Manhattan00Sub

Dan in Vanilla-land

Stuck in vanilla-land was where he was.  A part of him just wanted to be normal, that was the default mode, but it wasn’t working for him.  For some time now, he been desiring something, craving something.  At first it was so innocuous and not far from normal.  He found himself strangely attracted to aggressive women, sexually aggressive women.  Ok, still pretty normal, but over time this desire grew stronger and he accidentally, intentionally?, unconsciously found himself reading the stories on a website about mind control by dominant women.  Something exploded with him, some kind of transformation happened, something was set in motion that could not be reversed or arrested even if he wanted, and sometimes he wanted because it scared him, scared him and frightened him at the same time.  All of this was in his mind until he met her.

Until he met her.  He discovered a website of like-minded individual, sorted through the fakes and eventually struck up a conversation with a dominant woman looking for a FLR. It wasn’t easy to move the conversation forward because he was competing with many men for her attention.  Eventually a series of emails led to phone conversation.  An unforgettable phone conversation.  Everything about her screamed dominance even though it was the most natural and matter-of-fact thing for her. Her voice. Her voice and alone with it’s unique intonation, her words with their directness, they were enough to bring him to his knees. He discovered that there was something in the world that he could not resist (he didn’t want to resist).  

Already he wanted to surrender everything to her control. Every area of his his life.  Totality.  And so he did.

I'm hoping to find the one dominant woman with whom I can spend the rest of my days worshipping, pleasing, and serving and sharing the fullness of our lives.I'm new to this site. 

I'm looking first and foremost for a real, loving long-term relationship just like people who aren't dominant or submissive.  That alone is very difficult.  However, at the same time, I find myself strongly attracted to dominant women.  A couple key experiences shaped my belief that I would be most happy in a FLR.  First, I was in a long relationship with a woman whose dominant side emerged after a time and enriched our relationship.  However, it was mostly at the sexual level and I found myself craving, wanting more.  That relationship ended for unrelated reasons and then I dated a truly dominant woman and experienced the most intense connection, but we weren't compatible on other levels and I want back to vanilla dating.  I'm giving this site a try to see if there is any chance of making the right and lasting connection.