mercyifpleased

Had gained a couple of lbs and not sure why. Regardless I have lost that and a little more. I am down a new 1.4 lbs as of today. Total lost to date: 41.4 lbs.

Another lb. down today.   So far, no new plateaus. ?Total lost to date: 40

Walked yesterday after work and weighed in this morning.  Will exercise again tonight. ?Total lbs. lost to date: 39
I also took an exam for employment w/ Solano County. It's a long shot but hope lives.

I used to blog a great deal on here. When things were tough it was a way to release some steam. Things have been pretty good for over a couple of years and I had no longer felt the need. I do now, for now. So I am going to focus on my rejuvinated quest for ongoing weight loss and better health. While I do not have high blood pressure or diabetes, I could. Both run in my family on the maternal side and with women. In  the past, I had lost 80 lbs and felt so much better. I had done it on mainly Atkins and exercise. As some stress grew, I allowed myself to stall out and maintained my lower weight for a long time but could not get lower. I knew it was self-sabotage and I did not want to do it but some part of me was relentless in aiding it.

Then I began dealing with work and other stress by eating poorly. I self-medicated on food. Oh I ate well but too large of portions and often less than healthy meals. Atkins does not work if you cheat on your carbs. Who knew? :) I wasn't exercising much anymore either. I was only down 27.4 lbs  from my top weight. Yes, that means I gained a truckload, boatload, or ****load if you will...

This is unacceptable in every way.

So last week, upon my return from vacation I got back on track, along with my bitch husband, and I have lost 10 lbs.  No kidding, 10 lbs! Of course that rate of speed will slow down drastically. Small amounts of progress will build on each other and in time the amount will grow and encourage me further still. I also hope it encourages some of you too.

I am using this forum to hold myself accountable for routine exercise and a continuation of the journey I began.

                                                  So my Progress to Date :  37.4 lbs!

In the past few months I have met some really cool people in the lifestyle and formed friendships and joined a book club that includes 3 Dominant women and one slutty sub. ;) She knows I say that with love I hope. We are fueled on Starbucks,a good read, and possibly shocking the family sitting at the table next to us;)  What can I say? I embrace my inner geek.

My golf swing still blows; I have not gotten out much so far this summer... but there is that moment when the swing connects just right and the ball flies straight and some distance where I just go... 'That's it. I did it!' My sub-husband plays really well. Makes it look pretty effortless. He's played for years though so he's put his time in.

My home now has a dedicated play space. Will be fun explaining the lock on that door to family and vanilla friends that aren't aware of that part of us. But it is oh so worth it.