Heard a brief snippet of Don Miguel Ruiz talking to Patty Stanger on the Millionaire Matchmaker. Don Ruiz wrote "The four agreements" and "The mastery of love." She asked him, why am I still single? He said, it is because you do not love yourself enough. The love you are looking for is not in another, it is in yourself. Find that love within, love yourself so much, and then others will be attracted to the love they see in you. I thought this was very good and is a good reminder that the love we are always seeking is not out there, but is within ourselves. Look there first....

Feeling very horny today and nobody to play with, except myself :( Which isnt too much fun, but is better than nothing :) 

So much sexual energy in me, no matter how many times I release, more and more just keeps coming up. I try to channel this energy into love, into my heart, but it still wants to come out sexually, sensually, kinky, passionately, intensely.

At least with me, it seems, the more spiritual I am, the more sexual I am. They seem to go hand in hand.

Still learning about pleasing a Mistress, surrendering to her, total devotion. I am a newbie to being a slave with good behavior. I am used to still having some control, topping from the bottom, and all this giving up total control to the Mistress to do with me as she pleases is new to me. But it has been an interesting and worthwhile experience. I always love to learn and grow more, to go deeper and deeper into Truth and Wisdom.