while still others are crushed and discarded as if by the unknowing hands of curious but dismissive children. It is my way. Perhaps my downfall, but I do not stray; nor am I sorry for choices made.

My hopes are but mere illusions playing on an old abandoned projector in an empty warehouse. What shall become of them? These dreams of the life foreseen. In time, unfulfilled dreams fade like a tattered flag, stripped from its post. No ghost to bridge the gap to the other side... my side of the void. Reality. Ideas moving to fruition emerging from the darkness to take solid form in the light. But alas this is absent in my presence, replaced by seconds ticking away, chipping off bits of my soul.

Still here I am, screaming into the same broken tin-can telephone, year after year. The other end tied only to fantasy. Just a suspended string dangling there for nobody to really hear. For it must be, I tell myself. Or in a moment of weakness, I wonder if it is just me, lost in all of this insanity.

Is it all worth it in the end? That's the real question, I suppose. The madness of it all takes me, as I take it in stride. Time may yield its secrets yet, but at that point I wonder if I may be too deaf to hear; or simply too old and jaded to care.

Answer the phone won't you; there's someone there.

I am so fucking tired of browsing through endless tasteless and tacky photos. I have seen enough floppy cocks, saggy pussys, and stretched out orifices to last ten lifetimes. Do people not realize that anyone with class wouldn't give you a serious, let alone second thought; if you have pictures like these in your profile. They are right down there with rejects trying to look cool flipping off the camera, and gold diggers begging for money. The depth of the gene pool these days is so incredibly shallow. It makes it nearly impossible for anyone of value to actually find decent people, assuming there are a few left of course. How ridiculous people are these days. I swear 95% of the "normal" population is completely retarded. The depth of annoyance I feel for sheer stupidity is unmeasurable.

A list of pet peeves:

*    Dishonesty

*    General rudeness or being disrespectful.

*    Not fully reading my profile before contacting me.

*    When someone contacts me asking for something I clearly state I am not interested in.

*    Poor communication skills. Communication is essential, come on people. If you can't stimulate my mind, you sure as hell don't have a chance at stimulating my body let alone becoming my pet.

*    Lacking basic common courtesy. If we are in the middle of a conversation. Do not disappear without taking a few seconds to say that you are leaving. It's rude.

It was recently pointed out to me by a "slave", that he felt I am looking for a sub not a slave. So I thought I should clear that up for any others who stumble across my page in hopes of servitude or ownership. I would most definitely prefer to own a slave, hands down, a zero rights obedient and loyal slave. I will however settle for taking control over a good submissive, if that's what I come across first. Both seem so hard to find, at least legitimate real time ones. 
 
I do however understand this particular concern. Let me explain why: In the delicate early stages of forming a D/s relationship it is a learning process for both people involved. I have learned over the years to try and play things fair initially and gear my actions more towards a sub (however in cases such this, it blows up in my face). I find there are several reasons for me to approach things like this, the first of which is I have yet to meet anything more than fakes, who claim to be slaves. More importantly (as I do believe there are a few real ones) I have had several experiences in dealing with these so called "slaves" and "subs" who spoke highly of a life of complete servitude and a very strong desire to serve me. That's all well and good, however when it came time to man up and prove themselves, they totally and completely fell short. I was too firm or controlling from the start, or they found ultimately that they didn't want the lifestyle they requested. This obviously has had a great deal of impact on how I handle potential applicants now. I have had to loosen my expectations, and try to bring a gentler more lenient style to my approach in dealing with anyone new. Part of the reason I stress the importance of good communication from the start, is so that we can both learn each others hopes and expectations early on, to facilitate a good working and happy D/s relationship. For example if a sub or slave I'm dealing with has a innate need for a stricter course, if I am made aware then I am able to tailor my style closer to my own ideal so that we can both be happy. Any and all relationships, regardless of the nature of said relationship, are in a constant state of flux. Humans change from day to day in their moods, thoughts, and desires; even if their personalities are more fixed. Given this human variable how one handles the same person might have to be varied day to day with changing circumstances. My point is that you can break people in a sense (spirit wise and bodily), but you have to be careful not to end up with a broken shell of a person. Who wants someone in their life who is empty and dead inside, even if they follow orders well? Certainly not I. 
 
I've been asked how a dominant such as myself can be flexible and still maintain control to get my needs met... Well, in simple terms, everyone is different and has different needs. One has to learn how to handle people on an individual level. As a person I'm quite resilient. It is my nature to be adaptive. That's why I'm so good with people (who are worth my time anyway). If I can't be flexible and facilitate some give and take, the chance of me finding my "perfect ideal match" is around zero. I liken this to people who believe in "the one" in romantic vanilla relationships. Everyone has heard about this mythical perfect partner, and then are disappointed to find that each new partner doesn't live up to "the one" they have placed on a pedestal. To me "the one" is much like bigfoot. You can spend your whole life believing and searching for something that in all likelihood doesn't exist; or you can realize that there are quite a lot of people who you could share happiness with, if you aren't complety rigid and fixed in your beliefs attitude, and actions. Not only that, but I often find that if I am open and willing to listen to what others want, even a slave, that I find new things or ways of doing things that I really enjoy. 
 
So, the best advice I can give in proceeding here is, if you don't agree with my thoughts, don't apply to serve me. Also do understand, that I know the difference between topping from the bottom, stating ones needs, and influencing a person or situation. Also know that I with deal with each appropriately. 
 
I have better things to do with my time than to play games. I am truly looking for someone to share a loving D/s relationship with. Please don't waste my time if you aren't. 
 
 Finally, a note to all of you on here who offer me tributes: I DO NOT accept gifts or monetary exchanges for my time or the privilege of letting you serve me. This doesn't change if you want to "play" on-line. First of all, I do not do anything unless it is real time and in person. Secondly, I am not about making money from this lifestyle. I find that to be usury, and very shady (unless you're a pro, in which case it’s a noteworthy profession). To me this is not a game or job; it is my lifestyle, which is to be respected. I will however note the one exception to the monetary aspect is that if I take ownership of a slave, I do expect them to be under contract. As such I will take control of their finances, along with every other aspect of their life. I will mention with that, I'm very good with finances and not about to abuse a slave’s money or material possessions. I will however use their income to contribute to our life together. Please be aware of this aspect if you are sincere in wanting to be my live-slave. It is mandatory and non-negotiable. Finally, if you live elsewhere, you will be required to visit for a brief trial period to make sure that we are compatible. If you live in another country, I will not be sponsoring you, handling your immigration affairs, or marrying you for citizenship. Again as I have said in past posts, if you don't like my rules, don't apply to serve me. It is as simple as that.