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After the darkness comes the light.
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Looking for anybody that has time warner cable to help me out with trying something.
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Seems I have been spamming people :)
I can't send messages for a while.
Oh well looks like today will be a productive day. |
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Seems I have been spamming people :)
I can't send messages for a while.
Oh well looks like today will be a productive day. |
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Ramadan has ended.
Today is the holiday so took it off, Fasted for about 2/3rds of it.
Surprised that I didn't lose a single pound though :|
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Ramadan Starts tomorrow.
Will be fasting a couple of days here and there.
Will likely not on here as much during the days I fast.
if you need me, you can send a non explicit email message if you have my email.
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Nov 16th 293.5
Nov 9th 295
Nov 2nd 298
Oct 26th 297.0
Oct 19th 297.0
Oct 12th 294.5
Oct 5th 293.5
Sept 28th 295.5
Sept 21st 293.5
Sept 14th 291
Sept 7th 292.5
Aug 31st 292
Aug 24th 292.5
Aug 17th 292.5
Aug 10th 289.0
Aug 3rd 288.5
July 27th 288.5
July 20th 290.0
July 13th 289.5
July 6th 293.5 |
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A lesson without pain is meaningless,
for you can not gain something without sacrificing something else in return,
but once you have overcome it and made it your own....
you will gain an irreplaceable heart
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I think I have found the perfect submissive,
unfortunately she is taken and hundreds of miles away.
Thanks for finally making me believe that there are decent people out there little girl.
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Ah,
The joys of people blocking you after talking to you for days and not saying why.
love the maturity of these fucking attention whores.
The more I spend time here the sadder I become for the human race.
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Sandman, I'm so alone
Don't have nobody to call my own
Please turn on your magic beam
Mr. Sandman, bring me a dream.
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God I hate stupid fucking people.
Way to aggrivate me.
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Back to the old usual of wanting things I can't have.
How basic of me. |
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Find it hilarious when guys use other girls' pictures to try to pass themselves off as girls.
Fucking ridiculous :)
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Strange day.
I was called a stalker :)
A username on aim shows up today, I ask the person who they are, she responds back with "Stop stalking me, you found out my aim and yahoo name and you won't stop bothering me"? This perplexed me as I had no idea who the hell this person was.? I remove her from my buddy list and tell her "Well I have no idea who you are but you are removed from my buddy list, if you didn't want to talk to me all you would have to do is say that and that would be the end of it"? I of course go look through my messages to see who she might be.? And guess what I found,? here is the message on cm as is without the screennames so you all don't go bother this poor mentally handicapped person (this might actually be insulting to the mentally handicapped as this girl is clearly beyond classification)
haha! just to reply quickly, i am a glorified secretary known as an "administrative assistant"
my aim sn is: xxxxxx and my yahoo id is: retroxxxxxxx
I may not be on either until late tomorrow night.
I will hopefully remember to answer all of your questions when I return to this site.
I am off to bed as well. gnight.
So little fucking moron, here is a good fuck you if you ever come back to this site.? I will repeat this on as well so people realize how big of a fucking mental person you are.
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A new record for me,
blocked by 3 people within a span of 10 minutes :)
I love how people can be rude but won't listen to your response,? how childish indeed :)
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Apparently Trans people can't be made fun of because they somehow became special because of being transgendered.? You know what fuck you who think you are special because you were born a certain way, you are all fucking human, can't take a joke fuck off and don't bother me anymore.? you two were cool until that bigoted response of yours.? Fucking posers.
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Bad little girl,
phone isn't ringing.
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125.4 kg,
time to get back on the band wagon.
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Thank you kitten for letting Me vent to you all the time.
The regularly scheduled weight will be back on the first of the new year.? Until the 250 mark is reached at which point this profile will disappear.
Good night.
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273
Up and down between 269 and 273 since last week. Holidays are full of delicious food hmmmm.
Strange how two different little attention whores I haven't talked to in a while both messaged me yesterday just because they are attention starved. Aww you poor babies. Go fuck yourselves. |
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270 monday morning
267.5 tuesday morning
270 yesterday morning
270.5 This morning
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269.5 Eating junk food watching football though :)
And thanks for wasting 3 weeks of my time you useless little bitch.
I now realize I need to stop talking to immature little girls that are only starving for attention.
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A poem from the motherland
Uzun ince bir yoldayim
Gidiyorum g?gece
Bilmiyorum ne haldayim
Gidiyorum g?gece
D? geldigim anda
Y? ayni zamanda
Iki kapili bir handa
Gidiyorum g?gece
Uykuda dahi y?
Kalkmaya sebep ariyom
Gidenleri hep g?om
Gidiyorum g?gece
Kirk dokuz yil bu yollarda
Ovada dagda ?lerde
D?m gurbet ellerde
Gidiyorum g?gece
D??erince
Irak g???br />Yol bir dakka miktarinca
Gidiyorum g?gece
Sasar Veysel isbu h?
G?aglaya g? g? />Yetismek i? menzile
Gidiyorum g?gec
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264.5 and lots of unhealthy food today :)
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272.5.? wooo lost a half a pound :|
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273.
For those of you that are nosy here is My work out regimen.
3x a week cardio,
4x a week weights
2x a week light cardio via shooting basketball.
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270
Had a fun time last night with a sub that involved no bdsm activities what so ever.? Such a good and proper girl.
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If you know where the following is from you are way ahead of the curve in gaining My praises.
Even if we part and meet again,
I want to meet at this place,
Then we'll hold hands to ensure,
we'll never be separated again,
We used to talk all night until the sun rose,
and held hands till the sun went under the horizon,
Let's walk together like this forever,
like light and shadow,
I stand in the city,
staring off into space with lonely eyes,
I can't find warmth on my own,
By meeting you I realized,
How much strength love could give me,
Even if we part and meet again,
I want to meet at this place,
Then we'll hold hands to ensure,
we'll never be separated again,
I can't sleep by myself,
Because I can't dream without you,
So take me to a place where uncertainty can't reach us,
And let us bring light to the night sky with no stars,
so long as you are with me I can go to the world's end,
Even if it's a path I can't walk on my own,
If you are by my side,
I can walk it while humming a tune,
If we are together the world is mine,
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270.5 and heading to dunkin donuts for breakfast.? Hmm Delicious.
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270.5 yet again, ate some junk food for dinner. We'll see how much I gain tomorrow.
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272 the candy is finally catching up to Me :)
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270.5 again.? Big dinner tonight so will go up I am sure :|
can't get past 270 who wants to help?
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270.5 again, the candy is taking its time to add the pounds.? Will have to do extra cardio monday to work off the pounds and finally break the 270 lb barrier.
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270.5 looks like the cheesecake won't happen, talk to the sub last night and she won't have the time for me.? Sad sad day.
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270.5 yet again, Pizza party is going to catch up tomorrow morning.? might eat some cheesecake that a sub will make for Me this weekend before she goes off to california = more weight.? Oh well it is halloween after all.
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270.5 with a halloween lunch at work tomorrow.? Not going to end well :|
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271, halloween week seems like a big big challenge to lose weight.
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271, thought it would have been a lot worse after yesterdays lunch.?
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270.5, should be more tomorrow, cheated on the diet a little bit and ate at a burger joint that opened up.? Damn that was a lot of food.
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270.5 those cheap publix grapes are getting to me.
In case you are looking for them it is 1.49 a lb for red seedless grapes.? Cheaper than super target/walmart.
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272 must have been a mistake.
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274.5 must improve.
must finish book.
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Starting to put My weight here daily to keep track of it and to get me motivated.
275
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I stand in the city, staring off into space with lonely eyes
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Another saturday night spent watching anime.
how cool.
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Been back for 3 days and already have 7 girls blocked.? Didn't realize how easy that was.
So much fun.
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It hasn't been 24 since I have been back and already have 2 sub/slaves blocked, wonder how many it will be after the 24 hour period.
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Already back for a day and I am reminded of why I needed this break. I need to find an outlet for all this anger due to some stupid stupid people. |
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Back after a month absence due to the holy month of Ramadan.?
Think it is about time to retire this account and create a new one including the things I have learned so far.
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I notice more and more, I only come on to collarme now when I am bored and look for some sort of conversation.? Unfortunately I haven't been able to find the kind of intelligent non childish conversation here for a long time.
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Love the feeling when you finally realize how juvenile somebody really is.
With this latest interaction and finding out that "other subs talk shit about me in chat rooms" wondering if it is even worth spending any more time on this site full of fake/posers who just are in it for the attention.
There I go being all holier than thou again, this is what happens when you treat everybody as human beings instead of the trash they want to be treated as :)
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Love how little girls act like little brats and/or a bitch and then can't handle the harsh responses that creates. Keep being immature as you are.
Hmm Seems like my previous journal was removed, wonder who could have complained about it hahaha. |
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I am blessed with the useless talent of wanting things/girls that I can not and should not have.? you know who you are little brat.? Solution to the above dilemma make user hidden and block them from ever contacting Me again.
Ahh the wonders of technology.
Get your looks at the profile now, will be creating a new one in the upcoming months.
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The past 2/3 weekends I have been waking up at 8:30 AM the latest and have been lacking sleep.? Can't seem to get any at all.? Anybody out there that can bore Me to sleep?
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I enjoy having a decent conversation with a sub that somehow miraculously turns bratty childish and lacks any humor within a minute of supposedly finding a master.? With that kind of attitude I am sure it will last :|
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Seems when a person reopens their account they become unhidden from you.? Saw a little whore that recreated her profile.? This little whore wasted 3 months of My time talking and leading Me on.? If you need to know who it is just message Me.
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To live means to struggle and fight. Success in life is possible only with success in the struggle.? -Atat? |
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Should do an update.
On part 2/chapter 2 of The Stranger.
Need to catch up on bleach, naruto, sengoku basara, hajime no ippo and the new full metal alchemist.? But before all of that I need to watch some one piece to free up hard drive space to download the rest of the anime to catch up on.?
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Haven't been able to sleep lately.? Have to get up for work in 6 hours, have to find something to bore Me to sleep.
/end thinking out loud;
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I love idiots on this site that think they are actually doms but are nothing but little boys here is a hint buddy if your little sub is lying to you at this early stage your shit is doomed to fail.
ON another note.
redheads the bane of my existence.?
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This is the day the change has started.
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Started rereading Albert Camus' The stranger.? Chapter 1 is finished.
I came to the realization that the most important thing to Me is maturity.?? I can not believe the amount of immature little girls out there that are looking for nothing but attention.
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I have been in a good mood lately and noticed that I give accolades really easily.? To the point of giving it to subs/slaves that have not earned them.? Time to stop sharing the cheer.
you will earn them from now on.
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Why would somebody keep making new profiles and on top of that keep lying when they create them.? Makes Me believe that this site is full of people with questionable character.
So hard to find mature smart people.
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Way to wake up, get a call from an unknown number, some dude telling Me not to speak to His sub again and to leave her on.? The only problem is this, I basically told his sub to F off.? The kid doesn't realize that his sub is using Me as an excuse to get out of whatever little punishment he came up with.? Sounds to Me like they deserve each other.
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I love it when a sub blocks you for no apparent reason. Especially after messaging about nothing in particular. |
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Why do I keep getting attracted to artistic types.
photographers in particular.
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God Damn bills lose again :|
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Is it so fucking hard to hope for a smart and mature sub/slave. ? Almost every young sub/slave I have had contact with ends up being nothing but a stupid attention whore.? How do people put up with them.?? ? ?
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If I bore you, just tell Me and stop messaging Me and be done with it.? I don't have time for your emo attention whoring.
/flex
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I hate stupid people, if your iq is less than your height in inches please do not message Me you will just waste My precious time.
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Seems like I have just been black listed.? How strange when a girl answers a simple question disrespectfully and you tell her she is disrespectful and voila you are blocked by some people.? This is to those people, if you are so simple minded and vain I thank you for blocking me as you are not the type of person I would like to associate with, your lack of intelligence might be a turn on and attractive to some people but it is a big turn off for me.? Enjoy the little clique you have formed on here and blacklist away.?? ??
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If you are about games please leave me alone I am not a child and do not have the time for it.? Lately I notice that I over analyze things and people and I am realizing that is my downfall.? So more carefree actions for me now.
Will be reading sun tzu the art of war starting today, time to better myself.???
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