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I do not want much. Torture, degrade and humilate me until I snap and beieve that I have always been your slave and have no identity and purpose apart from being your slave. Oh well, that is the dream. |
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Sadists are the most easygoing undemanding people in the world. All they require is that you suffer in an entertaing fashion. They are pleasurably stimulated by my mewling pleas for mercy which thankfully they never give. They love my very visible spasms of pain which I generously provide in endless supply. If you want useful slaveish skills... Well, .... a long time ago in another life, I used to be v e r y good with spread sheets. Maybe you could make some good use of that. |
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Right now, I c r a v e degrading sex and cruel harsh usage from men, women, couples or groups. Because of my age, I am not concerned so much with limits. |
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Being human and having rights presents some of us with an intolerable burden. The kindly sadist is willing to lift that burden permanently from us. |
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OK, you get the idea. I'm beginning to repeat myself. If you're out there, you'll eventually read this and maybe get in touch. Hope very much to hear from you. Message in a bottle? Be Well. |
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Yep, even crazier is coming. Yes of course I have limits. These would be things I don't want done to me under any circumstance. If y o u are who I'm seeking, then this is totally irelevant to you. It all about what y o u want at the moment. I'd hope me fear and consternation would add to your pleasure. |
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OK people, this is dark. After some reflection, I've decided that I n e e d to meet psychopaths and sociopaths and devote my life to serving you. You're the only ones dark and twisted enough.
If you're reading this, you know who you are. I hope.
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Probably, here only for the journal. If you're reading this, then amongst the meandering you may find something interesting and even useful. I hope so. Read as an alternative to terminal boredom. If you think I mean that you're bored with your terminal, then skip immediately to the next journal or simply forget the whole thing.
We're neither pure, nor wise, nor good. We'll make our garden grow. - Voltaire Candide, also the musical adaptation.
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Chipping away at the unessentials in the hope of discovering the essence of myself. The preceding may be the real reason I'm here. I just used a contraction(I'm). I am pretty sure it is coming through as Im. Oh, the journal handles contractions properly.
No one here thinks as I do. There is no reason they should. For me, this, it seems, is all folly. I've almost convinced myself.
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Still trying to gain insights into the occult and UFO S . |
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Flights of fancy can reveal overlooked facts of the real world. Fritz Leiber said "He who lies well, tells more truth than he knows.".
There are many ways of determining the nature of the world we share. Unfettered flight of the imagination is one of them.
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My actual age is 76 years and 6 months. Updating profiles is costly in terms of time. |
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It seems that I'm bound by Karma to come perilously close to the abyss. Perhaps in my foolish head, I think I can bail at the last minute. This profile is for those who live close to the edge or who have already crossed over. |
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Well, Another user has read my profile and decide I was crazy and blocked me. I don't blame her. Although, I might have worked out well. I have to admit that I can get pretty dark at times. I'm sending myself cautonary notes of "Careful what you wish for.".
If you think this is unhealthy then, you should consider freeing yourself from what some have called the tyranny of the clinic. Free yoursel(ves) from an arbitray definition of what mental health is. This definition originates from a closeted group of academics and clerics who are convinced that they have the right to impose their standards on everyone else. |
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My thoughts, as always, are dark. It's why I seek to be disappeard into the darkest and most remote of places. Are there any confirmed sadists who'd like to sand blast my indentity away. |
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Wish I could find a good book to live in. Deep and profound lyrics. Perhaps w e could write a few chapters. |
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The need for degradation, humiliation and pain is overwhelming. The Holidays are over so I imagine the intensity will diminish. If y o u are a sadist with a deep need to express your sadism, please message me.
Actually it's not the Holidays. I'm a pain and degradation slut all the time, no matter what the season.
In this journal I'll try to practive honesty. It will reflect who I am. If you're not impressed, then you're not impressed with me. There is no reason you should be. |
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Still recovering fom COVID scare. I've been assured by an MD that I don't have it. |
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I feel the same way about dogs as Dean Koontz. |
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I offer myself as a smorgasbord to all interested sadists. Whatever flavor of pain,degradation, or humiliation you may want to witness/elicit, I'm more than OK with it. I realize now that this is my purpose in life.
This is a perfect environment for miscommunication to occur.
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Still looking for information on the occult, supernatural, and extra terrestials.
Vanilla, then. Some pianistic skill. If you like musicals, this might be useful to you. Well read, used to be quite good in math....
My need for enslavement, humiliation, pain, and degradation grows more insatiable every day. This is a little scary. If you're looking for no limits, please consider me.
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I m hoping to find someone who is willing, eager, and able to assume the power of life and death over me and completely enslave me. If you'd be kind and generous enough to never let me forget that I'm your slave and have no rights and no other purpose than to serve you, I'd be grateful for the rest of my life with every fiber of my being.
If you looking for someone with a bottomless appetite for pain and degradation, by all means, write. This isn't a requirement, since slaves don't make requirements. I'm simply describing some of the possibilities open to anyone willing to enslave me. I must emphasize that as my owner you'd be in the drivers seat. This is the only way it can be with t r u e slavery.
Well, I've put a lot of information in my profile and journal but so far just the sound of crickets. S o many people want the same thing.
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If you think that all this kinkiness has its origin in the supernatural, then get in touch. Also get in touch, if you want someone to torture, humiliate, and degrade.:)
Sigh.... . I m also well read and have a wide range of interests. You might actually like me. |
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I was sure that I d encounter people who d experienced the occult/mystical/alien intensely. This may not be the case. It is, however, the primary purpose of this profile. Oh well, live in hope ..... ... . |
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Masochistic urges are almost overwhelmng. Are there any people out there who d like to give me one or two black eyes and a fat lip? Bearing marks like this would make me fall in love with you!
If this strikes you as strange, well, in my more normal moments it strikes me as strange as well.
It is what I seem to need. |
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I m feeling very maso today. I need(?) pain, humiliation, etc ... . This comes in waves. It will subside. It has subsided. Again, if you don t do crazy, I completely understand. |
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I received a message:"I don t do crazy". I thought it was funny. I don't blame you, if you think I'm crazy. This is a very unusual profile. :)
I m glad we have the journal function again. |
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If your looking for sane and stable, all I can say is that I'm not delusional. What I've claimed happened, actually did. Be Well. |
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So much pain that I become anchored to the here and now. And the moment expands to encompass everything and becomes everything. You, my partner, become everything. |
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The Greeks thought that atoms were the fundamental building blocks of everything but I believe that it's stories that underlie everything. |
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Thoughts on pain
The underlying reality of my life and most people's lives is pain. Pain is the basis for everything. It is the only thing we know is real. Without it, we'd be completely adrift. Is it supposed to be that way? No. But we've been modified so that it is. |
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People search on certain demographics and then send a form letter to the list generated. Note to self: don't get your hopes up. Oh well.... patience...... |
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I'm drawn to the abyss, probably because of previously mentioned visits from abyss dwellers. I'm guessing they would enjoy the torture and degradation that I seem to be seeking. Just guessing though. This was just a sudden shift of mood. I've regained equilibrium and am just seeking conversation. This is how my thoughts run. I quickly regain equilibrium. If I were to loose the struggle, I'd be a very intense pain and degradation freak. |
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Most of my life, I've believed in magic and a benign higher power. Now, I still believe but, questions are arising within me. I'm being drawn to gloomy thoughts and darker ideas. As my despair increases, my thoughts point to dark endings and people who enjoy such things. If you're one of them, then maybe we have things to discuss. |
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Please don't reject the concept right away, Please see if there isn't something in your lifetime of memories which would render the idea plausible. |
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I'll be sifting through profiles in order to find clues as to why I am the way I am. If you decide to converse with me, we both might learn something. |
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