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ShieldBreaker
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Well I am up to it again, changing my profile, so sit back and enjoy the ride that is my profile
I am a gorean slave, proud to be Owned by Master ShieldBreaker and committed to Him. I am His through and through. We do live together now and W/we are a poly household but not actively seeking more people, should another be meant for the house then our paths will meet, if not, well we have each other and are committed to one anouther.
i am a slave, through and through, i have a slave heart buried deep inside. Those that know me see the slave inside, although i like to be sassy and a bit bratty i try my best not to go beyond the fun part. The fire burns deep and strong in me and always will, some times that fire and that strength get me into trouble and there are many lessons i still must learn, including better ways to let that fire out that is more productive.
i am me and i like being me and to me, my Master, and those who get to be called friend will complement this not try to change me after all, it is for who i am that drew Y/you to me isn't it? If so why would Y/you want this to change?
Yes some areas i need to change to make me a better person, i see this and am strong enough to admit it, but not the building blocks of who i am, try to change this Yyou will loose my respect. Being able to admit that i need to change certain things, does NOT mean it will be easy LOL. my Master has quite the challenge with His girl. I adore my Master and am His completely and utterly, i ask if Y/you have gotten this far, i ask if Y/you plan on messaging me, please include a message to my Master, as i do show Him any messages worth His time or with a message directed specifically to Him.
Over the past few months i have learned to be stronger, to be me. In this i put up with less, by less i mean, i spot the trolls faster, and i don't put up with anything that is disrespectful of myself or especially my Master, and if i am don't protect what is my Master's not just physically, but mentally as well, i am failing Him. If You dont respect me, or treat me like dirt, then i take it as an affront to my Master because that IS WHO I REPRESENT even when He is not there.
i will admit, i am an alpha slave, by this i mean, certain slaves, and certain people in general bring out a strong side in me. i am not one to really play as a top, but i will from time to time, but i am very much a first girl, and very much a leader. i love to guide and teach others, and make sure they are happy, its part of who i am. Some may say i am bossy, but usually if i say it, i am saying it for a reason, or doing it for a reason. With this being said, i will say, i always am my Master's girl, His slave, His property, and committed to HIM and only Him.
Now for the collar, to me it doesn't matter what it looks like, for all i care it could be a piece of thread that is beaten to hell and back and would mean the same to me. It shows that i am Owned, that i am His, that i will respect my Master, ShieldBreaker and the promises i have made to Him. It represents that i represent Him when i am out and about so there for those who have earned my respect or those i respect will get my respect. To me it means the world, its more binding then a wedding ring, more binding then the vows made, it shows the world how much i care for Him, and every day that grows stronger. One day, i will sink to my knees at my Master, ShieldBreaker's feet, stretch my arms above my head, wrists crossed. so He can bind them if He wishes, my thighs spread, head down, making myself vulnerable to Him and anything He decides and i will beg His collar, when the time is right. i will then wear a collar He picks for me, locked and secured and tightly binding. This will be a physical representation of the chains my Master, ShieldBreaker has on my heart, body, mind and soul and how secure they are and that they will not move. It will also show that He has my trust beyond a doubt and owns me completely, which my Master already has. A collar is not a play thing, yes it has its uses, but to be worn all the time, means HE has final say, not me.
my Master is ShieldBreaker!
LIMITS (besides the obvious ones)
NO BUGS
NO SCAT/WATER PLAY
NO SPIDERS... WAIT DID I SAY NO SPIDERS CAUSE I MENT NO FREAKING WAY ARE YOU GETTING A SPIDER NEAR ME, FIRST THE SPIDER WOULD DIE THEN YOU WOULD BE RUNNING THE OTHER WAY!!!
NO PERMANENT MARKING WITHOUT LOTS OF TALK BEFORE HAND
now i know i probably have other limits, i just haven't found them yet, or run across something that has me screaming, oh hell no.. at least not yet. so please remember, the limits section can grow, and that limits besides the ones listed, can change depending on the level of trust with the person i am with.
These are a few quotes that i enjoy the message behind.
"Beauty and intelligence are all well and good," I said, "but the best slave is she who loves most deeply."
-:Magicians of Gor, page 204:-
"The life of a female slave," he said, "is a life wholly given over to love. It is not a compromised life. It is not one of those lives which is part this, and part that. It is a total way of life, a total life. There are no bargains made with her, no arrangements."
-:Mercenaries of Gor, page 435:-
"He is Master,
and I am slave.
he is owner,
and I am owned.
he commands,
and I obey.
he is to be pleased,
and I am to please.
why is this?
Because he is Master,
and I am slave."
EXPLORERS OF GOR-, Pages 178-179
"I am a woman!
I want to love and serve,
wholly, helplessly,
unquestioningly,
irreservedly, unstintingly!
I want to ask nothing
and to give all!
I want to be
possessed by you,
to be yours literally,
to be owned by you!"
MAGICIANS OF GOR-, Page 464
These sayings reflect more and more on who i am, for a time i allowed others to dictate who i should be, and what dynamic i need, not because it made me happy but because it made them happy, no more, to make my Master proud, and to bring honor to His house and His collar, i will respect who i am and what makes me happy, or i can never make Him happy because in my heart i will not be happy.
Submissive
96%
Masochist
89%
Experimental
89%
Exhibitionist / Voyeur
79%
Bondage
68%
Degradation Lover
43%
Sadist
36%
Switch
22%
Vanilla
21%
Dominant
4%
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THE DANGER
Blood rushing through my veins
Eyes flash dark fire
Mind turning to ice
run little one run
Words coming and going
Things processed
Faster and Faster
The warning issued
A low feral growl sounds
Yet the tiger's tail is pulled
With a warning snarl
the claws come out!
Blood Drawn!
Coldly!
Precisely!
Ignored yet again!
The increasing warnings issued
Why?
Why so foolish?
keep pushing....
You will find
this tiger has claws
cause its never smart
to pull a tigers tail.
~shabanna~ |
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The Kiss
The Kiss
The Kiss
Of cold
Cold
cold steel
The thought
The longing
The need!!! |
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The thoughts flow
Heart Pounding
Eyes sparkling
The growl and Hiss
Body melting
Dew glistening
Knees shaking
The echo...
Echo of Completion |
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i seek to serve, i seek to be owned, i seek to belong, i seek that steel about my throat but from a Master who knows me, knows my heart and soul, and knows me better then any other, from a Master that i know and can give myself fully to because my heart has already led me there. I dont just seek a temporay collar but i seek a long term one, one that will remain in place forever, to me a collar isnt something to be toyed with and offered on a whim, to me its more binding and securing then a wedding ring, to me the collar repsents the circle that never ends, represents my pride at being owned, my pride at serving well, and having earned that. And it represents that the Owner has proven Himself to know me well, to know the small signs of my body that show that there is something wrong even before i know it consiously, He has proven to know my body better then i, has proven Himself a safe play partner, and the owner of my Heart, He has proven that its not only me that has given my heart but He has as well, cause that shows the strength of the commitment, the strength of the pairing, and the strength of the bond. Shows that even if the likes and dislikes dont match that neither will go wanting or longing, because the heart is fullfilled, and the soul is complete. To me the collar respresents everything and more then the books by John Norman, to me it respresnts a commitment on both parts, a collar should not be taken lightly, nor should it be offered lightly. |
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sitting here after learning bubbles and jets are an interesting combination and watching my sis feed the puppy peanut butter i am thinking what makes us crave play so bad... what makes it so errotic and a need for us.... i do not know but sitting here without play for so long i am relizing its not just a want, not just some fetish but a need for me, the need can build to be so bad that at times it overwhelms and i just want to scream. Some may say our thoughts are wrong and that we are twisted for wanting to play but thats just cause they have never tried it. Sitting here wanting to feel the loving caress of the whip or flogger sliding down my skin, the sharp sting of a needle piercing the skin causing the need to bubble higher within. Longing to feel the restrictive freedom of ropes while feeling teeth along my spine from the back of my neck down, longing to feel the edge of a knife on my skin and the longing the need to give my submission, give my heart, give who i am to the Master who will make my heart soar. The endless searching hopping praying is he the one only to have the heartbreak of disappointment and the tiring never seeming to end search begin again bringing the thoughts back to why... why do i need this so much, why do toys not cut it, why do i crave cuddles so bad and the knowledge that i shall one day feel steel about my throat that never will be removed.... they longing the questions circling in my head, the pure need driving me to my knees in tears of pure and utter need to again go and try the toys, and my own hand to only find empty release if i am lucky or to find myself more frustrated and longing for more, longing to just give myself over to His hands.... how can i deal with this longing this need that is building up so fast and hard within me, how can i cope with the burning desire and the burning need for pain and sensations, the need to be bound, to be on a leash showing the world i love Him with all i am, i am His and only His.... gods how my heart and body ache with need, the empty releases are not enough any more... |
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okies i have a protector who has guided me since my first few weeks in the lifestyle my rules are as follows...
no yahoo or msn until one week of talking
no caming naked (shouldnt even have to have this up here)
no giving personal information for at least that first week, ie phone number and such
break these i am not going to be likely to respond, that and my huge pet peeve is half words. shows a lack of respect, and caring... if its to much to write you instead of u, then its not worth my time to reply as most likely you will show the same amount of caring person to person... sorry if this is blunt but i am tired of having my mails flooded with this sort of stuff, i shouldnt need to even place this here but apparently common sense isnt all that common!!!
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| Age: 21 |
| Alberta,
Canada |
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