"I ask you to judge me by the enemies I have made."

Franklin D. Roosevelt.

If I ask you to stop messaging me and you insist upon continuing don't be surprised/angry when I delete them, unread...

"just one scoop of potatoes, one slice of butter... OH... and four peas... Ohhhhh... Ohhhh..."

Sometimes I think I want to include "Testimonials" here. Just so I can prove that I'm not the only one who thinks I am awesome...

What does it mean when you're more into girls when you're sliiiiiightly drunk???

It's funny, I've noticed a lot of women on this site who are clearly like 4's but who have lists of demands and requirements as though they believe they're 10's. What's up with that?

One day I'll learn not to try to school the little baby Doms... It just frustrates me and them...

So yeah, I just read the thing that has served as my "profile" for like 3 years... I feel like the person who wrote that is gone. A lot of the things I said still apply but it's like I'm a completely different person. I seemed so hopeful and earnest. It's almost sad how angry and cynical a couple of years can make you. If anything, I wish I could go back to that... Go back to being oblivious and goofy. Go back to the excitement of believing that the "Perfect Master" existed. Go back to hoping for that guy who'd right all the wrongs and make things fall into place for me. Then again, I was kinda of stupid then and I left myself open to pain that would never ever happen now... So, is it actually better to have loved and lost than to never have loved at all?Maybe but only if what you lost wasn't your optimism.

So, I've started a new "job".
As weird as it may seem I'm actually getting paid to be a phone Domme. Yes me, the girl who can't Dom a puppy is humiliating my way through sissy's every night! I seriously love it.

"You seem to like ropes and that would be a good way to start with a violet wand.

Walking and talking contradistions are a good way to put it. That sounds oddly like I am looking in a mirror. I could tell you how much I like your curves,.... but then snap and tell you beg like a dog. I could be smacking the hell out of your ass then suddenly carress you with kisses.

Is it wierd to ask a sub to let me feel what a new paddle feels like. Don't put that past me either. I believe a Dominant person can power exchange better with a sub if the Dom knows first hand what the sub is experiencing.

I can live without your list of hard limits and dislikes, but would love to explore the curiosities of a D/s relationship. I know you probably are thinking how could you get along with a man my age. Let me assure you I do not act my age. Physically mostly but my actions are mature but very playful and inquisitive.

Maybe we could meet up at Jitery Joes or something and just talk? My first inclination would be to make sure I have some rope in the trunk of my car though.

David"

He can live without my list of hardlimits?  What rock did he crawl out from under??? Seriously who would play with a "Dom" who suggests letting him tie you up on the first meeting... 'nuff said.

I have decided that I want to be a perpetual "newbie" to bdsm. There is always something new to learn, something i want to try. i want to learn everything, right now my brain feels like a sponge and it can soak up anything. Hmmmm where to go with this... Ok some of the things i am into or getting into right now:

*BondageBondageBondage. Tie me up please.

*Massage;i am learning how to give them, YAY!

*Pain! Gimme gimme gimme, pull my hair and i am Yours.

*Dominance; i don't mean a stranger sending me a message saying "On Your knees." i mean a strong Man (maybe woman??????) who knows what they like and are not shy about making their wishes known. That said understand that if i don't belong to You and W/we're not playing together that i will not always be falling over myself to get You off.

*Submission; my own, how i relate to it, how it fits into my life.

*Floggings/whippings/canings/paddlings/spankings, perhaps this falls under pain... dunno.


*Violet wands; snap crackle and pop... ohhhhh.< Is in love with Violet wands. Gimme please!

*Master/slave relationships; the mechanics, the day to day operation.

*Poly, 9 months later and I am still struggling. It is hard! But the rewards are worth the pain that i am suffering to figure myself out.

*Fireplay; not even entirely sure what all this entails but ewwwww sexy.

*Wax; tried it once and i liked it.

*Figging, this is one i am not entirely sure i will like but i am curious since it was brought up once.
 
*Fisting, my biggest concern with this one is "hotdog down a hallway" problems if You know what i mean... But i have been told that it really isn't an issue.

*Needle play, ouch but i have seen some pretty pictures featuring this. i am especially interesting in corset piercings... VERY pretty.



(there is WAY more to come but i am short on time and long on thoughts)