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I dont have a laundry list of things that the perfect dom for me would be, do or say. I am a realist, I just want to be happy with him as he would just as happy with me. We dont put any unreasonable expectations on each-other. As we spend more time talking, we will learn what the other requires. I will open up more to you as I learn to trust you. We would never do anything that would embarrass the other, in public or when with family or vanilla friends. We all have a vanilla life, I want to be a part of his vanilla life and he would be a part of mine as well.
I enjoy going out to munches, I have run the TO Alternative munch for years. I am a social lady, I love to meet new people, learn about them, make new friends. I also love going to eventsplay parties. I dont play publicly, maybe one day I will but for now, its a limit..lol. I guess you can say that I am a voyeur, I do love to watch a good scene that is going on. I like to see things that may catch my attention, something that I may want to try one day.
I dont have a laundry list of things i will or wont do. I have no interest in blood, needles, brands or anything that will cause permanent scaring. I refuse to talk about or list certain things as a hard limit. IMO I dont think kidsanimals should even be anything that is brought into this. If it cant give its explicit consent, then it shouldnt be discussed. That is all I will say about that topic.
I am a firm believer in people should not be broken. If you just want to break me to your will, then please move on. My feelings are, if you need to break someones spirit in order to get them to do what you want them to, then perhaps you are with the wrong person. I will do things that you ask me to because I know it would please you not because you have broken me down. I love to please the man I am with but I wont be taken advantage of. I would never try to get you to do something that is against your will, beliefs, so please respect that with me too.
Experience is important to me, I do desire a dom with experience. I am experienced, I know my place. I know that I need a dom who is stronger then I am. I am outgoing and outspoken, I rarely hold my tongue. Thats not to say that I will challenge you, I do know my place. If you are looking for the shy, timid type, well, umm, that would not be me. lol. I am full of energy, I love to talk, I will talk to just about everyone. I am not good at flirting, though I did have a chat room that I frequent tell me different. If I do flirt, I am honestly unaware that I am doing it. lol. You will never see me type giggle, I am just not the giggly type of girl, at all.
Well, I hope this has taught you a bit about me. maybe I have even piqued your curiosity enough to want to know more. grinz
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it seems some think that i have totally given up and i really havent
ive just decided its time to give me a break figure out who i am again and what i want...as i said i will keep checking in and i do that when i get an email saying i have a new message
ive still been meeting some good people from here at my munch and look forward to seeing them again as well as hopefully meeting others from here there...
another reason for the break was due to the EX being back from afghanistan, tho unfortunately we havent been able to see eachother..yes, we are still good friends but we wont be back together, its really not what i want but we are still very good friends and he is an important part of my life that i value..
i have had the oppertunity to really look deep within myself and im beginning to understand why i dont really give anyone a chance...its because im still confused over what it is that i truly have to offer...but im ok with all this.
i know im a good person and im NOT everyones ideal submissive but thats ok i dont need to be ideal to everyone just to one and he is somewhere out there...one day our paths will cross, who knows perhaps they already have...but the timing hasnt been right for either of us.
i believe we all come with baggage, we have to if we have a history of being involved with anyone...its those past relationships that defines who we are today...thankfully i have NO regrets at all about my past...lifestyle or otherwise..yes, ive been thru alot in my life but it has made me strong and more secure within my skin...i wouldnt change any of my past experiences, good or bad.
i look forward to what the future has in store for me...i know that one day i will find the one that i desire as much as he desires me...i dont move quickly so i know the one i get with will be the one that is right for me at this point of my life...i wll go out of my way to do all that i can to please him and make him proud of his choice.
so many things have changed in my way of thinking over the last year, i dont see things the same way as many do..i tend to look at things thru innocent eyes..i believe everything happens for a reason...you are to learn from them and if you learn nothing you really arent ready to recieve and i never want to be that way...
ive also been going thru some things of a personal nature family wise..my grandmother has been very sick and in the hospital so my mind has been there ...ive been trying to keep my mind preoccupied so that i dont dwell on her too much or it will drive me nuts..
i spent the weekend watching a bunch of movies..kiddie ones and i dont have any kids but they are cute i couldnt resist..lol..
hope everyone has a wonderful week
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i have been receiving replies that are one liners...seriously what am i supposed to say.."thank you"???? is that really worth posting for? i dont think so...so i tend to ignore those ones.
please if youre going to take the time to message me say more then just nice pic or hi, i honestly dont know how to reply to that...i dont want to be sarcastic but its rather hard for me at times to hold my tongue...i come by it naturally...eg
please give me a reason to reply..ask me a question, im very open and honest and if i feel the question warrents a reply you will get one...rudeness will get you ignored...lol
also so the subbies...please i am not interested nor have i ever thought of or wanted a subbie all of my own...i like who i am and know who i am well and a Top/Domme i am not..sorry
the other thing i get is a subbie telling me that his Mistress has ordered him to message other subbies so that he can cyber to teach him some humility...ummmmmm humility?? i dont know maybe i see things differently but i dont think Domme really knows what shes doing..but then maybe its just the subbie using it as an excuse to get others to cyber with him?? who knows? but im not interested in that...thanks but no thanks..
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| Age: 51 |
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Utah |
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