Well  life here in Nova Scotia is definitely slower. I am interested in finding some like minded friends in the area. We are even interested in a couple for some friendship.

I am not looking to train young boys, or do on line. I would like to find a submissive female for friendship and more when my boy is away. There may be more in the future when trust and understanding is developed.

Msch

I have to wonder, how much interest 50 Shades of Grey has brought to the lifestyle.

Wishing a Happy Valentine's Day to everyone.

The time of year to celebrate all the love in our lives no matter where it comes from.

I am fortunate to have my own little valentine boy to enjoy.

May everyone be as fortunate ... in finding that love ... again.

Msch

Life  is about that balance. Where its sitting on the couch watching tv and reaching over and tweaking his nipples.... to reddening his stubborn butt and making an impression.

We are not always on...we are a couple... friends... lovers... yes the whole enchilada...

So lucky to have babycakes...

An update.... I would never have expected to find this man who is my little boy... my partner... my friend.. A man I can see spending the rest of my kinky twisted.. exploring years with...

10 years... it took 10 years... and all those years when ppl said patience is a virtue.

I had no idea that he would come to me when I least expected it. THAT is all so true.

I look forward to all my time I get with him.... I am the happiest I have ever been in life with ken.

Many cross our paths. Exactly what they will be to us in our journey of life is not always known.

I have met many and am thankful for most of them. I have learned from everything I have done in life. If there are those who are so full of themselves to think they know it all.. ONE day... they will understand when they walk in the shoes of another who knows nothing and realize they arent any better.

Best of luck to those still searching.. those still playing.. and those still lying to themselves.

Acceptance starts first within yourself.

I am happy with who I am and have become.

Msch...aka Lynn... not Goddess.. Mistress.. Madam.. but just ME..

love you babycakes xoxox

All I wish to say... is... smiles.... and smiles some more

No need to look any longer... because if he isnt what I am looking for... then what I amlooking for will not exist in my world

Best of luck to those who wade through this  site...I no longer need my rubbers

Msch

My time is being spent getting to know someone and plans to meet in the next month.

I am still around to chat with friends but my profile may be gone occassionally. It is becoming spring and many silly NEW messages are just that .. silly.

Those I have been chatting with I will continue.... new ones.. .sorry I dont have enough time in my busy life... sorry

Msch

Triggers, we all have them. Things that bring out past emotional issues in our life.

I sought out a Mentor years ago. Many always wondered why he was not my one.I just knew what his purpose was to me.In saying that I learned quickly all I could from him and when I challenged I was usually met with that tactic of "withdrawl of attention". Nothing infuriates me more when I seek to understand and talk.. rant.. discuss.. learn... make me understand why it happens... and I am left to my own accord to figure out the answers.

This has just happened again, that trigger. Like everyone in the world, we all struggle to understand. I learn all the time what makes me tick and why. What I have not come to grips with is... why I cant have what I want... Do I always seek that is unattainable? Do I put down the wall and allow one in close only to fear rejection we all FEAR?

I am just me, and tend to test to see who will run or flee when it gets iffy. My first love in life always came back to me... even on bended knee pleading...so he must have loved me right?

I know in the world of the internet so much is lost. To see the face, touch the skin, smell the scent.. yes I am that much of a touchy feely. If I cant touch.. I am frustrated. Dont taunt me with false hopes, I can see through them, offer me something I can touch instead. This past month has been very challenging for me. I want something so bad that I forget about what might be infront of me within my grasp.

Triggers... they exist in us all.

It is time for a break again.. profile is still here I am still around.

Regroup my thoughts... change my focus.. live my life

Msch

If you are lucky enough to have the outside contact of CM then lucky you boy... I will still chat with you.. if not.. sucks to be you then boy..

Sincerity is not always easy to create. I really try to do what is right in life. In all aspects. Polite responses to messages that wish chat... yes chat that leads to sexual issues. BDSM isnt just about sex, its about the mind... and how it makes the body think and react. 

There are a few decent ppl I chat with on CM. I can learn something from the experience they have in an area I have none. I was taught by my Mentor to understand and feel what they will feel so I have a better understanding of what I do. 

I have never been in a cage, but the thoughts of looking into the pleading eyes of a submissive who has earned that caged position just makes me feel my power over them. 

I am a Mommy, sometimes that Mommy Dearest mode, and other times that come sit on Mommy's lap and let her tell you a bedtime story. Good boys vs bad boys.. over all I prefer sweet and innocent... with just a hint of sassy.

That one is for you

Oh the tangled webs some weave... just to deceive.. welcome to my parlor said the spider to the FLY..

 It has taken this last week, to really figure out if what is real to some ppl is really NOT real to me.

 Back on track... forward I go...

Today I bought some new items to pack in a play bag. Some nivea, some ponds.. and looks for her vicks. A nice wooden hairbrush... should these items be of use... HELL YES.. and soon I plan

Msch

Let me change that to a DIAPER BAG.. Mommy has it stuffed with the essentials of looking after her little boy

South Pacific the musical is in Toronto,

Feb 15- Apr 10.

I would love to see this show.

I use to think I had no right to make demands of another, but it seems so many wish for that with the freedom to not really be owned. SERVICE is that, but I prefer to be served hands on, not by the fantasy sensation of the internet.I could easily become demanding to know each moment of your day but I wait until I have a greater interest. Otherwise it just feels like cyber dominantion and really, you can pay someone for their time if that is what you seek. I dont wish that my intentions are to meet and start an ongoing relationship.

In saying that, if you are able to meet, provide a place for meeting. I will provide the opportunity to get to know me better and I you. After all, if you think physical attraction is all that is needed you are gravely mistaken. In time it is the presence that is felt, not what the eyes see.

Think about it, blindfolded is it not your senses that indicate more that what you see?

Well, I was told I am too soft and seem like a romantic. Over the internet mind you. Now the interesting fact it was a few days of orgasm denial. And really can you trust a boy to not wank?  I explain what I am looking for and I get I am a romantic. Now that really made me send a message to him saying I hope you find a harsh woman who will use you, break you and take you for everything you have then toss you to the curb, and remember that is what you asked for. Some ppl wish to be victims. Albeit willing victims. I am sorry that I have values and will not just USE someone.

Msch

It appears there is a greater interest in me lately. Some wishing to meet. I will set aside the time to meet you when you are in my area. It is always nice to meet face to face and talk about common interests. It is even more enjoyable to have companionship of a like minded individual. I will not have to hide who I am.. but enjoy unleashing the fury... smirks.. okay maybe not fury... Lets see who keeps their word. Remember in life, our word is what says the most about us. Our actions SHOW it. Msch

I trust my gut, my famous last words. If I listen to my gut then I would NEVER be wrong. Alas, I am human and do make mistakes. Yes it is my appendix but it has calmed down. So now I wait for the next time it flares to have it dealt with.After all, we know the health care system only treat what you can see, dont go looking for more problems.

I can put my energies back into enjoying the small pleasures I have in life. Now, is some little boy going to be that small pleasure... GRINS..

Today I learned a few things. 1. Chronic or acute pain can make me bitchy. 2. Little boys dont get it, they think its all about them hence my search for a mature boy. 3. Slavery exists and some ppl enjoy living under the stairs and never going outside. 4. I want a house boy who understands that he may have to serve around my sons. (until that inspires them to move out...LOL) 5. The thought years ago about a stable has come full circle again. 6. There is not one man in this world that can satisfy every need of a woman. She needs more than one. 7. That some of you boys are of a great interest to me and some are dweebs. 8. Not to wear black male socks and show to gary...lol 9. That when I get sent videos, they only make me for the lack of a better term "randyish" and I have to deal with buying MORE batteries. 10. That if you say you are going to be in my area, yes I will meet you for a coffee or dinner but for the LOVE OF GOD, dont expect me to play with you. I have to get to know you better before I just casually pull out my paddle.PS... I dont play casually... Msch

OMG another one upset because I dont ask him something.... LISTEN little boys.. if you want to tell me something get some kahonnas (cojones as I have been corrected by a boy)and ask if you may tell me something. I dont read minds of 10 year olds, my own sons are older than that. I am cranky yes, so approach with caution and dont fucking annoy me or you will end up blocking me like the last pouty boy. GRRRow up

Msch

I would like to thank Keno47 for sending me ebooks to my hotmail. I will read them and enjoy the Elise Sutton writings.

Msch

I realize we all start out somewhere. Those young eager newbies who just want to go out and experience it all.. Yes most of us have done that. I dont judge, I just know I have been there done that. Dont be offended if I tire of your antics. I am not interested. What I am interested in is finding someone who wishes to have an ongoing relationship that will evolve into longterm and 24/7. Yes even right now at this moment in time I still have some family committments. I cant run away and pretend I start  a new life. It has to grow to become that.
Msch

Sunday was a trying day at work and then when I got home. I have a suspicious feeling that my appendixs is going to have to come out soon.. another evening in such agony will mean a trip via ambulance  that is for sure.

Msch

As I near the ending of the Elise Sutton book, Female Domination, I have to chuckle to myself when it says what a FemDom is looking for. All along I have said I was not just looking for a playtoy, but a friend, a companion, a lover, who just happens to understand I am his Queen.I guess I am on the right path then eh boys? Once I finish this book, I wonder who would be interested in ordering me the next book I wish to read from Chapters?To implement the information I learn about of course on him... Msch

If I get a message in my bulk mail, that tells me you are not local. Realistically, you have to be somewhat local for me to even start to have any interest.

I will ask after a bit, what do you offer to me. Is it dinner, movie, live theatre, a hockey game, something I would not do alone but need an escort?

Amuse me boys. It is the companionship I miss of a good man. Not his dick...

Msch

I will always ask questions... so.. there is a guy who's profile says his girlie side wants to come out .. then.. pray tell why not seek a Dom to help make him feel the sissy he is?

Would he be to harsh... or make him suck a cock? I would think dressed as a sissy he should be treated as a sissy.. but then.. if its only a humiliation factor then anyone will do once he is in an itty bitty bra and thong.. right?

Msch

My curiousity is piqued by gay male dominants and the torture they would put their useless pathetic cock of a boy through. Now that would make me wank...LMAO..

It is funny when I was asked why I didnt treat men like the pigs and animals they are. Honestly I cant. I have to show respect because if out of the blue a comment flies from my mouth it will STUN those around me. I understand my view of what men are, and truly most are exactly that. Yet, I look for that man who understands when I say such humiliating things to him that he enjoys it, doesnt take it on that personal level.
I have started to decrease the responses to some on line, and give a task to serve me. So, if you think you can and I give you something that I need done and you cannot, your service is futile to me.

I want my driveway shoveled NSA, my car cleaned off at work after an evening shift and snow, an escort to dinner and a movie your treat. I am tired of being Ms NiceGal... I am a bitch to my core. I just have to be inspired to be ME.

Msch

Yes it is important the wants and desires of a submissive. I take that into account. BUT, my strictness comes from observing the focus and just are they a "do me" type boy, or, are they genuinly thinking of MY wants and needs first.

Again, I state, the internet is a tool to find others who earnestly and sincerely understand who they are. That innate desire to seek out a strong woman who will lead them to the place they are to be.

I need to see it, feel it, hear it.. yes SENSE it in all ways I can. you may eagerly tell me all that I like to hear, but if your actions are not in accordance are you just still discovering yourself.

I am also, and accepting each day that I want a specific type of man who understands he wants and needs what I do.

A test, it is just a test, in case of an emergency.... lol... go directly to the corner, strip, kneel and await your Owner.

I wont play on line, I will banter and enjoy some amusing conversation but if you really wish to get to know me, you have to MEET me. Its that simple.. KISS.

Msch

Perhaps my lil submissive sister did it right. Just have them move in.. go through them until she found one that was the best for her.I have a room. I need many things repaired around my home. Because that is slave work. Not for me to dirty my hands with. I can but refuse to. 

That means if it snows.. I will drive over it  and pack it down. If the lawn is too long.. I will start to nag someone else until it is done or will go out and buy a GOAT. ( a male one even... humour ffs)I have not found HOME. If anyone relates to that comment then you  may understand where I am in life. I can adapt to my surroundings. Find my niche.. alas.. what I cannot find is the slave that fills the biggest void in my life. 

Dont feel sorry for me.. if you feel my emotion then you have empathy. I have a lot of it smiles. 

Msch

We all have a history. The things we have done to learn and experience the different facets of bdsm. If you had to get a reference... could you? I know if others asked about me they would get a subjective opinion from the person. Being objective means you really have to stand out side of the box.. or on the soap box and cite what you observe. My mentor has passed away. Friends that know me will tell you exactly how I am. Past submissive I have "played" with may feel jilted because they were not what I seeked. The boy out west has met and was trained by a Mistress from Montana. I wish to talk with her about him. She should be honest about him. Just as I was honest about puppy( he was not the one for me but could make someone else happy).

Little tests and challenges reveal more than what the naked eye sees. If red flags start going off in my head I am the first to step away.I do realize fear holds us back from taking a risk. But close your eyes... imagine the freedom... that is where I want to live my life.

Msch

Have you ever noticed a minor dispute with someone. Who is the bigger person to offer the olive branch. Today, my best friends mother passed away. She didnt call me so I could go with her as support. But, shortly after hearing the news I was at her side to show her that I do care and love her. She has a daughter that is, in no better terms, a little bitch. I drove her over to her apartment. She knocked on the door, 7 am not that early. She peeked out the window and then did not answer the door.

Sometimes in life opportunity knocks on your door. If you dont open it communication will always be closed. Fences will not be mended and harsh feelings will fester. If you reach out today to someone who may be upset with you or your words... remember.. LIFE IS TOO SHORT not to be happy.Msch

Inspiration is an amazing motivator. My inspiration is to also inspire another to be the best little boy he could possibly be to his Mommy.

That requires and means understanding daily rituals. I expect to have a good morning wake up message or call. I am an early riser so if little boy isnt ahead of his Mommy and keeps her waiting ... I am sure you can see where this is going.

I am not unreasonable. Demanding yes.I set the rules and guidelines slowly to start. Indicating how fast or how slow this process will take. When I finally say "it is time to meet" little boy best be ready for that. Otherwise Mommy has wasted more of her precious time.

Mommy doesnt want to waste her time she wants to nurture and mold her little boy into the bestest he can be.. for HER.

I wanted to post another horoscope.. they make me laugh when they are bang on about me... let me type it in... grumbles that cut and paste doesnt work..

Todays NewMoon/Solar Eclipse falls in your sign, Capricorn,which makes this an excellent time for far reaching personal changes in appearance or lifestyle.You can take advantage of this during the coming month, and it is likely that your popularity will be at peak.It's also possible that a major change in relationship will occur,or that you decide to make a change in residence or employment.Changes in working conditions may also occur, and if they do it's possible that you will experience greater authority.Unexpected communication with friends, or unusual group activities could bring social or financial opportunities your way.

Amazing isnt it... LOL

music, it does soothe the savage soul doesnt it.

This morning I wake to a song that my first and dearest submissive "girl" friend brought to my attention to. Because of you I never stray to far from the sidewalk.

She is on my mind because it is her birthday soon and she is having surgery. She taught me about being cautious... I am thankful for her never failing friendship. Love you vickie and thinking of you  over this next week. HUGS..

I am looking for someone who knows to his core who he is. That having a "Mommy"  feels right. That everything he does is for her. Mommy will always look after her little boy. Its what a Mommy does. I consider myself to have many sides. Some I am more comfortable in. Some are very natural. I know the little boy in so many men seek out Mommy figures. There is a reason. Just as there is a reason it suits me. I am the mother of three sons. God knew I was to not have a daughter. My younger sister was like that daughter to me.

I am now ready to embrace the little boy who cries out for his Mommy's love and attention.

Msch

2011

Now reflect back on how far you have come. Ten years ago I told my slavish ex husband to leave. If I had understood who we both were at that time in life things may still be different.I know my sons would have been happier and my life would have been easier. I have had my struggles in life. We all do. But I will admit I have become stagnant, just surviving in a life that is only that. I wish to feel that alive again.Over this past year I have come to terms with who I am. I am still evolving because if I didnt what would I be? Not at all the wise intuitive woman I have become. I know what I seek now. Finding that missing piece of the puzzle has been a challenge. Many have thought they would fit into it and make the picture complete.

I have learned patience. Yes, I could use more...everyone could. I was taught by my Mentor it was more the submissive that picks their owner. I tend to be the potential owner of lots who think I may be right for them. I am yet to "meet" my potential slave. it is out there... browsing me.. smiles

Msch

My mornings are my museful times. I rarely remember dreaming or even if I did. Did I dream that last night. Listening to him tell me his hopes and dreams. Pondering each word he said. Wondering is that who I am. I think we often worry if we will satisfy anothers wants and needs.Some only consider if their own will be achieved. I want for it to be symbiotic relationship. Where one feeds off the other and it grows. It takes time to start a foundation. It takes committment to build the walls. It takes understanding to put on a roof. It takes happiness to fill the rooms.That is what makes a "home".  One step is the start of a journey... is it time to take that step... to re embrace..and find home. I hope so. Msch

As I continue to read  a book by Elise Sutton, it occurs to me about the priviledge of touching me. I was 'dating" a submissive male couple of years ago. We went on a trip to visit my son  for Christmas. While driving, he inadvertantly put his hand on my thigh and then started tapping to the music. I know that sounds trivial.. alas.. it annoyed me. First that he thought he could touch me and second that I wasnt really enjoying the music.

I removed his hand and suggested that touching me he had to ask. I think he was stunned by my words.

Needless to say the test of the visit was all it took. I had to do most of the driving and he didnt earn the priviledge of pleasing me.Let alone he got me lost in the woods snowmobiling and missed Xmas dinner at my sons.

Later after we "broke up" he said he was looking more for a vanilla gf with some D/s involved.

I am now realizing I have been seeking a slave who understands Female Supremacy.Even I learn more and more about myself. Msch

I am not like everyone else. I have this dream... its not the impossible dream just one I wish to live the rest of my life doing. I rule...I referred to myself as the Queen most of my life raising my family of boys. They understood who I was as their mother... and as his wife. I seek that again.

It isnt a day of beating my future slave every morning. It is about him serving me and enhancing my life. That is what he craves to do, that is what I wish to enjoy.

Its not about being restrained to the cross and flogged for his sexual enjoyment. Its about clicking the restraints kicking his legs apart... and grabbing what is mine. Doing whatever I wish for my enjoyment. Which incidentally will be his enjoyment also.UNLESS is punishment.

I dont walk around in leather. I am who I am. If you dont feel my presence then I am not the one for you. But.. if you feel me near you, your skin goes clammy, your palms start to sweat, you have the urge to lower your eyes, kneel to my feet and say "how may I please you Ma'am" you are on the right track.

I have many interests I have yet to explore. I dont wish to just rent a sub or slave to do that. I am quite honest with my experience. I just know what I enjoy the most.. his ass.

Msch

venting does my soul the world of good..

To make this clear.  A slave will work inside the home and outside.He will also wear a chastity device.I am not about to support financially a man who has no interest in the outside world but a fantasy idea of being chained to the stairs.

so it seems... NEXT....

I have this dark side to me. That when I show it, many are taken aback by it. Like my work I must tone down who I am. Becareful how I phrase things... so I dont come off to  "strong" to my co workers.

When I start conversing with someone I am usually very easy and flippant. Even joking about things. Why? Because I tend to frighten the weak of heart... smirks.

Once I realize you may be what I seek or you claim to me you are... a little test shows me everything. If you cannot endure the worst of me.. you never will deserve the best of me

Msch

As discussions continue, on a level that does not just merit ones place. It isnt that one must settle, but more what will one tolerate.

I have never owned another body. You really cannot consider a marriage that unless both parties are aware of the circumstances.

My honesty is that most of my life I have avoided the full responsibility of another. Besides my children, that is a given to a mother.

Understanding what owning encompasses is an eye opener. What are my expectations of a slave. What are his duties, his responsibilities.

This last one ( and I try not to name that sounds egotistical) has really made me think and challenge who I am. I have doubts only about if the slave will be content with who I am.. and then in the next train of thought think is that my problem? To a degree it is. Some may agree or disagree.

My concern is what is the dynamics between myself and this potential slave.

Yes I want a houseboy. No I dont want a husband. Yes I will probably want more if I feel like it.Do I want him to work? I want him to contribute. How you ask?

IF I evolve to my potential then he is doing his job well. My world will run smoother and I will be the better woman for it. 

Msch 

I know the type of partner in life I am looking for. Finding is the challenge. Talking to many passes the time but few challenge my mind. Is thankful when one or two of such men cross my path.

Happy Holidays to everyone. Stay safe and remain healthy

Msch

I guess I have expectations. How to speak to another. Not to just assume I can do whatever I want because its the internet.

I remember when I first was exposed to the net I wanted nothing to do with it.

I took ppl at face value if I cannot see them I would have to take a leap of faith and trust their words as being earnest.

I am sure we all have learned that isnt so.

I may send a cutsie message if something piques my interest to see what response I get.

I throughly enjoy when I find a few good conversationalist on line.

It gives me hope that I will also find a good boy... or bad one.. smirks.. to enjoy life with

Msch

Today I was talking with a vanilla friend ( yes the one going to UFC with me) and I said how most men dont get me.Her comment was astounding.. she said.. if they dont get you then they arent the ONE for you. Wise words from a younger  friend. I will keep looking for the ones that get me, rather than struggle against me. Life will be less frustrating if he likes the type of woman I am rather than trying to be the type of man I seek.

Msch

A birthday wish has come true. Dec 11 I will be in Montreal to watch UFC GSP vs Koscheck.I am very excited and cant wait.The chance to meet me has lapsed for that slave in Montreal.

something I just wrote to another.As I search to find a slave that, first inspires me to be a better woman second,encourages me to treat him as he should be treated and thirdly, be close enough to reach out and touch in real time

Msch

Its true... occassionally I start a chat with someone who I eventually wish to meet.

IF I am very interested I will wish to meet within a time frame. Give a few tests to see just how serious they are. Everyone waivers... finds excuses but if it is what they wish to pursue, they will meet.I am not upset with the scared little boys I come across. In the end they rather amuse me with the nasty and wannabe hurtful things they say.I am not full of myself. I just have some standards. I dont look for play partners.. I search for one that is sure of itself.If you cant provide me with some pictures (besides ONE) or even make a phone call to exchange voices... you will never meet me. I dont do something just because I can. Perhaps I should throw that to the wind and make efforts to fuck over all the ones who are gullible. Sorry, I wish I could but still cant.IF you want to learn you have to take the hard lessons with the soft ones.

Prove to me you are what you think you are, and then perhaps we will enjoy each others company and start a great journey 

Msch