MysteryBkLeopard

Wanted to update my progress here of sorts do to no i still am borrowing my nephew's computer .  On this note I do not normally come to this site or to the site for this mere reason . I am not even  blogging like I once did not do to this infraction with the computer issue ; just been busy offline here as of much .

                    Lately I have been working on my address marker at the edge of the road . Does not sound like a complicated dictation of sorts other then what would look good 10 feet away or 4 feet away while moving or not moving in a vehicle looking for one's physical address marker . 

            This has been on my need 2 do list which my dear loving husband said would never remain the main center peice to draw attention of sorts while finding a home for both sons's old  jumpy spring horse which was bought 5th hand down . I know bad right to know so much information on a child's toy that has serviced so mnay kids loving the  4 spring action being stabilized to a metal frame . The Frame and springs i had no need for so they got placed into the correct recyclable material container . The house got gutted meaning I purposely removed its electronic syntathized vocal whinney and fake galloping and trotting noise maker ; opening a perfect portal for a tapered 4X4 , pressure treated and currently been painted black . (smiles) leaving a weathered / worn finnish onto it .

Something to note what looks good in a moving car , truck , golf cart or what ever does not look oh wow great up close instead it tends to make people thing what the heck or other words in a less then formidiable language constraint . Now in saying this ; the 911 marker is going to be kind of loud and deffinatly not soft spoken . I do have other plans for the horse . Like drilling out its eyes and placing led ligts into it . Along with painting and decorating the plastic horse to a new standards just once I would not have a child seated onto .

                       I am seeking to decorate it in bold colors and sparkley foam and prizm stickers . The body of the horse is Black with silver whisps around its feet and legs , the mane and the tail are painted to hold neon blue , neon pink , neon purple , metalic silver  for its hair color . Its eyes will be cat's eye green with led lights fitted into its canals .

                   I am not going to complicate my life with what plants will follow to be  set as the canvas in breaking the color and mold so to speak . I am actually thinking of spiney cacti to become the border while planting wildflowers to the center but going any further then this no I have plenty of flowers and seeds to choose from here so thats not a issue on this the issue would be how much of a sensory challenging array should I make this in quote painting the caanvas of this spot . My neighbors already love the new  working paint job on the horse . The paint I am using is acyllic but in the end it will get laquered so no more ill weather effects can transpose the marker .

After this project I seek a new challenging place to meditate . Meaning I will be weaving a safty net so I can rest up into the tree's canopy . Thoughts from the muse's asspect big enough to invite a few chosen close friend's over . For meditation purposes and spiritual . Also help in fine tuning the other party who happens may be centering .

     What possible reasons in why one would wish or want to do this  and hello why the hell up there ?

1.       Q : to seriously get away , a place one would rarely visit or be run across by man unless it falls in one of my student lands for children and parents a sensory oneness class in where the student learns to come and be one with {meaning heart , spirit and soul < feeling to all the energies and vibrations around them , learning to be still and silent so the lesson of the insects and birds and other no matter how minute in size proportions to woah .> Learning to communicate and be one with their magic and medicine . }

The address marker is right at the entrance of that meaning 3.5 acres worth lols .

Sorry if this sounds like frick to you then please do not seek my hospitality in any part . I do though seek other like minded individuals . Being Psi or sang is optional for future kindled meet u8ps for later meaning evenin fun in the forest . or near the waterfall . Which has been purposely left naturalistic as possible with as little touched by man . My sons do travel there to this region and have invited their teachers for a place to reconnect and find harmony and peace  in mind , spirit , and soul .

     A side note .....

                                 If one would wish to borrow thy woods or to teach their pet or child a lesson in the art of staying still , feel free to contact me have a few places u may want to keep her occupied as a meditation spot but working out the kinks of fears like bees or snakes or spiders too .

                       If you are seeking a private between just u and ur contracted then that may be something for the future invite . I do not just open my sancturary to anyone . If I feel your lying to me since I do not believe in reading another party sometimes i can not help it so please excuse me when this happens .  On a side note has other kinetic and empathic traits .

  The plastic horse also reppresents a mask o sorts a enigma in itself .

Well I know it has been a few weeks since I have sat down to write breifly in my jornal but been busy and does not help when one's computer crashes and having a nephew where he promises to undue the damage he has already caused to it .

            For the time I have not had a computer around me does not mean my life got any less busy here . Between getting the fun time of playing both set of parents to my 2 sons ages 8 and soon to be 11 . , I also got adopted to take care of one neice and nephew ages 19 and 18 . Which those 2 r being schooled for susession since in their bright infinate wisdom chose to drop out of school . (

              I am excited even though I stay nice and calm not showing the result of the mood  do to i wish to have it as a suprise for my sons . Since I will be bringing in a new Hybrid Wolf to work with . This one was an offer one made to me after I saw the inner turmoil a 17 year old girl was going thru do to her BFF  took teir own life and she need a animal companion asap . So I set her up with a 85 % timber , artic crossed malamute . Tam and Sage are still have a terrific time but her mom wished to repay the favor after she learned what happened in the partialy bonded to the wolf hybrid i had gotten my husband and sons . I had to greive here since he was a super big part of my life even though I only had him for a period of one month and 3 days .... still very disheartening and my heart still seizes up partialy creating a ripple with in me . I feel his spirit is close and all around me which this does give me some light beyond that tunnel . I just wish to place a warning hello no walking to my home and breaking and entering since this time i have my property set with snare traps all over ..just trying to sway possible poachers away from my forest .

                       This morning I have been invited to go to White Oak to pick up Shadow Storm , He is Black with silver markings and gold eyes . The type of Gold in which it looks like he can see thru to your soul . He has not been socialized for a period of nine months he will be turning two years old in October 14th . He is currently growing in his third set of teeth completly traditonal of the wolf .

                             Well i need to go for now . I need to make sure my wee gents are dressed and ready for school .

Well spring is almost here . I know alot of people are seriously awaiting for this . I at this point in time Have found other means in setting the stage so to speak for dealing with my lovely county's school system when in reference to meeting my sons educational needs .

                          I tried doing things the way my county wished it and what I dually noted it was not fixing or alleviating the issues at hand other then medicating my sons and them not following the doctor's written order . Lol on my end .

  During this past winter Break , I probably may of chosen some unorthodox methods in attending to the issue . Like removing my son  off of the medication that made him woozey and gave him a buzz all the time .... ( I really do not know what Risperdol does since no I have never ever swallowed this pill before .)

Perhap this is not a place to place what I have been up to here but need to jot a note in any case do to well  unfortunate case of cicumstances it made me veiw things in a different light here ; which if I can give aide by writting this down here and possibly helping another one great if one wishes to judge me for jotting this down I only give u the wish your town is not as screwed up as mine in which I am trying to raise my gifted sons .

                                          How things became unfolding here was back in Novemeber when I had a deputy pop up at my door which he was actualy there do to my hollistic approach to using plants herbs and roots to treat what has been ailing me . Let me make this 100 % clear .... The only plants I am and have been working with are ones the FDA has not classed as being illegal do to its quote plant status of being used for alternate remedies which are not approved in alot of the states in the United States .

 In stating this I say so do to no I am not using anything illegal here nor am I extracting a certain compound from the plant gene's pool molecular compound .

                                        My new found luck in meeting this Deputy and bearing the name Dick on his name tag on my front porch where my sons pet chickens have gone to roost since I guess he wanted to show up after nine in the evening , just happy it was a friday evening and my prescribed sleep medication named trazodone was just starting to ebb its way into effect ( forty five minutes after swallowing my pill of a 150 MGs ) [ i was still compling with society's mirror perfect rules ] ... Due to already suffering from Night Terrors and bouts to Sleep Walking , and also suffering from asthma and unfortunatly I have been trying to break from a really hard icky habit of smoking cigarettes , Deputy Dick showed up after I had smoked a pipe of sage to help expel the nasties that would of thrown me into a fit with the asthma . also helps the night terrors since I was ensuring myself a night of sleep of six hours . It seems it did not help since he had poped up on my door step to check the status of both of my sons and a nephew who is not a minor .  My sons were watching a dvd on my tv in my bedroom while i was in the office's alcove . I also had the traditonal Nag champa smoldering in it's holder in the great room with my mom in law since it makes things a bit more peaceful for her and her noisy parrot which for what ever reasons was taught a bunch of vulgar words not by me of my sons or by the mom in law . the bird did learn a catch phrase my son is known to bombard my other son with but in ways I am glad the mom in law does not actualy hear what the parrot is saying I know my father in law would of long time hence fed it a ball of lead . ** twitches**

                                     Long story short the deputy asked to see if my sons were still breathing and to check on the status of the nephew's health and welfare also .

 Deputy Dick mind u did not wish for another adult to be on the porch when we spoke . Instead boy did I get questioned on what did smoking sage do for me did it get me high , or give me a buzz ? or was I just plainly stoned ? Which of course each time he posed the question he recieved my head shaking it no , with me physicaly speaking afterwards on what did sage do and the reasons why my eyes were glassy was do to the prescribed medication here in which he was catching me at 45 minutes in . Since it takes me about an Hour and twenty minutes to become incompacitated by the medication in which I need a place to rest my head .

                                        He did also note the bunnies all to one cage which were tucked in onto my porch also . ( supposed to of been Christmas and Thanksgiving dinners ) which were also my sons idea of what to have for dinner with the grandparents and their aunt and uncle . Their wish was for fried rabbit smothered in a sherry buleet (forest, wild , safe) mushroom gravy served with a traditonal armenian pilaf .  

                                                                 ::sighs::

The 23 rabbits got their lives spared since the deputy past complaint to social services and the local animal shelter . The next morning I was not at my home to see the new visitors which were coming to see me on what the dear deputy saw here due to I already had a set appointment with the mother in law for her to have a colonoscophy .

   Instead I came to my house with chickens a plenty running around nice and free , and when approaching my front porch noting the rabbit's that were being kennelizied , were missing along with the nephew's kennel they were being housed in . When speaking with the nephew thru this real funny marriage , I become informed the lady officer seized my sons rabbits and she also searched the house to make sure we did not have any other rabbits . Do to how she found the group housed which she said was improperly done . She would not listen they were for food and we had just gotten them late on wednesday evening .  Thursday was busy running around hecticly having the mom in law having her registered at one of the 3 hospitals i have had my dealings with so she could have a lower gi with removal of what ever pollops they did find.

                    Social Services did pop out for a bit to show themslves which we did recieve by apt the supervisor , the social worker and a invetigator . I did show and give full cooperation , I also offered them a hair , urine and blood test to test me for drugs or drug like substances or where they could of tested to see if I was taking the quote prescribed meds I was suppose to be of taking at the time . I did still recieve some questioning on the essences I have housed here and of course yes most deffinatly the Mc Cormicks Rubbing Sage . I offered the investigator full acess to my library on plant medicine even the Indic volumes . She chose a wiser method by seeking to see what she could find by googling it , I gather she found the truth even in when it was said and I know they wish to stop by here I know they do but they can not step in since my son the one which was being mediated instead i aided him in some different approaches this time by simply breathing  and what one can accomplish upon holding one's breath or the appiture of the breath and how full shall u take it into your lungs and how shall you release it ? ..... My guess it may also help to know they both got their first flutes at the age five years old they got a set of whistles at the age of 4 . they recieved bongos when they were abled to pat a tat tat .   Since they are both quite sensitive in being and do need help with fine tuning both vibrational and harmonic tone displacement  one may feel and hear on more then one of their senses to parlay upon .

                         I stated earlier being gifted meaning the potential in being trained precognitive empathic with their abilities . My eldest already knows how to make great tracks in pushing one's bittons to the limit where that adminstrator really wishes to see if they can pop his head off of him and pop it back on this is what the principle wished to do if he was left to long in his capable hands and mind u my state is very much set to the no touch and mishandling of the children . His teachers in the past suggested him to recieve boquet of spankings . which this teacher did recieve the other son too which she noted with him he was silent but marked . Meaning if she was not in a good mood and if by accident she did pose threat in her voice or a substitute teacher mayhaps be picking on one of the students and having a tad of fun the teachers both would come down with nasty tension headaches . When noted of the occurance they also noted my son was smiling at them .  Okay I believe this is enough said for this morn . Time to get my sons awake and ready for school .

 One last note here to all , My computer is down thanks do to younger son and a quote secured site from son's school which we found later was not . The only liberties I have with a computer is my nephew's which he likes to block this site . geee how help ful found out yesturday he did it to all programs so i could not check any emails and well i do not have the phone plan for my cell and well honestly I need to make some new friends offline . any suggestions ?

Thinks and ponders a wee bit on this place and site . I note alot of people come and look over here .


In noting this I believe i need to make it whole heartedly apparent I am seeking friendship , but please do nthing or quander that I mayhaps be seeking something more then friendship there . I am seeking a circle of a few minds that could possibly give my husband a better grasp in attending to my needs .


I am not trying to cause any ill will or with this friendship here other then possibly having and crating a spiritual circle which may haps help in addressing and teaching my husband  the adequit needs I do require and my needs here since it seems there is a slight misconception on this there .


If after the fact i have  given invitation in meeting you will be shown a private tract of acreage with its private forest and mature hardwood canopy . Which may bring merriment to one's eyes for thoughts of bringing your own special pet that you could possibly suspend and dangle upon the placement in which your wish to shed .


All I ask is that no Meat hooks allowed  ... Meaning suspension will be done with the limits of constriction  and possibly spread eagle and suspended  however amopunt of feet over your head u wish to take the subject ... (remeber i am not the subject here ).

the only place which would be considered a hot zone is the place I would take my husband but we are having issue on him being bound since for some reasons he has fear I will become manhandled by one of the circle which I am listening to him so I am in process of building a sex alter by my natural waterfall here .

which i will have no issues after everything is set and blessed here for if u would see need more then an over passing veiw on what is going on down below since if one looks straight through my forest they do not see this small natural waterfall it is secluded and hidden ...
One can not see it until they go to the brink and look down 14 feet sheer drop  , then they see across the way by an expanse of 5 feet across and 7 feet up the plataeu the resting spot the place I am seeking for my alter and some  bedding plants which can be address for other medicinal uses and needs in  cauing and itch or fixing it to where it felt burned and raw .




which depending on the use it can be use to address and sedate one's needs at a time or a clip .

I know i will have at least one wondering what I meant by this there .
so with out any further adeiu i will explain my previous train of thought processing ... lols

I have been trained in the art of using plants by many different culturals and practices to bringing out just the right results of what the prescriber wished to happen to the one recieving this application , Side note makes Figging look innocent and pretty close to the strawberry shortcake type role and model of being candy coated .


So lets say someone had a pet they wished to discipline and then after making sure she or he is throughly irritated and  raw now lets  fuck the senses out of them by one hole or by two hole or  if u wish to turn it onto yourself it can become quite mind clearing so to speak  . but there u will feel everytime  wether the strok is on the inward or on the outward lance there .

Please take no acception to my own version of pain modifications here at time i am super sweet a real doll baby and at other times well who knows go figure .

Now in saying all of what I have already addressed here upon this slight issue here I am keyed differently then most .

Okay now for a little history my husband says my nature and my likes are of a non safe practice so go figure he will not do but do something i think i should tolerate and want and like ....

 example given Please check out my poem titled suffocations kiss  .. Okay granted its not suffocation but by strangulation and he does not like to do that since i like to have it at a very vulnarable spot , so he is known to go after the nerve endings and doing a nerve block by putting me to sleep ..


this is not acceptable here seriously one very un happy  camper still trying to open from my own pandora's box but instead i am thrown so many curve balls from the moon with this one .


well I am going to have to go for now since its time for me to go to my sons school and pick them up . Will probably continue this journal a bit around 6 pm this night if not before hand hey have a question shoot me a real email with the question okay . thanks have a wonderful day .

    Suffocation's Kiss