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About Mawine
Non-Kink Info I'm self-employed. I do a variety of things to earn a living, because, like most others under 35 just having one job won't pay the bills. Have worked in IT, Food Service, Publishing. Kink Info Bondage is my happy place, well bondage and Quarters (it's a great place to people watch, if you live in Liverpool you'll understand). Bondage though is a part of me I just can't deny. I have had experiences that are mainly confined to personal relationships i.e. dominated by partners or close friends. Spanking, discipline, household service, restraints and restrictions (speech, movement, food and even clothing) are all my primary kink desires. For me sex is not an essential part of my kinks and in fact is something that has been omitted from sessions with previous dominas. What I can offer I am service oriented and have some good attention to detail. As a result I can offer domestic service (housework, cooking, DIY etc). I've also been trained with a specific set of ettiquette that can be adapted to you preference, but this in general includes taking positions on command, speaking only when spoken/instructed to and stress positions. I am rarely happy with my efforts and am always looking to improve or learn new skills so you will find someone who is always trying for the best possible way to carry out instructions. Given my previous employment I'm fairly handy with social media and copywriting, so if you need something written or a website designed I can offer this too. My Dream Is to find that person who for medium durations will put me to work in their service whilst wearing a collar locked by them and bound in a way that makes my tasks more difficult. Ultimately to enter a 24/7 relationship where my dominant asserts their control, influence and power over my life would be beyond what I could hope for. That's about it I think that sums me up extremely well. My current work schedule doesn't really allow me to make it to munches anymore, but I'm keen to stay involved in the BDSM scene. I'd love to chat with people about the lifestyle and keep aware of what's going on locally. If you want to start a conversation with me good subjects are new gadgets, bondage or even news. Please do feel free to just send a message and get started chatting. A side note though, I don't like digital photos floating about willy nilly, because it's a risk to my job. I am happy to do a webcam or voice chat (clothed) early on to establish that I'm a real human being. |
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I'm heading home after spending a week and a half down in Surrey for work. I'll have three whole days off at the end of this week. Wondering if I should try some time in bondage and chastity. Of course if I did it'd only be for my own benefit I guess. |
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After a lot of work I've got time to myself again so I'm back in my belt and feeling furiously frustrated. |
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Well, I was wrong. I got home earlier than I expected and managed to throw on my belt and collar again. It takes only a minute extra and didn't really stop me from going straight to bed. The problem is that I have been unable to get much sleep. I've woken every so often grinding away against the belt like a horny animal. I always found it odd that some folks said that chastity helped subs focus on serving their dominants. I've got to be honest I find that difficult to believe. All my mind can focus on right now is the desire to release. Still it's been a while since I was in any form of bondage.
Now, sure I could simply get up and get the keys to unlock my belt, but why would I? I'd be cheating myself here. My personal challenge was to see how many nights I could go doing this. How long I can take. I know this will all mean that tomorrow I will be so tired from the unrestful night I've had, but that's all part of it. My fatigue tomorrow will be a present reminder of just how much my submissive tendencies rule my everyday life.
Hopefully, it also means that when I meet up with a dominant in December I'll be better able to please and serve them. I'll be able to withstand the frustration longer, I won't be bothered by how warm and heavy this metal collar feels against my neck.
We'll see I guess. Wish me luck. |
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Bondage for me is a funny thing. It's been a couple of months since I was in bondage of any sort. I've been working like a manic and as I often find that I can let things drop if I indulge this side of me, I put my bondage stuff away where it was awkward for me to get hold of.
Yesterday, having spent the night wearing chastity belt and collar I woke up aroused as hell, but in an awful rush to get to work. As a result I felt through most of today like an addict who's just had a taste of their addiction for a brief second. Every so often my mind would wander back to the fact my neck didn't have a collar on it. As soon as I got home I bathed and belted up again. Knowing that those I live with are safe asleep I made my dinner and did the odd bits of cleaning wearing clothes, but also my belt, cuffs and a collar. Sure, at the moment bondage without an owner or dominant lacks something, but on it's own bondage does have a slightly comforting effect. It feels all warm and safe. When you are bound to please a dominant (woman or man) it also adds a layer that makes me feel just a little more safe and of course a small sense of belonging to someone else.
Sadly, I'm going to have more than a few days this weekend and the coming week where bondage is not going to be possible, but for now it feels right that I'm all secured. I do enjoy bondage. |
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Just got in from work am have decided that I want to spend the night sleeping in my chastity belt and collar. Just 'cause. Actually, that's not strictly true. My work diary is beginning to cool off slightly so I've decided I will probably have more time for bondage again. As I lay here in my collar and belt I know that I've not been in sub mode at all over the last couple of months. I feel as though if I am to meet with either of the dominants who've contacted me, I should probably start getting myself back into the submissive mindset. To that end this belt is annoying the daylights out of me. |
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I'm not going to try and speak to other people's motivations, nor am I going to second guess their sincerity, that is not my place. I would like to make it very clear though that I do not respond to messages from women whose opening messages assume that men are so desperate that they will pay for the privilege of being dominated. To me a D/s relationship is just that a relationship.
In short, if you are after money for domination sessions, I'm probably not for you. I do hope you find the right person though. |
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I've been away for almost three weeks now. Separated from any chance of bondage. I'm dog tired but once I'd unpacked, and eaten I snapped the metal collar around my neck and took a bath. I'm sitting here air drying wearing only a collar and cuffs. Despite the time away this feels comforting and relaxing to me. Is that wrong? |
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For two nights in a row now I have fallen asleep wearing both the collar and chastity. Before now if that happened I've woken up needing to remove the collar. Yesterday during work something interesting happened. I had quite a few moments of downtime where there was nothing to do and at one point I swear I reached up to where the collar would otherwise be and of course it wasn't there but it felt like I expected it to be. That probably makes no sense at all, but it's the best I can explain it. Last night and this morning was my first real challenge. Last night I was so dog tired that I put the computer on to check the day's emails and belted and collared whilst the computer was loading. Sadly it seems I fell asleep before the computer was loaded because I woke up with my laptop on my bedside table still on. I'll be honest I was so tired I really didn't want to belt and collar. I know, I could just have skipped it and pretended I had but that would have been dishonest.
This morning though has been even worse. I have nothing to do today. I was meant to be working but sadly now am not so when I removed the belt this morning as I normally would have all was fine. I decided though to have breakfast in bed and doze a little more to catch up on the sleep I've missed this week. As I woke though I'm ashamed to admit that I felt a huge desire to masturbate. Without thinking my hand began to reach under the sheets when something else kicked in to stop me. My mind through this was having an internal debate. One side suggestion it would be easy to cheat, and that no-one need know. The other side winning over with the knowledge that not only would it make dominant happy it would give me a sense of pride to know I completed the two weeks with no problems and no cheating.
So I sit here on my day off belted to ensure it doesn't happen again. I'm terribly frustrated, but it's for the best I think. I hope that dominant agrees and is happy I chose to belt rather than allow myself to be tempted to be disobedient. I guess I shall find out later and hope that there is no consequence for being as open as I am right now. That might be to expect too much though. Perhaps I should put the collar on as well just to give me that little extra reminder of what I am? |
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Been working almost twelve hours today and now that I'm home I got to speak to the person who has allowed me to submit to them for just over two hours.
Between yesterday and today I'm beginning to feel more submissive than I have in ages. The warmth and weight of the steel collar against my neck is a constant reminded that I am in submission to another person. I have promised to follow their rules. Yesterday I agreed to do something I hadn't done before. When the collar goes on after work I'm thrown headlong into my submission and before long I'm trying to think of suggestion I can make that will please my (temporary) dominant. Despite the pain or the dislike for the task I'm given, or suggest myself I'm finding myself wanting to do them.
As with any time I'm in submissive mode there is a small voice that grows louder until I sleep asking what they hell I'm doing. Perhaps I should answer that. I am trying to show that I am dedicated to not just the commitments I make but exceeding them in my submission. I'm trying to show that I'm honest, open and trusting. I don't know how successful my dominant thinks I'm being but I hope that my suggestions and desire to try and find tasks that might please are being seen as what they are. The act of a submissive trying to show submission though actions and not just words. I do worry that it might be topping from the bottom, which I hope I'm not, but for now I shall try to do what I can to please that dominant. For the collar is a present reminder of my commitment, and submission to them. It's warmth and weight combined with my drive to please and show willing is making me feel again like an owned submissive. I should probably ask what the dominant in question feels? |
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Third day of my commitment and I'm currently sat wearing my collar and chastity belt. Since I bought it just under two weeks ago I've spent five full nights sleep in the belt and I've not orgasmed in those two weeks. Sadly, the person I made my commitment to for the two weeks has not been online to chat with, but I have diligently kept my promise.
It's quite odd though. There is literally nothing stopping me from just saying that I have completed my daily bondage. Despite this I have willingly and gladly followed the rules laid out for me. I've not had any great challenge to this though. I mean I've not had any kind of argument or reason for failing to uphold my promise. I do wonder what I'll do on that day where I'm physically exhausted and just can't be bothered to place myself in bondage. I'd like to think I'd still uphold my commitment and just sleep in the belt. I guess we shall see then it happens.
For now, I'm trying to be a....well the person I made the commitment to might say 'good boy', but I hate that term. Perhaps I'll settle with fulfilling the very simple tasks and very small commitment I made. |
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For two weeks, I've made a commitment to spend at least three hours a day in chastity. I have a few other rules to follow including not orgasming without permission, but this should be an interesting two weeks.
I put my collar and chastity belt on and began this commitment at 02:41.
My collar was finally removed sometime around 5am. I had forgotten how difficult it is to wear and sleep in a steel collar. Whilst I get used to the weight of it, the collar slowly warms due to my body heat. As it does it begins to get uncomfortable after a few hours.
Still, it's all good, and kinda exciting starting out on these next two weeks. |
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Dominant men, dominant women, fellow subs. We all get one line messages it seems. I'd be interested in hearing from anyone with a method of dealing with them. It often seems way too dismissive to delete, but what is the appropriate response to such messages? |
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Reconnected with an old friend today. Interesting to find out that she was out as kinky. Sometimes I think there are more kinksters than vanilla folks. |
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11:45pm I'm going to try my Chastity belt again tonight. My aim is four hours as a minimum. I'm going to have a quick and cold shower before beginning.
00:05
Got out of the shower, dried off and locked on my chastity belt. I feel really nervous about this but i made sure to write a list of tasks for me to complete around the house. i hope that finishing the tasks will keep my mind off the lockup. Keep an eye here 'cause I'll be posting the journal as I did last night.
00:45
I've just finished cleaning the kitchen after my evening meal. It would be great under normal circumstances, but I actually finished a lot earlier that I normally would have. What worries me is that if I finish all my other tasks as quickly then I might just end up with loads of time to go before release.
For those wondering I did once again freeze the keys to the padlock in the bottom of a bottle of water once again. It's been in the freezer now for an hour so it'll be frozen enough to prevent me from retrieving keys.
Anyway, I'll check in again once I've cleaned the bathroom. At the moment there's no tightness 'downstairs' so hopefully mind on the tasks will help keep it all that way.
01:10
Bathroom is now cleaned. A friend pointed out that they would have had me cleaning in just the belt and restraints. I've been wearing jeans and a t-shirt as I have other people I live with in the house so far. Now I've finished the chores I set for myself the question is should I take his suggestion?
01:55
Chatting to a friend has really helped pass the time. I am now wearing cuffs and a collar at his suggestion but still. I hadn't realised that forty five minutes had flown by. Sadly, wearing nothing but this belt and the restraints have made things get a little tight down there. The belt has two metal rings which hold the cock in place and now for the first time since I put the belt on I can feel them. Hopefully, I can take my mind off it by watching some tv.
02:25
An hour and forty minutes left to go. I'm going insane. I hoped I would settle after a while even with the restraints and collar. Sadly, I just can't settle. It's driving me wild. Last night I didn't actually masturbate because I didn't need to. Tonight though I kind of feel like I'll explode if I don't. I usually have a really low libido. This belt though seems to make it active though. I'm beginning to wonder if this was a bad purchase.
My friend logged off skype some time ago so I'm not sat, at my desk with cuffs, collar and belt. I've pulled the frozen bottle of water with my keys out of the freezer so that I can put a buttplug in at 3:05. This is going to be a long time. I'm trying to read at the moment but I just can't concentrate on the book. Does anyone have any tips?
02:50
Fifteen minutes until I put the buttplug in. This is something I'm a little scared of to be honest. I've never done it before. Still, I'm going to try it. I suspect the friend I told I would do it would be disappointed if I didn't. In the meantime, I've managed to stop squirming and have regained some composure. Hopefully this means I'll make the full four hours.
03:05
This belt allows for the buttplug to be inserted without removal of the belt itself. With a condom on the plug it was easy enough to slide in. I'll be honest, I don't know what I expected it to feel like but I didn't expect this. It just feels like really need to go to the loo. Maybe that'll settle down? We shall soon see I guess. One whole hour left.
03:35
The feeling of needing to push out the plug has settled down a bit. The side effect of the plug has been that my focus is now on that and it's discomfort rather than the tightness of the belt caging my cock and balls. It's not so uncomfortable that I want to pull it out, but it's an odd sensation.
04:25
Well, I only took a look at the time when I finished watching an episode of Game of Thrones. Turns out I spent longer in the belt than anticipated. I'm flaccid and not really in need of cumming so am not going to tonight. In the meantime I'm going to clean the restraints, collar, belt and plug before heading to bed.
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11:45pm I'm going to try my Chastity belt again tonight. My aim is four hours as a minimum. I'm going to have a quick and cold shower before beginning.
00:05
Got out of the shower, dried off and locked on my chastity belt. I feel really nervous about this but i made sure to write a list of tasks for me to complete around the house. i hope that finishing the tasks will keep my mind off the lockup. Keep an eye here 'cause I'll be posting the journal as I did last night.
00:45
I've just finished cleaning the kitchen after my evening meal. It would be great under normal circumstances, but I actually finished a lot earlier that I normally would have. What worries me is that if I finish all my other tasks as quickly then I might just end up with loads of time to go before release.
For those wondering I did once again freeze the keys to the padlock in the bottom of a bottle of water once again. It's been in the freezer now for an hour so it'll be frozen enough to prevent me from retrieving keys.
Anyway, I'll check in again once I've cleaned the bathroom. At the moment there's no tightness 'downstairs' so hopefully mind on the tasks will help keep it all that way.
01:10
Bathroom is now cleaned. A friend pointed out that they would have had me cleaning in just the belt and restraints. I've been wearing jeans and a t-shirt as I have other people I live with in the house so far. Now I've finished the chores I set for myself the question is should I take his suggestion?
01:55
Chatting to a friend has really helped pass the time. I am now wearing cuffs and a collar at his suggestion but still. I hadn't realised that forty five minutes had flown by. Sadly, wearing nothing but this belt and the restraints have made things get a little tight down there. The belt has two metal rings which hold the cock in place and now for the first time since I put the belt on I can feel them. Hopefully, I can take my mind off it by watching some tv.
02:25
An hour and forty minutes left to go. I'm going insane. I hoped I would settle after a while even with the restraints and collar. Sadly, I just can't settle. It's driving me wild. Last night I didn't actually masturbate because I didn't need to. Tonight though I kind of feel like I'll explode if I don't. I usually have a really low libido. This belt though seems to make it active though. I'm beginning to wonder if this was a bad purchase.
My friend logged off skype some time ago so I'm not sat, at my desk with cuffs, collar and belt. I've pulled the frozen bottle of water with my keys out of the freezer so that I can put a buttplug in at 3:05. This is going to be a long time. I'm trying to read at the moment but I just can't concentrate on the book. Does anyone have any tips?
02:50
Fifteen minutes until I put the buttplug in. This is something I'm a little scared of to be honest. I've never done it before. Still, I'm going to try it. I suspect the friend I told I would do it would be disappointed if I didn't. In the meantime, I've managed to stop squirming and have regained some composure. Hopefully this means I'll make the full four hours.
03:05
This belt allows for the buttplug to be inserted without removal of the belt itself. With a condom on the plug it was easy enough to slide in. I'll be honest, I don't know what I expected it to feel like but I didn't expect this. It just feels like really need to go to the loo. Maybe that'll settle down? We shall soon see I guess. One whole hour left.
03:35
The feeling of needing to push out the plug has settled down a bit. The side effect of the plug has been that my focus is now on that and it's discomfort rather than the tightness of the belt caging my cock and balls. It's not so uncomfortable that I want to pull it out, but it's an odd sensation. |
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I don't have to work now for three days. I'm going to challenge myself to see how long I can wear the chastity belt for. It went on at 3am and so far I've been wearing it for twenty minutes. I'd like to last three hours of total self restraint.
30 Minutes in:
As I grew erect the belt is tighter and more restrictive. I keep wanting to grind away to get some stimulation but with the leather being quite thick, it doesn't work. even worse is that the two rings inside the cage bit that holds my bits are preventing me from getting completely hard. It's really tempting to just remove it.
45 Minutes in:
I've taken the step of filling a water bottle and dropping the keys to the padlocks in the bottle. The bottle went in the freezer. Shortly, the water will start to freeze meaning that I would have to wait for the water to unfreeze to get the keys back. I'm seriously thinking that I'm not going to make it the three hours I set myself. The urge to just remove it is really strong. I'm a strong sub though. I'm not going to give up.
1 Hour in:
This is driving me nuts already. I'm not the type who is driven by sexual impulses and right now all I can think about is cumming. All I want to do is remove this belt and cum. Is that normal?
1 Hour, 30 Minutes in:
I'm not going to make it three hours. I think if I was in session with someone else it'd be different. Right now though, I just don't have the self-restraint to last the third hour. That probably makes me weak, but I am only just starting to explore chastity.
1 Hour, 50 minutes in:
I just got my keys back after thawing the ice that stopped me from getting them. I actually got as far as putting them in one of the locks before deciding against it. I will make it at least two hours!
2 Hours, 45 Minutes in:
I got to two hours in and decided to make myself some coffee and play a video game to try and take my mind off things. It actually worked and I've managed to take my mind off things. Fifteen minutes left until my original three hour deadline. Believe me I'm counting every single one.
3 Hours, 4 Minutes in:
Finally removed the belt a little late. It was good to get it off and after cleaning I'm headed straight to bed knowing I made it my target time. |
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So, I have a new chastity belt. It's a leather thing which needs a lot of adjustments to get a really tight and secure fit. You also need to be flacid to put it on, but my my it feels really interesting. |
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After a year of having almost no time off I've been made redundant. I have no idea what to do now :( |
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Apparently, sending a face pic, offering to show myself on video and offer a suggestion for a meet someone still stops everything dead in their tracks and calls me fake. It's sad when scheduling is difficult, but when someone doesn't actually want to meet irl it makes it impossible. |
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So glad to have the weekends back to myself after so long working 6 day weeks on a screwed up schedule. Perhaps it's time for me to explore this thing called a 'social life'...or, you know, find someone who wants to tie me down and have their way with me. |
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A short story
I arrive at your house dressed smartly enough and well enough to cover the cuffs that adorn my wrists and ankles. On being allowed to enter I wait for the door to close before kneeling before you. Out of my bag comes a collar which I offer to you to place around my neck. Of course you feel that is more work than you should have to do, so I slowly close the collar around my neck and hand the key to the lock over to you.
When allowed, I rise and head straight for the kitchen where I use the ingredients I brought with me to prepare a meal. Cleaning as I go, and using any spare moments to do any small household chore that needs to be done I carefully ensure that the meal will be enjoyable. Perhaps I start to whistle or seem to be enjoying the cooking too much, so you decide that I should have a bit of a challenge and you add a chain between my ankle cuffs. It's just short enough that I have to take smaller and quicker steps.
After a little time the meal is ready. I've already laid the table so that when I enter the room where you are relaxing, I can kneel and announce that the meal is ready whenever my dominant is ready.
In your own time you make your way to the table and I rise and follow making sure that you are happy with the way I have laid everything out. Perhaps I forgot a condiment, and that will be remembered by you for later. When you are comfortable I bring out your meal from the kitchen and wait whilst you eat to pour any drinks, or serve any seconds that you might want.
When you finish your meal, I immediately remove any dirty dishes for washing. As I'm clearing the table you grab my slender arm and command me to remove my shirt and hold my wrists in front of me. I comply and you add a chain to my wrist cuffs meaning that my washing and clearing tasks will be just a little more difficult. Perhaps stopping only to enjoy me struggling a bit more, you make your way to relax a little more.
Once the dishes and kitchen are clean and the table cleared, I make my way to you and kneel at the door of the room. You perhaps wait to finish what you are doing before ordering me to come closer. Once kneeling before you, you proceed to get me to present myself to you so that you might inspect me and perhaps even dole out any punishments I might have earned for real or imagined poor behaviour, cooking or presentation.
You perhaps strip me down so that I am wearing just my cuffs and collar. Replacing the chains on my wrists and ankles you command me to wait in the bedroom, or if I am lucky to kneel on the floor near your feet until you are ready.
As the evening begins to draw in you enter the bedroom where I am naked, cuffed, collared and ready. You perhaps decide that tonight I deserve little pleasure, so spank me before I am pulled into your crotch. I immediately get to work doing the best I can to please you. Although I do not expect it, I try as hard as possible to please you hoping that you will perhaps decide to make use of me in other ways. A massage, a foot rub, or even if I have been very lucky being tied tightly in strict bondage.
I just about manage to please you and bring you to you full. Tired, you decide to sleep, but not before checking that my collar is loose enough to sleep in. I've been lucky though tonight. You've allowed me to sleep in your bed with you. You check I'm lying down and switch off the light before rolling over to go to sleep.
I close my eyes wondering at what you might have planned for tomorrow. |
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One of my goals this year (2016) is to spend 208 hours in bondage. That's not a whole lot (just four hours a week). Secondarily to that is to have a photo of each awkward position I'm get myself into.
I have no idea if I'm going to manage it, but I figure if anyone has suggestions for positions or the like, I'd be interested in hearing them.
Last week, I started simple. Ankle cuffs and wrist cuffs four point chained together. It was rather difficult making my dinner and eating with limited mobility, but it was an interesting challenge. It is in fact the point of this goal. I want to learn to do more things whilst in restrictive bondage, so if I am lucky enough to meet a female or male dominant who would bind me up I'd be able to actually be usefully serving said dominant despite the bondage.
Does anyone have any thoughts? |
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Today, I end a long secondment. I've been away for quite a while and ended up getting home a lot earlier than I was meant to. The good news is that I can once again meet up with people and get my kink on! I can't wait! |
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A weekend of Bondage! I have a whole weekend of Bondage to look forward to with a former play partner. She's back in town for a couple of weeks and I'm going to be putting her up at my flat for the weekend and we're going to spend the next couple of days playing video games, bondage games and catching up.
Unlike when a friend usually comes to stay, I've been told that I should tidy up when she arrives. I get the feeling that I'm in for some fun.
I can't wait! |
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In my jobs, yes I have more than one, I have always been the type of person who works stupidly long and hard hours. I put in a lot of work and a lot of energy. Sadly, I will often bring that work home with me. Worse still, when I ran my business, I would never stop working. I'd be at my desk all day every day. People who knew me used to call me roadrunner. I never stood still for too long and was hard to pin down.
It has taken me a long time to look back on all this and to realise that it was bondage that has helped me normalise my work-life balance.
A ten years back my girlfriend and I began playing a bit with bondage in the bedroom. Instantly, I knew I enjoyed being bound more than the binding. That actually developed (kept secret from her) into me toying with self-bondage and exploring things on the internet. Eventually, when we later broke up I ventured to a munch. I was terrified and one person there actually put me off going again for quite a while.
I was however fortunate to meet someone at uni with whom I'm still good friends. She was the first person I actually revealed my love of bondage to. I'm still not sure why I told her, but she actually enjoys bondage too so maybe we sensed something. We explored and switched throughout uni, and even on occasion still meet up when she's back in merry old england.
Bondage is a thing that forced me to stop. I could not work, I could not carry out basic activities. I was forced to shut down the over-working side of myself. If you don't surrender to bondage when you are bound it makes it more tiring and even painful. Surrendering to bondage though chills me out. It forces me to stop and live a lot more in the moment. I don't constantly have to wonder how my schedule is going to plan out, or when the next big contract is going to be coming my way. These days I actually make it a rule to limit the work I do at home to my office desk. When spend no more than six hours at it and I stop thinking about work when I leave it. The more I think about it, the more I think bondage really helped me to develop into that more healthy lifestyle. |
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I have managed to wear my hood now for half an hour to 45 minutes over the last few days, I'm comfortable enough now wearing it that I've decided that tonight I will wearing wrist an ankle cuffs. I won't bind both arms or both legs together, but I will wear the cuffs. Just another step to see how I cope with a little bit of a bondage element on top of the hood. I'll let you all know how it goes.
Wearing the hood though is actually somewhat relaxing. You have to focus on your breathing so you lose track of other things. It's calming. I am going to look at how I can put holes for nose breathing in the hood even if they are small. I think it'd make a difference. |
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Hood - Day One
Yep, I'm doing a daily journal of trying to acclimate to my new hood.
I kept nice and calm but man the hood was a faff to put on. It needs lacing and buckling so takes a good three minutes to get on a fit well. All the time the hood was being put on, I was having to concentrate hard in order to keep my breathing under control. Whilst loose there is a real possibility of rebreathing, which is not good. There's a very small hole through which you are supposed to breathe, and if it slips out of position the air inside the hood gets pretty stale pretty fast.
Once it was on, I'd expected that due to the padding around the ears I'd be able to hear very little. I was kinda right. I could only hear muffled sound from outside, but it was enough to hear what my flatmate was saying clearly...just. What really was surprising was how loud the tinkling of the buckles were. I mean it shouldn't surprise me but all the sounds of the buckles are amplified because they are essentially connected to your head and sound travels better through a solid.
As you're wearing the hood you have to get used to breathing through your mouth though as the air hole lines up not with your nose, but your mouth, so you do have to concentrate for a while to get used to it.
Taking the hood off, was frustrating though. Having taken a good three minutes to get the hood on, I didn't expect it to be quick to remove, but as we were removing it, my chin got caught due to the laces not being loosed enough. I could feel myself getting concerned, my heart rate rose, but I stayed calm. Thankfully, my flatmate realised the mistake and loosed the laces enough to pull the hood off. Still, the concern that if I wanted out, it wouldn't be a quick out is worrying.
Today, I lasted a good thirteen minutes in the hood before wanting out...I'm hoping to build that up. Wish me luck. |
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If you want a face pic, please ask. I have two jobs, but one of them would be at risk if it were public. Basically, I'd be told that I put the company into a bad light and am not in line with the corporate image. Not fair, but it is what it is. So I now give face pics only when asked in PM. I'd also ask for it to be a two-way street. |
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I've always felt that submission is an urge, an instinct. Something that we subs have to express. For many people I've met online, they can feel lonely and desperate, because they can't express that need. It's one of the reasons that I know that I am fortunate. I'm not 'owned' or the submissive of anyone at the moment. I am lucky though. I have a couple of friends who enjoy indulging in BDSM play every so often. We go back a ways so my friends, a married couple will ask if I'm free to join them. To be submissive to them for a spell.
Two nights ago I headed to their home where we all had a lovely sit down dinner. We shared the dishwashing before heading to the living room to relax. Relaxing for them meant sitting on the sofa whilst I stripped down to my underwear and begged them for restraints. I begged them to bind me up, to allow me to serve them. I won't go into the rest of my time with them, as it's a private thing between us. It does sometimes make me sad afterwards. Knowing that I would relish being someone's submissive. Once in a blue moon just makes me desire a more frequent and perhaps more long-term service.
That's the desire. Reality, well it kind of blows. The reality is that I don't get to many munches. So meeting people is difficult. I guess for now I'll have to make do. I suppose that's for the best. I have a few marks that show I perhaps wasn't submissive enough. They will fade though. The desire won't. |
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I love the feeling of freedom that bondages grants. The body may be bound and restricted but your mind becomes focused and cleared of all but the situation.
I love the challenge of day to day activities whilst bound. Like trying to fold a towel when your arms are restricted. It forces you to be create, imaginative.
So, my feelings are this. If there is someone who is willing to take the time to carefully place me in bondage; place me in that state of mind, why wouldn't I willing serve them as they ask? Why wouldn't I try to please them as much as possible? Even if that means being punished with harsher restrictions or even some cp if I fail. |
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