MyRhinestone

Let me begin by saying I am a Domme.  I am intelligent, somewhat sophisticated, beautiful, self confident and self assured.
I have also been separated from my husband for almost a year.  Since he moved out, our relationship metamorphasized into something really nice.  I spent our entire marriage avoiding sex with him.  After he moved out, we sort of began a passionate affair.  I have always likened it to being boyfriend and girlfriend.  We also have had an understanding the whole time that we are free to date other people if we wanted to.  When he actually did, I sort of got a sexual charge out of it and our sex got even better..  But now I am faced with a pretty major problem..
There is a man that I have fallen madly, deeply, passionately in love with.  I never, ever expected it.  For me, this began as a simple flirtation.  He posts here often and I found myself truly intrigued by him. I sent him a flirtacious email and a tastefully provactive picture of myself..
He responded in kind, very "Domly" like.  His response just "did it" for me, you know?
So began a little bit of a back and forth thing.. Very casual, very light.  After all, he was many,many miles away and my heart was safe, right?
A few weeks later, we began to talk on the phone and it was fucking HOT right out of the gate.. Within 15 minutes of our first phone conversation, he had me masturbating in my car in a bank parking lot (first he asked if I had a jacket or something to hide myself with, immediate brownie points!)
We began talking on the phone several hours a day (mostly nights, but thank g-d for free nights and weekends!)  We talked about everything under the sun.  There were plenty of times when my UM's would interrupt us and do you know what he said whenever I apologized for the interruption? "Don't ever apologize for that.  You are a great Mom and they come first.  I understand that. And anyway, they sound like great kids."  DING DING DING!!! (that's the sound of more brownie points being racked up..)  I realized very quickly what a very special, intelligent and intuitive person he was..

Even though my husband and I had been having alot of fun and getting along well for months (still living apart of course) the reasons for our separation remained unresolved.

My Dom and I got closer and closer. Not just the phone sex, the cyber stuff, but as friends. As a man and a woman.  As people.

He says all the right things.  He makes me feel not just beautiful, but like a hot fucking bitch. He makes me feel smart and sexy and appreciated and yes, loved. 

I went to visit him for four days.  It was intensely sexual, sensual, romantic and fun.  It was chock full of D/s.  He took me to a dungeon for the first time and I LOVED it!
He also hired a photographer to take cute little romantic pictures outside, then brought me inside, changed me into an arm binder, and had her take some pics of me in those as well.

OMG, we fell so hard for each other it is just crazy and wonderful at the same time..

So, I come back home.  My husband (who, I repeat, I am separated from) is a BASKET case over this. 
Now he wants to do all the things to save our marriage that he wouldn't do before. 
Does this stem from jealousy and the fear of losing a great woman? Of course!

My husband is a great friend, lover and dad.  We have lots of fun together and I always want to have a good relationship with him.

I don't think I want to be with husband anymore though.  I think I gave it enough years and this could be a case of too little too late.

My Dom wants me to make a decision soon, and rightfully so.  He is also gently guiding me towards my husband when I know without  a doubt that he is dying inside at the thought of losing me.

My Big Bear fills my soul.  He makes my heart bounce.  It may sound cliche, but not only do I love him, I love who I am when I am with him.
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH...

I have so much more to say but I will continue tomorrow.  I am so sleepy..