mechbot972007

This is the way that i need to be handled. 

i have no choice in what goes on with my body, i do as told when told.

i should be naked and paddled often, my ass likes the belt that you wear.

i also should be tied down to a bed with my ass plugged. my little of use cock is locked in cb2000. Humiliation is something

i enjoy and deserve on a regular basis. My nipples should have clamps on them and

often, I also like to be pissed on after a good beating. One of my dreams is to be flogged

while my arms are chained to the ceiling standing on my tip toes. I cry... hard. I need

an owner who can handle tears and moaning. I am proud of myself when it comes to my

punishments, i think I handle them well. I can be a whiner but will shut up when told

to, my play partner/owner worked very hard to get me where i am today and i am

grateful for that. She has brought out my submissive side beyond my imagination. i never

knew that i could feel what i have. I need to continue to learn new things. all i really want is

to please and serve to the best of my ability, i want to be able to sit at your feet and wait

til you want to play with me. To take care of my owner.

I have been dating a woman that I thought was going to fulfill what I thought I wanted.  I wanted to be in a relationship with a woman that was going to be a slut in the bedroom and a strong partner in public.  And at first it looked like that was the direction that we were going.  But once again I have screwed that up.  Unwittingly I have given Samantha the tools that have allowed her to change our relationship.  The full scope of which scares me to say the least.  Over the first year of our dating everything was going where I wanted it to go.  I had Samantha meeting my every whim sexually.  Samantha was sucking and fucking like an eight dollar whore in the bedroom.  I had introduced Samantha to co-workers and business associates.  I had also introduced her to my family on some of the holidays we spent together.  On the night of our first anniversity Samantha said she wanted to try new things in the bedroom and asked if I was man enough to go through with it?  Samantha had me strip and she tied me to the bed and blindfolded me.  Once I was secured Samantha started to shave my groin area, when I questioned her about it she put her panties in my mouth.  Once I was cleaned shaved I felt her putting what I thought was a cock ring.  My cock was raging hard and Samantha said that would not do.  The next thing I felt was her putting an ice pack on my crotch area.  This quickly deflated my massive hard on.  Once I was reduced (Samantha?s words) I felt her pull my deflated cock into tube then she affixed it to the cock ring and I heard a clicking sound.  Samantha then came up to my face and removed my blindfold.  Once I could clearly see again I saw a look on Samantha?s face that scared me.  Samantha then grabbed my cock and told me to look at it. I saw a Lori?s tube on my cock I knew what a chastity belt was; I had looked them up on the net.  Samantha then shook it and asked me how did it feel? I must have looked scared because Samantha laughed and said that she has the only key and that she will be in charge of my boy cock from here on out.  And that if I removed it then our relationship was over. Samantha then slapped me hard across the face and asked me to answer her, I cried out and asked her what was the question?  Samantha took hold of my face in her hand and told me ?from this point on I?m in charge in this relationship, you have acted like a child in our relationship, I will treat you as one and I will be the authority figure in this relationship? with that done she got up untied my feet and flipped me over on my front side then she placed a pillow under me.  Then she retied my feet to the bed frame.  Samantha then came around to the front of the bed opened the drawer next to the bed and pulled out the leather belt that my mother used on me as a child.  I must have turned as white as a goast.  Samantha started to laugh ?your mother told me that she used this on you as a child a lot, she gave it to me as a gag gift with the instructions to use it in good health I promised her I would?.  You have been a very bad little boy for many years starting tonight you will start your punishment? with that said Samantha started to beat my ass and back and legs.  The once genital sexy submissive that I had bullied into do outlandish humiliating act was now the boss.  Samantha read off many of my transgressions of the past year while steadily beating me.  Her panties were blocking my shrieking and crying from the pain being inflicted on me.  Sometime later Samantha pulled the panties out of my quivering mouth.  She moved my hair out of my eyes so she could fully view my tears and submission.  The corners of her mouth curled up when I begged her to stop and that I will do anything she wanted.  Samantha asked me if I meant anything and I begged her ?yes anything you want?. With that Samantha climbed up on the bed put her legs on either side of my shoulders and sat down.  She scooted forward until her pussy was just out of reach.  I tried to pick my head up so that I might be able to look same in the eyes, but I was to worn out.  Samantha grabbed a handful of hair and pulled my head back, and then she moved forward.  Samantha had put her pussy below my face and with a plop my face fell into her wide open sex.  Oral sex is something that I just would not do with Samantha (I felt it was a submissive act) which had caused a few heated talks.  Samantha told me to eat her while she explained my new life.  First, she made the rules.  Secondly, I would obey all rules.  Thirdly, I will be reduced to property.  That means everything that I owned would be signed over to her.  All of my cloths except five shirts and five pants for work will be given to good will.  My car will be sold and I will ride the bus.  My pay check will go into her account.  All my insurance will put her as the beneficiary.  My retirement will be signed over to her as well.  I was instructed to inform everyone that we had broken up.  My family would know at the next holiday.  My co-workers will know at our next planned leadership course.  She told me I was to tell every one of them that I had cheated on her.  I held my breath; Samantha pulled my head up and slapped me hard.  I shuttered and grimaced when I saw her hand go back for another one, I didn?t have long to wait.  This smack made me see stars, Samantha was yelling at me ?you stupid bastard I was not enough you had to be the big stud?. She then dropped my face back into her pussy and continued with the rules.  After everyone knows that we broke up, we will start your training to live your life as the whore that you are.  I started to feel my body betray me all this aggressiveness was turning me on because I felt my cock getting hard in the tube.  That?s when I realized that Samantha had spent the extra money and had the ring of pain put in the tube.  My inflating cock felt like it was being pushed into a meat grinder.  I was crying out loud, tears rolling down my face. Samantha picked my head up and laughed at me ?and to think that I thought you were my soul mate, only to be a common whore fucking anything that moves. You better make me cum, every minute it takes you is another month your cock will be locked up? with that she dropped my face into her pussy again.  I ate her like I was a starving man; I was trying to get my mind on anything other than the pain in my cock.  I must have been doing a great job because Samantha started to cum like gang busters.  She shot a load into my mouth, at first I thought she was pissing on me.  Then I tasted it had a sweet sour taste.  The sudden bust of her climax caught me off guard and I started to gag on her ?cum?.  It took servile minutes for Samantha?s body to stop spasazming.  Even though I was in great pain from the ordeal I was amazed at the sight of Samantha having the most powerful orgasms I had ever seen her have.  Samantha slumped forward resting her upper body weight on my head forcing my mouth further into her which cut off my breathing.  I started to panic and kick my tied legs and scream into her wet junction, Samantha started to laugh and said ?I guess you need air is that it??  Samantha scooted back and my face feel into the bedspread, the realization that I was no longer in charge started to settle in.  Samantha congratulated me on giving her the first orgasm of our relationship.  I turned my head to the side and confused asked her that she had never cum with me before this?  Why didn?t she tell me?  Samantha picked up the belt and started to beat me again while explaining that she had loved me and cherished me as her soul mate and could not phantom hurting my ego.  Samantha was consetrating her belt lashings along the crack of my ass hitting my tender anus repeatedly causing me to shriek out in pain.  Samantha took her panties and stuffed them into my mouth again ?I?m trying to talk here?, after gagged she started again.  In between lashes she informed me that I was the poorest lover that she ever had, at first she thought it was her failing to inspire me to satisfy her needs.  Then she found out that I was sleeping with that slut Tracy Warner.  I was beyond crying my entire face was swollen and my head hurt.  The strangest sensation started to happen while Samantha was beating me; I started to feel that the weight of the world has been removed.  Samantha put down the belt and started to roughly run her hands across my back causing me to yelp into the panty gag.  Samantha explained that the feels that I was currently feeling had no meaning; I was property to be used any way she wanted.  Samantha got off the bed and started to untie me.  I was so weak I could not move under my own power.  Samantha brought me over the the fainting couch and re-tied me over the end of it.  I was kneeling with my arms wrapped around the flat part while same secured my legs and upper body to the frame.  Once she was done Samantha went and got her phone and called her brother.  She explained what I had done and that she wanted me to be fully used as a whore with no regard to my wants.  Samantha stopped talking and listens intently on what her brother was telling her.  You see Samantha?s brother has never liked me and has always had distain for me.  Samantha told him that his suggestions were exactly what she wanted.  She moved out of the room into the bathroom to continue her phone call.

i was talking to a Domme...she told me that in her travels that most subbies masturbate to an experience that goes to your root motivation for being a subbie/slave...this little tid-bit caused me to think about the things i masturbate to...even though i use the internet to meet my needs..they all evolve around an experience that i had as a young teen...i was in a patch of woods...a older girl (high school) who my brother had taunted another of her family member...she forced (verbally) me to lower my pants and underwear...laughed at my size...ordered me to face a tree..pulled a switch (or maybe took my belt) and started to beat my behind...while she berated me for taunting her lil brother...she was the first woman/girl that i had ever been exposed to...this caused me to have a hard on...once she saw this...she laughed and started to humiliate me futher..while steadily beating my behind...ordering me to stay in place...not to move...taunting me...telling me to yell all i want that no one will help...that i was going to get what was coming to me until she decided she was done...i think that i exploded on the tree..Thats all that i remembered..i feel this is one of the core reasons why im a subbie