I do realize that its been about 2 weeks since my last entry. I have stayed away from the chat scene for that time too. I am not sure if this will be my last entry. I tried going into one of the rooms the other day but I realized pretty fast that I was walking into the big boys room so to speak. This started off as a game for me. Reading 50 shades of grey and trying to kill the loneliness while my husband was away. I met someone online. I bought some clothespins. It was just for fun. Recently, though I have been thinking I've been wrong for doing this. Still, I'm a very sexual person. I think about fucking all the time. I think about being fucked all the time. I think about sucking dick all the time. It is hard to just not have someone here with me. But I am not sure I am right for this site. I only came on here because my friend asked me too. But I think, like I said earlier, this might be for more serious people than I am. I am trying to stay good. I didn't even want to come on here and write this, but like I mentioned it is hard to be this alone. I thought this might help. Anyways, this is what I was thinking about.

Hello. I am new to this. I am a married 21 female, addict.  My husband is currently serving in the military. I found Mike by accident over a year ago online. I had no idea what I got myself into. I was looking for comfort when my husband was at camp and Mike provided comfort with his friendship. Our friendship grew into me sharing perhaps more than I should have looking back. I think Mike knew more about me than I knew about myself. In part being lonely, and part needing some adventure, I decided to try little things Mike suggested. At the time I babysat, and Mike told me to go braless. What now seems silly-was at the time a gateway into a new life. I think Mike always knew what he was doing. At first when the dad came home for lunch I would put my hoodie on over me. Until I told Mike that and he told me to take that off. I was very self-conscious. I walked around with my arms folded trying to cover myself up. I'm not sure if this drew more attention to myself or not. Soon, though I noticed his eyes looking there. It started off innocent enough. Throughout all of this Mike has remained my friend and has led me to paths that I probably wouldn't have gone down if I never met him. There are some things I regret doing. And I won't get into those here. At least not right now. :) -Faith