I am completely drained of energy right now. I've planted myself on the couch and if this is where I stay until tomorrow I will be okay with it.

Today was my first day to be used. To say I was merely looking forward to this would be a lie. I had practically begged the last few days for Her to use me. I was excited for my chance to be used and to please. She started me off slow, removing my shirt and having me pinch my nipples. After pulling and twisting them She let me stop. It was the first time I had ever really noticed how sensitive my nipples were. After the nipple play was done the real torture started. I had not been allowed to orgasm since I became Her pet. It had been six days and I was aching to release. I was given a certain number of strokes I was allowed and a desired pace. I felt so good to be able to touch myself after not being allowed to for so long. I thought it may be difficult, but I had no clue what I was still in store for.

She then told me to lick my palm and rub the head of my penis. I know that it is one of the most sensitive parts of the body, especially when aroused, but as soon as my hand touched it sent a shock throughout my body.  My breathing increased, I began to feel lightheaded, and my hands, legs, and face started to go numb. It caused a pleasurable pain that was almost unbearable.

The thoughts in my head were few but very clear. “I am a submissive slut. I am Her submissive slut.” I knew what was happening. If there had been any denial left in me of my place, it was slowly disappearing. Then came the command to edge. I had to push myself to the edge but could not disappoint her. It was edge, palm, edge, palm, edge, palm, edge, and palm. The sensations coursed through my body. I was being broken further than I had ever been before. Then she finally gave me permission to cum! It was what I had been waiting for for almost a week now. I had suffered through chastity the past week and her torture today. Now she was allowing me to finally experience the pleasure I wanted. As I lay there bringing myself closer I knew what was going to happen. With each stroke the last bit or resistance was being shattered and as soon as I came I knew that I had taken my last step over the edge and was now 100% her submissive slut. I would now do anything she said, obey any command. And I did. When I came she expressed her pleasure and then promptly ordered me to clean up my mess. I began lapping fingers full of cum into my mouth. Obedience was no longer a choice but an instinct. I can only imagine what She will have me do next, but I know I will do it. I know I want to do it.

As I awoke form my sleep I started my daily routine. I turned on the shower and while waiting for it to warm I opened the blinds in my living room. I took a shower, dried off, and brushed my teeth. Usually afterwards I would check my email, but these past few days have been different. Once finished Brushing my teeth I pick up the black marker from the counter and I put Her mark on my chest, right over my heart. I then walk to my nightstand pick up Her collar and place it around my neck. Hearing it clasp together and feeling it sit around my neck reminds me that I am no longer my own person. I belong to Her.

We talk. Not just about limits, or how I am to serve, but we have actual conversations about life, about our days and our interests. There is a personal connection there and it increases my desire to serve. She has not used me in these first days because She has wanted to build that connection and trust. I did not see it at first but I now understand why She does this.

I have not been allowed to masturbate or have an orgasm since I became Her sub. It has been increasingly difficult to not have an orgasm. I want one, and today She broke me. It was all part of Her plan. She wanted to break me, to push me deeper into submission. It worked. I begged to serve her, I begged to do anything and I know it will not be the last time I beg.  She controls my body, She has my mind, and now She bends my will to Her own.