Mixxie

                                                I will wait...

            I know you are out there.

              I feel your presence around me lurking out of sight.

              You watch me as I develop into the woman you need.

              Took a few knocks along the way but would do it again

               Just as long as I get to be with you in the end.

               So I will wait for you.

               Who else will tame me?

               Who else can control my mind 

               and not just my ass?

               Find me soon though...

               Before the world makes me numb.

               Take me out of this trance.

               I belong to you.

               So until then I will wait.           

Truth is a deep kindness that teaches us to be content in our everyday life and share with the people the same happiness.

~Khalil Gibran

So done with idiots for the day... I don't have time anymore for people who just need someone to pick on because I am different. What you like is what you like and what I like is what I like. I am black and proud of the black side of myself. People crack me up about talking about race.Just because you don't like who are doesn't mean I have to as well. Keep hiding online and being the asshole that you are...

 Everyone have a great day! I am off to do my Cancer Awareness Day projects.

                                                 Get A Damn Life....

 If you come at me to insult me because I am of large bitch (YAWN) please don't it's been since grade school. It is something I already know.  Yes... I am big. I seen that phat ass in the mirror this morning. I may be a big bitch but I am not ugly. I've have seen girls who look like extras off Star Trek so go pick on them I guess.

 You know what really cracks me up is how people talk soooo much shit on here and have not one picture up of themselves? What are you scared of??? Most of you that talk shit look like old serial killers so I could care less... Hard to even take you serious and you can't put up a pic of yourself... Atleast I can post a pic and show who I am. I am not perfect and not trying to be... If I was perfect than I wouldn't be on this site. I am not trying to be homecoming queen and I know I am not everyones cup of tea. If you don't like what you see than move the hell on or go fuck yourselves.

Thank you and have a great week

Does your sub have to be less smart than you?

Uggg..... I'd rather be home this weekend butt ass naked with an apron home cooking.  I am in much of a vacation.

                                      Off My Chest

So I am at a transition point in my life. I just feel like I am at the middle of the road and I tired of doing of what is expected for me to do. Just knackered from dealing with this vanilla lifestyle that I have been put me in. I have only myself to blame of being lulled into this complacency way of life. So with saying that I have dumped my vanilla boyfriend and by next year will be by me. I know that not everyone is going to understand the di I want to live.

   People have used my kindness as a weakness. I really have a true love for helping others and donating my time to volunteering for cancer awareness, church and some other endeavors I am involved in. With saying that it brings the worst out of some people who want to latch on me for these reasons. This something I need to work on though…. Being nice but yet firm enough to make you get my point that I am not your ATM or be used to get your fill of greed.

     Looking for a DOM is my main goal after I work on myself. I am really trying to focus this time right now on school and the gym. I want to keep my ass but work on my core. Being a down south diva has me a little fluffier than I want to be. I have to change my career so with saying that I have to take some classes to beef up some areas.

    I want a DOM and not a PIMP! How do you DOM someone and you can’t take care of your financial issues. A DOM is control of all areas and not just when it comes to fucking. Excuse my language but it’s how I feel.. I am looking for a born and raised DOM. I will get more into later. Everyone have a great weekend!

                                            Q.O.T.D.

 Hey TGIF! Quick question to the Domes....

Does your sub have to be less smart than you?

        What make you a great Master... better yet even a Master at all. Just because you like to piss on women, avid fan or tats or piercing and like to loan your woman out to others doesn't make you so. More of a perv than a Master... I am not saying I am the best sub but atleast I know it.   Alot of so called Master out here can't wipe their own dicks and giving the title of Master or Dom a bad name.

  I need a challenge....

 Make me beg for it. Make me crave all of you! Take control of not only my body but my mind.

                                          QUESTION OF THE DAY   

                           Does age give Dom(s) a better understanding of what a good Dom should be?           

                                            Kinky vs. Sensuality 

This questions is for the D/s do you prefer kink over sensuality vice versa? Myself kink is cool but never outranks my sensual side. Being sensual gives me more of an powerful feeling... It's a all over the full tantric body orgasm. Kink to me is more on a one note rather over the top fucking.... but do most Dom/mes want you to enjoy the sex as much as they do?

                                  KNOW YOUR ROLE  (PART 2)

Okay after going through my mail after I awhile I see that people don't understand what a Master  is and a slaves place. You have to have well-defined roles to have some type of harmony. To switches or switch couples I don't how you plan your nights? Do you draw straws to find  out who is on top tonight? My main concern though is people who are trying to change me to fit their needs... To me you either are a Dom/e or fall into the sub/switch/slave . 

 Some think I am crazy but I call myself a sub who is graduating to a slave. I mean it takes time to become a slave. No way you come out the stall full slave status. If so I need you to write a book. It is human nature to have some doubt in the begining on the D/s relationship or any type of relationship to be exact.

Being new to this lifestyle it gives pending Masters great joy to mold a new student who has not had the taste of full exposure of certain unsavory parts of the lifestyle yet. What I can gather so far that nothing pisses off a good Master is undoing the wrongs of a subpar master. Undoing wrong takes a hell of a lot longer to fix than to give someone new the basics and go from there.

Going back to my email I have switches or submissive males who want me to be them up and that wanna pay me. One question why??? If I state that I am a slave why would you want me to play the role of a Dome? Money doesn't turn me own for sex sorry, Sure I could  spank your ass after a long terrible day but we both know you wouldn't get that full detailed, mind fucked, dirty talking and the new car smell of an ass whooping that a Master can lay on you lol.  Dang I just got a turned on mmmmmhhh. Good Night Honey Bunnie!

                                              Know Your Role 

  Master~

d (1) : one having control (2) : an owner especially of a slave or animal

Submissive~

 a : to yield oneself to the authority or will of another : surrender

Polygamy- Marriage in which a spouse of either sex may have more than one mate at the same time,

  More often it is the man who gets to run the show.... Don't get me wrong I know there are some strong willed woman that get everything they want out of life. In this day and age of the shows BIG LOVE give some people the wrong ideas of this lifestyle. Most Americans when it comes to new ideas and cultures they take what they want and leave out the things that are not their taste. I am not going to get into the fact on most men can't handle one woman or the fact that most not mastered their own selves. I more interested in how woman deal with more than one woman and also biblicaly.

 I know outside of the Western Civilization this is more accepted and not frowned on. Different parts of the world have their own version of polygamy. Some are more out with it and some are more secretive. Even though when you think of it America has it version.... with modern day concubines  with no rings you may call it. Does that make the woman a doxy or a floozy? As the thoughts of marriage have been tarnished and deemed by society as act not needed. As a Christian I like the idea of marriage but the Bible does leave the idea of marriage kind of wishy washy,

 It is believe that the first marriage was Adam and Eve.. So why didn't he give him more than one woman? Polygamy is in the Bible.... Lemech, Abraham, Esau, Jacob, and Gideon all had more than one wife.Alot of bouts, rivals and  competitiveness  are caused by polygamy even in history.Alot of people told me that God is not against it but in one scripture it sounds like he is not down for it... Deuteronmy 17:17~The king must not take many wives for himself, because they will turn his heart away from the LORD. And he must not accumulate large amounts of wealth in silver and gold for himself. Now with saying that I am not judging anyone because I have other faults  so I won't cast any stones at no one else. Just that in the Bible it was tolerated in the beginning but later on it was regulated

 I guess what I trying to learn what people think about Polygamy relationships? I know in any relationships they have ups and down. My biggest fear is getting into one and not liking my Master choice.. I know as a sub that I wouldn't have a choice. Also I know that I very competitive and probably do anything to keep his attention. It might be okay in the beginning but may lead to something not healthy. I know before I decide on what I should do I need to do more research  and talk to people in the lifestyle. Oh well time to start my day everyone have a great weekend! Smooches

           Question? Why so many Dom(es) don't put up your picture up? Does it make it easier for you to spew out the crap that you can't say face to face to another person in real life? Alot of you Dom(es) say some off the wall stuff hoping someone will fall for it... my things at least have the balls to put a face to it. Hope everyone is enjoying the weather Smooches

                                      Question of The Week?

If there was any body part you could change what would it be and why? Would the change be for you or would it be for someone else?

                                      New Walk New Talk

After some rest a little bit & relaxation (more needed but badly but too many people need me) I am back with a new model 2.5 version of myself. I think everyone should feel that way in a new year. Ready to hit the ground running and full of new ideas. Hell even my heart feels better. I am not going to toot my own horn but I know I am a good woman an just because someone missed out oh well...

 Ready for a new haircut, new clothes to fit my lifestyle changes , and from dance I even got my legs almost to where I want them to be. Now if I could get my stomach where it is supposed to be I would be the bomb lol.

I love to learn new things and keep learning something new about myself. So I have searched online and came up with some handy new talents that I want to learn. So far a couple of dance classes and if bold enough a pole dancer classes if I can learn how to walk in hooker shoes lol. The foodie side of me is going in a baking classes so I can learn a new trick in that area. I wonder what is everone elses new tricks?

                                                No More Snow!!!

I don't know about anyone else but I can't take anymore dog gone snow. After making sure all the Seniors in my life had their basics and their scooby snacks I am beat. I hope everyone in the tri state is ready for the next two Snow Storms... I downloaded a bunch of old school music to my mp3 player, some crappy horror flicks, a good book, nice glass of bubbles with some lobster on the side, bubble bath.....Only wish I had a strong pair of hands for a massage . Oh well good things happen to those who wait.  I need to get my passport fixed so I can go somewhere warm ( Anyone know of any travel deals?)  Somewhere where I can catch a good tan... I am cinnamon on the top and yellow on the bottom and that is no bueno lol. Oh well see you world in two more days Smooches Look on Zumba Wii here I come!

I am so in LOVE with this new chapter in my life. In the process of doing some new projects to help my future into a solid venture. While I am on route to find friend or mate I am courting myself. Can't make anyone love me if I don't even care for myself. From going out on a couple of dates I see that alot of people are looking for someone to complete them.. rather than someone that compliments you. I am out for the adventure of finding someone who likes woman who can hold her own in a conversation, likes to volunteer, doesn't mind if I help with his projects, into trying new things, love to cook for the people in my life and I am just a kind hearted person... but don't take it as weakness.

 Why so many people on here can't keep it real about what they are looking for? The more you lie about what you are really looking for the more time you waste and the more you look like a clown.

                                                    Human

 As I looked up with a tear and someone says to me, "We thought you were not human." Yeah I am and but I don' t like showing that side when I crack and show my vulnerability. But what is funny isn't that is all what we all want. To shed our outward appearance and to  show our true desires without being shunned for it?

 When I take in the good and bad I take both as personal growth but I could do without a whole lot of bad. I am glad to be able to walk and have my right mind. I had a accident that could have taken away that. You don't miss basic functions until they are almost taken away from me.  With all that going on I had to take care of my mom and keep a straight face. I  love to stay humble even though people want to put me up high only to be able to knock me down. As I build myself back up I trying to live my life and finally do the things I have always wanted to do... But somethings that I want to do takes a partner. You would think telling someone that you are into Bdsm that the other would be willing to share more of themselves but that is not the case.

Is there anybody who wants to share of themselves and their desires? Who is not crazy and knows that  at the end of the work day I will come on my knees home to you? Will prey on me being young and not having much experience ? Will share their desires and know if I will try my very best to make your dreams come true as well as mines. Give unto me and I will tripple that? And if you are the type that wanna build me up only to get what you want and wanna leave me STEP OFF NOW and it Will BE THE BEST OPTIONS FOR BOTH PARTIES.

 Is it bad that eventhough you are hurt by one that you still what them to be happy? Am I crazy that I want them to find what they couldn't in find YOU? Never want to see someone hurting like I am right now....

 I wish I could make someone tie me up and beat me until I could drift off and stop thinking about him. What the hell is wrong with me?

   As I sit back and go over my first role play experience with a Master I think about how it was the best experience I have ever had.....

       It makes me say how can anyone else top it? Eventhough I wish he beat my ass some more everything else was like he took a page out of my mind and gave me everything I wanted. Beat me, spank me and mold me into what you desire. The only man that will EVER make me his slave. For the first time I had someone who I felt comfortable enough to divulge my darkest desires and feel that I have could have a vanilla relationship. A bond so powerful that I would not stop until I was in his arms... bang my fist and shake the heavens to be with my Sir.  I have never felt this much emotion for one person so with every touch of his fingertips made my pond of wetness swell into a ocean. Sparks of electricity dance across my body as we become one. Plugged into your soul I see the light. But I lack what you need so are ride is over. As you leave me in the night so does my soul fly into the lonely sky. For it will be alone forever because it will never be complete....

 In the distance I hear someone call my name... I have never shown this side to another. Yes I am human and as you hunger for food I hunger love of my Master. Who can I show my desire to... who can I show my needs to help the word... who can control me how I need to be and who is worthy enough to have me as their sub because I will never be anyone elses slave. Only one man gets that title EVER. You can't be a Master without a Good sub.