MrMaid

I haven't updated my journal here for a while now, but I do need to say that things are going great and that I Adore my Goddess more than ever. On top of my regular duties i'm now also to provide Goddess a bottle of her favourite wine whenever She has Her Lover over to please Her. I'm to accept or face the end of my belt. What a great feeling of Her authority over me. I could melt on the spot. Further more i'm also to fill her car with gas whenever She needs it. Again Goddess knows how to take advantage of the many aspects of my servitude to Her....This makes me feel so complete before Her. 

Lately, it has been nothing but awesome serving Goddess. i never imagined that serving My lady could be so wounderful. The trip that i'm on is so smooth that all i have to do is sit back and enjoy the ride, however i never did realize this until i felt the wrath of Her belt on my bare back. Just knowing what she's capable of and that She could do it at will, i now feel like a little mouse before Her, but don't get me wrong She still has the kindest heart on the planet........ I think that She has been pleased in some of the services that i've been providing Her like cleaning her entire apt, doing some of her groceries, being at her 'beck and call', paying for some of her favourite things, shopping for Her hand bags, driving Her to and from work every day, etc. And I'm so lucky that i get to see Her almost every day and most of all, She is also being more playful. i could melt right now just thinking about it. This week i'll need to look after some of Her car maintenance needs.......wrt the concern that i think may be between us and now that Goddess is being more playful and belted me, seem to have vanished. Infact i've always been very happy for Goddess that She has a Lover and i wish Her all the best.. I will always respect Her wishes, also now that i know that He's a black, i wouldn't even mind discovering my bi-side, which i've always been curious about.... i know that the sole purpose of my life is to serve GODDESS....i better stop writing now as i need to go and write a couple of hundred lines due first thing in the morning as punishments..lucky me.. 

Today i've seen Goddess again after a few days out and about, God i missed Her deeply as we've been both busy with our lives during this Easter break. As i met Her, She had me fill up Her car and then took me back to Her place to do some cleaning. (During the drive i noticed She seemed somewhat upset as there appears to be some miscommunication or phenomena not yet understood between us creating some uncertainity, i will attempt to give my explanation of this in my next journal entry). As we arrived at Her place She was pleased to receive an Easter basket by me as i began to do my chores. But today i really got a treat as She appeared to be a more playful Goddess. (God does slave love it when Goddess is more playful) As i was doing my cleaning She had me stop and kiss Her feet and then out of my surprise She had me rub lotion on Her beautiful soft and curvey body. I was totally shoked and just about melted. I couldn't believe my eyes as my hands were gently rubbing her hand made cream over her bare soft skin. i wanted so much to kiss Her beautiful curves, but had to restrain myself due to my restrictions. It was a very beautiful day overall as i do need to go back in a couple of days and finish my chores after the Easter break....Thank You Goddess i Adore You.

I often thought that Goddess does not punish me anymore, atleast not in the conventional way that She usually did or in a manner that i thought. Not realizing the powers and the intelligence that Goddess has, this slave was beginning to wounder. Not that i want to be punished (but did like it) but was rather concerned in the direction our D/s relationship was evolving. (Goddess i'm sorry) Not seeing the trees from the forest, i was actually being punished and used in every moment that Goddess gave me an order or something to do. For example, when She had me do some of her groceries, She would text me a list and when i'm done i would be on my way back and She would then send me back to get something else. Or if i'm to wait for her somewhere at a particular time She could be late for a half hour and i would gracefully have to wait for Her. Or when i pick her up from and to work, i often would have to wait for Her after the designated time and i would also have Her tea ready.

Most of my chores and orders that She has for me have punishments built into them. I never did realize this until recently, but it's a direction that Goddess is taking me and i love it, as i'm constantly under Her controll as she uses Her superior mind. Afterall, punishments begin and end in the mind.... GODDESS I WANT TO FREELY GIVE MYSELF TO YOU...

This week Goddess has me driving Her to and from work and i'm to have Her tea and biscut from timmies ready for Her in my van for every trip as i pick her up. Tomorrow i'm taking the afternoon off so i can do Her laundy and other chores. I get such a warm feeling inside of me as i think of her during the day. Perhaps one day my dreams will come true........But i must stay focused and remember that this is not about my dreams, but Hers'....all i could do is hope that i'm part of them.... 

Goddess knows at times how rude i am when i speak my mouth too much, she is actually quite nice about it, but yesteday i over did it and this time she made me write one hunderd lines and she knows how much i hate doing that, i wish She have me kiss Her feet or Her butt one hundred times instead. Anyhow i took my punishment and thanked Her for it....But today she had me clean Her entire apt, gas up her car, of course had to bring her tea on demand from timmies, but the most wounderful part was when She had me put on Her shoes and then had me  kiss them all over and underneath. i'm so happy when She has me serve Her.... 

I must remember that it's not what Goddess can do TO me, but what I can do FOR Goddess...

I think Goddess was pleased with me today, She actually called me a 'good boy' and allowed me to kiss Her feet, it felt so gooooood.... She's the best Goddess in the whole world...i'm so lucky to be serving Her...

Today Goddess was rather kind to me She only had me do Her dishes, fold Her laundry, hem Her jeans, iron Her blouses, Then we went out and had me gas up Her car and wash it, fill up Her timmies card and buy Her dinner and She then allowed me to have my favourite drink. i really adore Goddess.