maturesubman2011

Just received my new? dress, thigh highs and pretty neckless and I am so excited to shower and try them on.? I think before I do, I am going to buy some nail polish to match the lipstick I bought a few days ago.? I am free again and I feel so wonderful.? I can't wait to be the real me, even though I certainly don't pass I feel like a light feminen girl.

started my estrogen protocal again and I am so excited to enlarge my breasts.? I'm still hopeful that I am making them larger for one very special man but I know as long as I can continue to see progress I will be happy because I want to feel more like a woman.? That notion still feels strange to part of me but as time goes on, SHE is taking over more and more and he is being pushed to obscurity.? I pump my nipples every day and apply an ointment that is intended to plump them up as well.? I wish I was a tiny petite gurl but I wasn't dealt that.? I'll write more anther time.

May 28, 2026:? So needy, so aroused, so depraved!? That is the truth I am coming to understand about myself and have made great strides toward total acceptance of the truth of it all.? I know I am going to feel so at peace once I surrender my life to serving the perfect man.? Who will he be?? I may have already met him on this site but he had to have surgery and I wish him such speedy recovery.? I was pulled into his life force once and then backed away.? I am such a fool.? I was transforming with such emotional intensity and found myself on the brink of complete submission but when I pulled away I fear I ruined it all.? It has taken me a very long time to re-establish a lasting and fullfilling connection with my own reality and it feels so good.? My mind is now free to wander to places which before I was so afraid to explore.? I see the future now and see freedom from my restrictive mind set and see how liberating letting go completely my life will be.? I am not scared of what I see myself becoming - even if it be slave, slut or total submissive to deeply depraved response to his will.? Will I be transformed physically as well as emotionally?? Will he train me to be his sissy slut - serving him and/or his friends however he chooses?? I know I will be intensely satisfied with what ever level of deep blind submission I ultimately obtain.? Once there, a backward look won't be in my mind, forward, forward is what my man will tell me, allow yourself to yield to my depravity he will tell me and life will be so full, complete and utterly satisfying - as it always was meant to be.