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When I logged on this morning, the profile of a dominant came up and it included an essay on kinky women, which I appreciated greatly. It also got me to thinking a bit, so I decided to fill in some of my profile so that it reflected a more "true" version of me.
I am a kinky woman. I am extraordinarily submissive. I am married to a vanilla man, whom I love very much. While he knows I am submissive, and we have talked about the lifestyle, it is a way of life he doesn't understand. He simply is not wired to think/feel/respond that way. Most of the time this has no bearing on our relationship, but occasionally the lack of clearly defined roles in our relationship leave me feeling "adrift." And this is the primary reason why I am here.
My profile says that I am actively seeking "Friends only," and that is pretty much the case. There have been times when I have seriously wished for a play partner- just to get in that mindset for just a little while- just to have a chance to be most wholly "me"... but the chances of me actually acting on that is pretty slim. I am not trying to be a tease; I'm not fake; I'm not trying to fool anyone. What I am trying to do is be honest- with myself and with those around me.
I love this lifestyle. It has given me a much stronger sense of who and what I am; it makes me complete. It feeds a need in me- touches a part of me- that nothing else can match.
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