melting

Had a wonderful night the other night - fine food, wine, conversation, but best of all was the company of a *very* attractive Dom and the search for coffee into the early morning hours.  I look forward to visits down my way and hope we can catch up again very soon wherever, but perhaps in a less public place.  Thank you for being such a gentleman - it only made me more curious.  You know who you are - thought I'd leave this as a surprise ;)

Feeling a bit jaded as we all do with this site sometimes.  Wondering if there's actually any point staying on here, yet yearning and pining to meet someone with whom I click at the same time.

Damn damn damn - talk about stuck between a rock and a hard place - even THAT brings up visions I'd rather not think about on my own....................GRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!

Please note that the following piece of writing is not mine.  I wish I could write so eloquently.  I think it just about sums up what I'm seeking in a partner.  Idealistic much? :)  (If you frequent the 'F' place and it looks familiar I've also posted it on my profile there where I use the nick most people know me by - intrigue)

It doesn't interest me what you do for a living
I want to know what you ache for
and if you dare to dream of meeting your heart's longing.

It doesn't interest me how old you are
I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool
for love
for your dreams
for the adventure of being alive.

It doesn't interest me what planets are squaring your moon...
I want to know if you have touched the center of your own sorrow
if you have been opened by life's betrayals
or have become shrivelled and closed
from fear of further pain.

I want to know if you can sit with pain
mine or your own
without moving to hide it
or fade it
or fix it.

I want to know if you can be with joy
mine or your own
if you can dance with wildness
and let the ecstasy fill you to the tips of your
fingers and toes
without cautioning us to
be careful
be realistic
to remember the limitations of being human.

It doesn't interest me if the story you are telling me
is true.
I want to know if you can
disappoint another
to be true to yourself.

If you can bear the accusation of betrayal
and not betray your own soul.
If you can be faithless
and therefore trustworthy.

I want to know if you can see Beauty
even when it is not pretty
every day.
And if you can source your own life
from its presence.

I want to know if you can live with failure
yours and mine
and still stand on the edge of the lake
and shout to the silver of the full moon,
"Yes."

It doesn't interest me
to know where you live or how much money you have.
I want to know if you can get up
after a night of grief and despair
weary and bruised to the bone
and do what needs to be done
to feed the children.

It doesn't interest me who you know
or how you came to be here.
I want to know if you will stand
in the center of the fire
with me
and not shrink back.

It doesn't interest me where or what or with whom
you have studied.
I want to know what sustains you
from the inside
when all else falls away.

I want to know if you can be alone
with yourself
and if you truly like the company you keep
in the empty moments.

Oriah Mountain Dreamer
Canadian teacher and author

Please forgive the formatting - the spacing in this text editor sucks!

It always amuses me to read profiles of Doms who want no strings attached but demand total submission and loyalty with nothing given in return except for the opportunity to be a sex slave.  Oh and while they're at it - no one ugly or over a certain age.  It doesn't matter that they themselves might have a face like a donkey's behind and/or are over 100.

What kind of fantasy land do they live in that they think they're such a prize?  I can't imagine they have many takers, particularly when most of the time they can't even spell!

I'm the first to admit I'm not the most perfect specimen of femininity out there, but I'm not demanding perfection from a prospective partner either.  Not quite sure why I'd want to hook up with someone for nothing but degradation and abuse though.  Don't get me wrong, I'm as kinky as they come with the right person, but there has to be a connection.  Nor is spelling the be all and end all, but if you're going to demand perfection, you better make sure your pretty much that way yourself. 

Of course, if you were perfect, then you wouldn't be so egotistical to think that your expectations were realistic so you wouldn't be making such posts in the first place.  Catch 22 much?

So ..... why do so many on here make contact, get involved in some great conversation that goes on over a number of nights or weeks and then disappear into the wide blue yonder, only to come back under an alternate profile?   Do you really think women are so stupid they can't tell?

It seems it's not only some of the women who like to play games here - had it happen more than a couple of times in the past few months.  Honesty is the basis of any worthwhile relationship and your actions most definitely speak louder than words!  The man who calls himself a Dom and was decidedly rude to me after we'd spoken for quite a long time was at least more honest than those who decide to be devious.  No wonder people get disillusioned.