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I walk on weekends at a National Park nearby and because today is a Holiday I walked this morning. It occurred to me that my walks are somewhat lake a metaphor for my quest here. Although I have walked there hundreds of times I still feel there may be something new around each corner. The walk is usually empty of human contact, an occasional hello, a smile, a comment on a beautiful day. I've read numerous profiles here dissecting sentences, words looking for that theme that I have in my mind. The hope of meeting that one person that will fill my void. At the end of my walk I feel refreshed, a sense of hope or maybe just the realization that I am alive and it will be ok. I open my web brower going to the site and hoping for that indication of a message in the same way. It will be ok.
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 I have had the pleasure to be introduced to a beautiful intelligent Dominant Women. Because we live a distance apart I have not had the pleasure of meeting her physically. As you can read from my profile being Dominated is what I am not only in need of but have been in search of for a very long time. But as life goes it too brings its own dilemma. I have been cursed with over thinking and analyzing everything, lol. Because of this I am forced to ask myself the following.
Given my need to be Dominated which I am fully aware of and comfortable with, will that need be fulfilled with someone that is aware of those needs and comfortable with there feelings of Dominance or should it come from a partner that is loving and caring and see's my need for submission as something beneficial to "our" relationship. Having said all the above I do understand that it isn't about me, its about Mistress. However to have this dynamic work properly I feel both parties need to me honestly happy and emotionally honest. Wow, once again too much to think about.