I flew down south for Xmas and did some dares from a Dom. One was to leave clit/nipple clamps on during the flight. It did feel fantastic but couldn't make it the whole flight because it started hurting too much. I wish I could have found someone kinky for the mile high club but I was too chicken to try. Sun City is a retirement thing so I picked up some (much) older men which was...good. No offense but it's kinda humiliating to get fucked by somebody a lot older. Made their day I guess? I feel sorta like a sex addict and it's sorta becoming a problem I think. 

I'm odd I guess. I've always liked pressure on my cervix. It's supposedly unpleasant/painful for a lot of girls. And guys don't like it either lol, I wouldn't like mashing the head of my dick into a wall basically. It feels really good, like orgasm good, to force the head of a dildo up against it. I've been struggling with trying to self fist, I feel like touching my cervix would be really hot. But no luck yet at least. Milking is going ok, but yeah still not a lot. It's not enough to donate or anything and I have no idea what to do with it really. 

I met an asshole I guess. It's like drugs in a way, you get a taste and start wanting more and more extreme, and you start doing stupid stuff to get it. He was pushy and demanding and moved shit way too fast. But it's terribly hot being degraded and knowing what you want doesn't count. He took photos of a lot of stuff, and a lot hurt so bad but felt so good at the same time. I'm really toying with uploading a bunch of photos, just to have people write and be like wow you're a slut, you're worthless, nasty, etc. Vanilla stuff just doesn't do it anymore, like I gotta bust out the leather belt, rubber bands, paperclips and shove a cucumber up my ass to come anymore. sigh. 

Whelp, did end up meeting someone off this site and went alright. Turned out he was married though so back to the drawing board. I'm clearly an idiot for not realizing for so long. The good news is that there's some milk but not very much. I'm really happy about that but it's getting to be a huge drag and my breasts are sore so we'll see.