mignoette

Female Submissive, 32, Montréal

Female Submissive, 39, PARIS

Female Submissive, 30, Atlanta, Georgia

I realize I've been slacking on the Journal. The last few months have been a challenge in learning how to be with someone , defer and still remain an individual. I've always struggled to keep my identity when in a couple and My Tigrah has been incredibly understanding as we learn to express each other.

It's been a few months since i've posted here. Tigrah has allowed me to keep a hard copy journal. It makes it a bit easier when life gets hectic. i'll be the first to admit i have been slacking a bit in the working out department and have stuck as much as possible to all his requirements of me. being apart for a while has shifted my thinking as i can't just ask for some latitude when needed and must forge ahead trusting that He trusts my judgement and reasoning behind not completing a daily task. being trusted to do and act in the right way seems a heavy burden at times. Doing the right thing even when no one is watching isn't always easy, especially when i'm tired or stressed and just need a break. The sense of acomplishment of doing it in spite of how i feel however, makes that rest even more satisfying. Tigrah, i am grateful and happy that We/we are together and still happily so! You've made my life happy and bright. i willingly give You my heart,? soul and all my love. i deeply respect and love You. ~cachdad

I realize that it's been almost a week since i entered into my journal, it was done with Masters permission and kindness. I've continued to meet the goals he's set for me though I admit I would VERY much like more added to my plate. His being here has given me such Joy and true happiness. Though I do miss him during the day. The first thing i want to do when he comes through that door is throw my arms around him and not let go. Restraint has never been my strong suit and He wouldn't have it any other way when it comes to my showing him emotion. Gosh, i dont with to gush yet i dont know how else to express how truly happy and ate ease we both are together. Thank You so much Tigrah for what You did today. Thank You even more for driving and the coffee : )

Back on track though today was surreal and crazy. Tigrah, You have named me right. i do feel that way by You : )

Quiet day, even quieter than yesterday. it's true what they say about being in motion. This weekend we were sloths and well, thats not a good thing. The things that had to get done were done and the house is a clean place to be a sloth yet those things that were assigned were not done with 100% focus as has been the case. Each moment we make decisions and this weekend was a reminder of that. TOmorrow is another day and one i will be more focused in to get back on track. Tigrah, (smiling) i dont know waht to say except thank You for being funny. i do hope You had a chance to dry off. (grinning)?

What a lovely quiet day today was. The house got cleaned and the tasks almost done. I'll admit that I am starting to struggle a bit with working out or eating. It's always been a challenge to do both at the same time. When Tigrah gets back I will have to fess up that I didn't get all my tasks done today and there is no good reason why they were not completed. Not something i am looking forward to.? Yesterday i had gone to bed at 8pm for some odd reason and was out cold until 6am. Perhaps i should talk to him about posting a little earlier in the day....... Darling Tigrah, Thank You for another day of being Yours. Because You are so open and thoughtful i feel free and trust that it is ok to open up to You more and more. Thank You for being such a light and Joy in my life. You are one in a million Tigrah! ~cachdad

I'd like to post a longer entry tonight but feel that a terse "got all my tasks done" would suffice. Unfortunately ,I know it wouldn't. Again I didn't feel like eating but made the effort. I know in my heart these tasks would not be given willy nilly and that Tigrah knows what he is doing. Each day offering a little bit more of myself to Him seems the natural thing to do. We had a chat earlier this afternoon and it had me thinking on so many levels, about service and submission mostly. In a lot of ways this world is like Golf. It is a simple thing to learn, The rules are laid out and yet its not so simple, there is always something to keep it interesting...... When He speaks with me there is a smile in His voice, no matter what the topic is , today was no different. He has this ability to communicate that makes me feel safe enough to open up and when the time comes I know that i will give Him all of myself freely with an open happy heart. I've been lucky in O/our interactions, He's allowed me to speak freely though sometimes I think i'm being too free with my words and i wait to see if He will pull me in a bit.. There is a part of me that wonders if i am still being observed or if the leash is being tightned and i just do not realize it yet........It's been about a week since O/our training agreement started and it feels like W/we have made progress, both in getting to know each other better and in trusting in each other to do the right thing. I've had so many oppourtunities to neglect my tasks and there are times i so badly wanted to but then i think about Tigrah and letting Him down and i just can't. Nothing is worth that dissapointment. I'd much rather bring him happiness through my obedience and service.? Having a Master, being trained is a gift to me and i want badly to share that joy through serving. Yes, i can come across as more vanilla than anything else, i know that over time my true nature will emerge and bloom and he will reap my loving obedience from His patience. The right words do not seem to be coming tonight. i will leave this and edit it in the morning with a clearer head.? Tigrah again thank You for another day as Yours. Thank You for the time we got to spend and enjoy E/each other? and thank You for seeing the more humble human side of You. You make me laugh and can read me like a book. Thank You for allowing me to see a little more into who You are and into Your life. Every day i appreciate what W/we have with each other a bit more. Thank You for slowing us down and taking the time? to lay the groundwork, i know in my heart You are doing what is best for U/us though i badly want to race ahead. Thank You for being my speed bump Master....

One of the best things that happeend today was getting to explore the trails with a friend. She and I played ran and hopped stones the rest of my tasks were better today. I woke up feeling antsy and didn't want to bother Tigrah with this, yet He was the one person I wanted to talk to most. That fine line between needing and wanting was getting blurry. It wasn't a need to , it was a want to. I was hoping that He would make time to talk with me. He did. Even more wonderful was that he really listened to what was bothering me and instead of trying to find a solution we just talked.I've never had a man do that. I'm lucky to have him in my life. We talked a bit about consistancy and today I learned that we B/both thrive from it. He impresses me more and more everyday.

Have You ever had a day that suprised you? Today was one of those. I struggled all day to eat though I had NO desire for food. Tigrah was my driving force in doing so today. I just couldn't let Him down. Dissapointing Him is something I wish never to experience. It amazes me that in such a short time He has become so much a part of my life, funny how that happens. The day was slow and rainy and by the time it was time to go out it was perfect. the kid and I enjoyed exploring and scrambling amongst the rocks for over an hour and came home to cooking cleaning and homework. I feel drained, exhilarated and at the same time that I am ready for a little more. Tigrah has been so wonderful and inspiring today it does my heart good to know I am cared about and that my service is wanted. Tigrah: somehow, i adore You with my whole heart, does not seem adequate to let You know how i feel....bisous ~cachdad

What a great day! I started out doing my morning task ; ) and got the kid to school on time only to find out she is still on spring break. We decided after a lovely cup of coffee that we were going to go for a walk. We went to our favorite wilderness preserve and ended up getting lost. We hiked about a few miles and ended up at the waterfall. all in all it ended up being 1.5 hours in the drizzle and 5.4 miles. the other tasks were a breeze today. I really feel like I am starting to get a handle on doing the tasks He presents me without hesitating. Tigrah calling so often has been the highlight of my day. What a great reward! It is even more of a reward knowing how busy He is. It makes me feel valued and cared for that he makes the effort. The more we talk the more enamoured I become. I am grateful to have such a loving strong man in my life. To my Darling Tigrah: It is a challenge for me to be so patient and I am doing my best to be Your good girl while You get everything done. I want to make YOu proud. Thank You for today and for being so open hearted. I love that You can find the humor in things that frustrate You. I cant wait until the day You can come home and just relax. Serving You is such a pleasure I cannot wait until You allow me to do more for You. ~cachdad

Yesterday was such a busy day and? my manditory Journal was not posted. I do feel awful about that though all my tasks were done on time and i put 100% into them as always. Tigrah was understanding when I explained why it was not done and I appreciate that immensely though I do know that with Masters there will always be a price to pay for not completing a task and whatever it is will be borne and taken gracefully. I am grateful to Tigrah.

Another beautiful day! Sunny and cool we went exploring outdoors rather than heading into DC for the cherry blossom fest. I got quite a workout and my tasks were done quickly. I did more then required in an attempt to compensate for yesterday. Still? a little dehydrated though and drinking water like mad. Tigrah and i got a few unexpected min together and i was over the moon happy about that. Its been a few days and reality has sunk in a bit more. Tigrah knows what He is doing and i am letting go an trusting a bit at a time. He is a good man and i feel incredibly lucky that W/we are together. Tigrah: Thank You for being so loving today and sending me those notes. They brightened by day immensely. Thank You for coming into my life and for allowing U/us to start this journey together. Thank You for making me laugh so hard and knowing when its needed most. i adore You! bisous Tigrah ~cachdad

Today was a challenge. I got all but one of my daily requirements completed and really struggled with getting my workout done. In the end it was not meant to be. I was pretty sick most of the day, Tigrah was not reachable so I had to figure out the best way to handle it. I know He trusts my judgement and would put my health first. its not an excuse and I will have to be content that i did my best given the circumstances. I feel awful that I let Him and myself down. He will understand but nontheless I wish to be/do my best always, to be a stellar reflection of His training and to. Sometimes I wonder if i push myself harder then He would push me. I am thankful and happy that we had another day together on this earth : )

Today was my first day in training. I still haven't come down from that joyful place where my heart feels like it is overflowing. Mentally adjusting to all this is coming along rather quickly. It helps that Tigrah is such a good match and can read U/us so very well. I am truly grateful to have such a good man for a Master. I do adore You! The toughest task he has set before me is to eat 4-5 small meals a day. Even as a trainer I always had trouble getting that darn food in me, if I could I'd go days without bothering to eat. This is where my biggest challenge lays. Working out today was easy once I got going, again my training helped snap me right back into gym mode. i'm happy to say I just finished my 4th meal(salad w grilled chicken) I cut it in half and saved the rest for tomorrow. though I know all days wont be so easy. The other tasks were done by noon. I feel good having accomplished everything set before me, yesterday it seemed daunting but again I trust my Master. To my Tigrah directly: Thank You for taking the time to get to know me before we started on this journey. Thank You for being patient with me and listening. Thank You for understanding me so well. Thank You for allowing me Your time and attention. Thank You for seeing me as I am and liking me nontheless (smiling) I will do my very best to make life truly a pleasure for You and to bring as much Joy and happiness into Your life as I can. ~cachdad

My first Journal entry. Sir and I agreed to start O/our journey together as Master and slave, We have entered into a Contract wheras I am Collared by Him and am being trained to be His property, serving him as He sees fit.? He has agreed to commit Himself, time and focus to training me. We have both agreed to care for E/each others well being and to express? to each other how grateful W/we are to be together on this journey It will take a little time for all that has happened to truly sink in. I hope cloud nine has comfy pillows ; ) My greatest wish as a slave is to grow into my new role and to be someone my Master can be proud of always. To develop and molded as HE sees fit without losing the essence of who i am. I have the utmost respect and devotion to Master? and give 110% of my commitment to the tasks He assigns me. What I am looking forward to the most is letting go, trusting in Him and the process of being trained, feeling the sheer Joy of serving and the Freedom that comes with being bound to another.

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