Lucky111

To the experts, please answer me. I need help.

Submissive women are not serious, either they are afraid of the real experience and real practice of this lifestyle. Or they enter these sites just for fun. I believe that a strong, dominant woman is more honest and more capable of making decisions, taking action and controlling. Of course, if she is a real dominant woman, she does not pretend to be so for money.

I believe that a person cannot get everything he desires, so he must set priorities and what makes him happier and more satisfied. For example, I like to be dominant, I like to have a slave, I like to have my feet worshipped, and I like to see my wife having sex with others in front of me. For me, the most satisfying thing from these options is to see my wife being fucked in front of me. This is the first priority, so I thought that I could give up the rest of my desires in order to get this pleasure, and I could turn into a submissive, slave, or cuckold. But the problem is that women ask for their vagina and pussy to be cleaned from cum, and this is something I cannot do at all, or that they ask for me to share a man with them, and I cannot because I am not gay.

I have a few questions and I hope that those with experience will tell me if I do this and satisfy my important desire and give up the rest, will I be happy? If I do not find a serious woman to marry, can a friend, lover or strange woman give me the same feeling that I get if she were my wife? 

And when I become submissive, will the desire to control disappear? Will I get used to being submissive over time? And will I find satisfaction?

Thank you