mollymaidCM

Sorry I have been gone so long, everyone...

A few weeks ago I was to meet some friends at the mall. I never made it that far. I was mugged by 3 guys, and ended up spending a few days in the hospital. I was sedated for the first 48 hours, and then stayed a few more days for observation.

Physically I have healed, but mentally I am not at peace with it... I have been avoiding most everything and have been focusing on myself... Not sure how often I will log on here... So yeah... Don't worry too much about me, I'm still around, just not as active as I once was...

Someone told me I was really lousy at showing proper respect in the messages I send here...

Is there a list of rules I should be following? Can anyone help me with that?

Yes, pictures of overly dirty and or cluttered and disorganized rooms sometimes can and will give me mini panic attacks.

On certain days, it is more than I can bear seeing a dirty place, and knowing I can't make it better.

Please stop sending me such pictures.

Update:

I cleaned my brother's room the other day, and he spanked me several times for not organizing his dresser drawers they way he wanted.

It hurt.

On Monday, I got to work cleaning my brother's room. I was instructed to do this while wearing my red bikini, as well as heels.

I was only about half way done when my brother and his friend came home and caught me. My brother asked me what I was doing, and promptly kicked me out of his room. This is nothing new, he typically does not like me being in his room.

Today, he left the house again, and I went back to work. I finished up, and laid on his bed while I waited for him to return. When he did, I asked him to inspect my work, and tell me if there was anything I did wrong/needed to do over. He said it was fine, so I embraced him in a hug, telling him I loved him and thanking him for giving me a room to clean. He hugged me back, but ended up grabbing my ass before it was over.

After the hug, he again, told me to leave his room, and swatted my butt as I was leaving.

Still don't know how I feel about all of this.

So it has been asked/demanded of me that I wait until my brother leaves the house, and then I am to clean his room...

More than that, when he comes home, I am to give him a hug, and tell him how much I love him.

The theory behind this, is it will help me learn patience, and since it's not something I actually want to do, give me better insight into what it means to be submissive.

Wish me luck.

Update: "and it will not only help you to learn to be patient...and teach you to obey...but it will also give you appreciation for those around you...and the hug and telling him that you love him, is how you show appreciation to your brother for giving you a place to clean."

God my little brother is such a slob!!!

Oh my goodness!!!

I am literally flooded with messages!!!

First things: I have been trying to respond to every mail message, but now see that might just be impossible to do!! I'm sorry for those who are not getting a message back, this is all so new and different for me!

Another thing: Guys!!! I am not into the sexual side of things!! Don't tell me how you're going to tie me down and fuck me! Talk about losing interest in someone before they even have a chance!!

I like to make friends and move SLOWLY! Don't tell me how to change my profile, my pictures, or send me slave contracts and expect me to sign them! Are you really that stupid?

Finally, since so many people have been asking, I work part time as a waitress, and I live at home with my parents and younger brother.

I hope to somehow manage the flood here, but please be patient with me.