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Male Dominant, 34, Manhattan, New York

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Male Dominant, 43, Newport News, Virginia

The past 10 months have been hellish and painful.? Not here but in the physical world.? I'm still recovering from what happened to me, the treatmentes drained me completely and I am physically weak and will be for months to come. How was your year?

You help someone through their pain and suffering and its a good thing.? Share your pain and fears with someone and you are called dishonest and shunned.? A strange world we live in.

Just to show how undisiplined some of the "slaves" are around here. A funny thing happened in the chat room last night.? Though I had not spoken a word either in the room or in a private IM, a so-called slave who I had never spoken to before sent me a private message accusing me of a bunch of things that I wouldnt do.? When I asked for an explination, first back along the channel that "she" had initiated then publically in the room, I was ignored.? An e-mail request for an explination and apology have also been ignored. While I know there are many submissives out there that would never think of being rude, crude and not owning up to their actions, those that are make it difficult to enjoy the site.? I certainly wont mention the rude slaves name publically, but "she" should take time to watch who she curses

Why is it that the 'subs' here are so impolite?? Ones that ask for a more than short note of introduction, fine?? Ask them what they are looking for, fine as well.? But not to even acknowledge the note, not give a 'thank you but no thank you', thats really inexcusable.

How is it that the ones that you let touch your heart and soul the most are the ones that try to destroy you?

Seems all I do here is beef.? My latest one concerns a sub/slave that is real intereded in talking until they find out 30-40 min into the conversation that you live 2 towns away.? Then all of a sudden its "i already have a Master".? Or between one day and the next "... forgot to tell you..."? I get tired of it, tired of the BS and the fakes.?

I wanted to acknowledge those who have given positive reaction to my journal entries of the past few weeks.  It is encouraging to have such support and to know that my words are echoed by many. However my just offer to grant forgiveness has been truned down.  It is regrettable, but one who calls herself a slave feels that she can be forviven and restored without accepting pennance or punishment is not a true slave.  I hope that someday this truth will dawn on her.

When one that calles themself a slave or a submissive comes and asks for forgiveness, what does one consider?  Is this person truly repentant or are all they trying to do is to get you to accept their actions?  For one to ask for forgivenss, one must be willing to change and work to reverse the damage done and admit it publicaly and be willing to accept the Dominants penitance. It is encouraging that one seeks forgiveness, but that forgivness carries a price thet must be paid, otherwise the words are hollow.

A slave asks "Why do you say things so?"? A Master replies, "Because you betryed me and the trust I had in you.? You profess affection and respect to me one night and the next morning ownership to another".? That is not the mark of a slave or a submissive, but somethign I will not speak, no matter how deserved the words are.

??? What is it when a slave on sucessive days says that she is happy with the relationship and there are no worries and the following day states that she is leaving to go elsewhere?? I can think of one word that matches that trait: betrayal.? The root of the word betray comes from the Old French tra?nd? from Latin tradere or traitor. ??? In her betrayal, she has brought shame and dishonor on herself.? I am too much of a gentleman to name this person but she know her shame.? Trust will be very hard to come by, in the weeks to come.

Is there not any honor here?

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