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Update...
Things seem to be pretty good, I have a vanilla boyfriend who treats me like a princess, and loves me do much. I'm still in school, my cupcakes, cakes, pies etc business is doing okay. And my part time jobs are slowly dropping my hours...
It seems like everything I've been waiting for is coming around... But I still feel like I'm missing something.. :-(
I love my boyfriend with everything I have in me, and he the same. Or so he says. His little boys adores me and I barely get to see him. Part of me wishes I could just have a child so I could always feel loved, wanted, needed... But then again I'm not ready financially at all. I feel as if I should be with someone who will treat me as a baby girl. Having all of this responsibility around me 24/7 is kinda driving me nuts.
I wish there was a daddy out there that would understand me, love me, and make me forget about all the crap in my life and allow me to dream and be what I'm suppose to be. A baby girl.
Thank you to all of my friends whom I have made on collar me, and have supported me through alot!! You guys are the greatest. Hope to chat soon... |
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Wow... i can't believe i put my life somewhat on hold to be told that i shouldn't be in the BDSM life. Also what kind of "daddy" takes on a baby girl with dreams of a relationship, love, and so much more, to just turn around and say that they got out of the lifestyle, and got a girlfriend. the term "under-consideration" is just another way for you dumb fake "doms" to get a submissive/baby girl/slave's complete trust, focus, and the ability to "own" a submissive without having to take responsibility.
I think that this is all ridiculous and that "doms" who believe in under-consideration, need to grow up and start taking responsibility!!!
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Sorry for not posting journals lately but alot has been going on.
i have been busy taking care of my grandmother and have had many doctor appointments for myself.
Daddy i miss talking to You.
Hope to see You soon !! xox |
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heyy everyone again,
sorry its been so long. i have been in many diapers since my last journal. i really miss my Daddy, and hope that i can see Him again soon!!
soo while ive been ill and away dealing with doctors i have messed many diapers because of stupid vitamins and different pills they have put me on. i have been in alot of pain, and because of where i live the bathroom is up the stairs so climbing them have been causing me pain so when i feel like i have to go to the bathroom i have just gone in diaper..
i ran out of diapers for a week last week so i was running to the bathroom because i was not use to being without diapers.
anyways Daddy i miss you, ill talk to you later
xox |
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i will try to post journals but i am going through some stuff at the moment that needs to come first. i just got into a huge fight with my parents last night and now i'm staying at my friends cuz my dad told me to get the fuck out and then he punched me i'm just trying to figure out what to do with my life cause i feel like everything is closing in on me and it's about to end :'-( So as you can see there are some thing i need to take care of. Sorry Daddy, but i will write when i can |
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First off i would like to start this journal by letting Daddy and everyone know what's going on. i have not be able to write journals lately because i have been soo busy and i have been kinda sick lately :-( .
i have been in and out of the hospital for tests and am feeling somewhat better.
Next, i have been consistently wearing my diapers that i bought to make sure that i would get use to wetting and messing in them.
i officially have started to mess uncontrolably. i really am loving this so much, and cannot wait for all this drama with Daddy and my own drama to end so He and i can finally start having a new life, learning and living in this bdsm world.
i am so sorry Daddy for not writing to you and for not doing my journals. Next time i will just be up front and ask You if something is going on and to see if there's anything i can do to help
Xox Daddy
Have a good day, i'm at work until late tonight...
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Sorry Daddy for not posting journals. i have been going through a bunch of crap these past few weeks, and have been completely stressed out. Hoping to see You soon so i can forget about everything for even a few hours and just be a baby slave :-) |
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Daddy read my journal and has asked me to eat baby food for the next two weeks. Unfortunately i have to gO for a bunch of medical tests and im not suppose to change my diet at all for the next month. im sorry Daddy, but i need to take care of my health and stuff first so i can make sure il be at my best in the future. |
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Off to work shorty, but i woke up with a very wet diaper. Working 10-10 shifts are starting to hurt my bum, lol. i seem to be getting a little bit of a rash, and it kinda burns. Anyways now ive changed my diaper from yesterday and have a nice clean one on. i put on some baby powder so my bum would stop hurting. Daddy i wish You were here to take care of me. When i was out walking around i walked past this baby store and they had baby food all on sale this week. i looked at the fruit blends and they actually sound good!! i sorta wanted to buy some buy of course i need Daddy's permission.
Anyways Daddy have a good day, i am off to work now. xox |
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i am at work at the moment, but i went to the hospital last night for my foot. i thought i broke it but it's only very badly sprained. Because of work i have not been able to keep off of it, but that's okay, i only have Monday at work then i can rest it and mess and wet my diapers more :-)
i went to bed last night with my wet diaper on but woke up in the middle of the night cause of a storm. i wish i could just sleep at work but thats a little difficult...
Anyways i must get back to work.
Have a good day Daddy xox |
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Currently at work but i woke up with a very messy diaper. It's weird when im out and i can sense that people are starring and even today i felt like people were whispering behind my back about me. It makes me think is this really for me? And as im walking i get this feeling like i have to go. I relax myself and just let it go. That warm feeling you get as your diaper sucks up your pee, is unforgettable!! How could i think about changing myself to be someone im not??
i am happy that i am Daddy's baby slave because i could never see myself without a diaper ever again!!!
Have a good day Daddy!! xox |
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Decided to leave diaper on because i had only wet it ice today. will change it again in the morning |
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i would like to start by saying that i am sorry to Daddy because i didn't write a journal this morning. i was awake all night, and could not sleep at all. i didn't even mess once. Although i think that's mostly because i am not feeling too good. i am working Friday, Saturday, Sunday, and Monday from 10 PM till 10 PM. So i guess that i will be stuck in a diaper all day while at work, and will only be able to change it once, in the morning. i miss You Daddy, i hope i can see You soon :-) xox |
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Going to be going to bed soon. Just changed my diaper and it was wet and messy. i guess the mineral oil is still going through me. But it's making my tummy hurt alot either that or i am really not feeling good.
Have a good night Daddy |
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Not feeling good today at all...
Was given mineral oil the other day and when i was asleep it decided to go right through me. However it's still working, i don't think ive ever dirtied my diapers this much before. They are very messy and heavy... And they feel really weird :-s
Have a good day Daddy, i think i am going back to sleep for awhile. xox |
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Good Morning CollarMe!! Today is a very special day for me as it's my birthday, i turn 20 today :-)
Unfortunately i have to work 10-10 today... Oh well. Hopefully i will talk to Daddy today and see Him soon!!
Anyways changed my diaper this morning and it was very very wet and messy. im so happy that i have a clean one on now :-)
Have a good day Daddy!!! <3 xox |
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Home now but now my diaper is really really wet and i had a mess. It's al squshy and warm lol
It feels really weird. i wig Daddy was here to change it :-( |
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Sorry to Daddy as i was unable to do my journal this morning, but i am at my training course today until 10:30 PM so i am stuck in my last nights diapers until tomorrow morning... Not that i am complaining but it's really really wet... And i am starting to become self concsious about it. |
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Will do journal later am currently at work |
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Had a diaper change a little while ago. It was messy and very wet. i honestly love wearing my diapers and cannot see myself without then any longer.
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Just finished another change...
my diaper was so wet and heavy. im surprised that i didn't mess last night because i wasn't feeling all that good.
But now i have a clean dry diaper on. :-) yay!
Hope You have a good day Daddy, i have to work today from 4 - 11 today. xox <3 |
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Finished another change, i honestly love being in diapers. :-) i would like to take this time to say that i am truly sorry for talking to others without permission to continue talking to them. This will not happen again.
Hope to talk to You tonight Daddy, if we can't then have a good night. xox
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Last night Daddy told me that i had until 830 PM to redo my journal. Unfortunately there was a really bad storm here last night and i ended up putting my car in the ditch :-( i hit my head really hard and ended up getting a nose bleed from it. When the tow truck got my car out i was soo lucky that there was no damage. However when i got home my mom saw me and she rushed me to the hospital. i had a concussion and they kept me over night. i am home now but i have a really bad migraine.?
So to move on with this journal Daddy has asked me to write about, more so fantasize about the times when he is going to break me.?
The first thing i can imagine Daddy doing is taking a blind fold and making sure that it's on properly so that I cannot see Him or anything He is trying to do. ?The next thing i can see Him doing is placing me on all fours and making sure that i am restrained so i cannot move. After staying like that for awhile, i will be able to feel Daddy lightly touch my skin, sending shivers down my spine. And then a hard loud spanking on my bare bottom. i am sure that i will scream and beg for Daddy to stop because it hurts. But Daddy knows what is best for me so that way i can always trust him and will always know that Daddy has my best interest at heart. i can only imagine how red and sore my bottom is going to be. i will probably bruise like crazy on my bottom... Haha. All part of the breaking i suppose.?
While my bottom is sore and red i can see Daddy putting a diaper on me. But, this diaper won't get changed for awhile, at least three days. And i know that I can't hold it all in because i know if I did that then Daddy with keep making me drink liquids until i wet, and if he really wanted me to mess i am sure that he will make me have a laxative, then i will definitely mess for sure. But isn't it better to be a good girl and just be comfortable with who you are? i know that I am becoming more and more comfortable wearing diapers. During the few days that i will be wearing the diapers, i can imagine the repulsive smell coming from them, the constant worry that it might leak, and the fact that it will be wet all the time for those days. Knowing that it is wet and that diapers are warm will cause me to have a sore rash. i personally don't want this but i know that it is good for me. Once Daddy has decided that the rash is a good rash He will take of the dirty diaper and hopefully i will get a nice bath. But it's going to hurt cuz of the rash :-( ... The next thing that Daddy will do after a bath is put a clean diaper on me and as He puts it on me Daddy has told me before that He is going to be forcing me to cum. i can see Daddy take a small powerful vibrator and then i could hear it buzzing quietly, Daddy would put it against my skin and slide it down my skin to my pussy and put the vibrator on my clit. i would be squirming, even though id enjoy it alot i am sure that i would be squirming and moaning in pleasure. Daddy would hold me there until i had came the amount that he wanted. Once He had forced me to cum Daddy would then make me suck is cock. ?Since i love sucking I would make sure i did an extra good job sucking Daddies cock like i always do. And before i get put to bed Daddy would cum in my mouth and have me swallow all of it, then handing me a stuffy and pacifier He would tuck me in and say good night, telling me i was a good baby slave :-)?
And that more will come tommorrow. i would then go to sleep n wait until another exciting day with Daddy tommorrow. :-D
Hope your having a good day Daddy xox |
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Today Daddy asked me to write a journal on what he is going to be doing to me to break me.
Even though i am not a huge fan on pain Daddy will give me harsh spankings. This will make my bum very red n sore. Daddy will also use restraints on me during my breaking period.?
The next thing Daddy is going to do is make me wear my diaper, until i have a really bad rash. ? Daddy is going to be using blindfolds on me as well as forcing me to cum.?
The next thing that Daddy is going to do is force me to suck His cock. i honestly have no problem with this at all :-)?
i am sure that more things will be done throughout my breaking period, but this is all i was told .
Hope your having a good day Daddy xox |
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Woke up really early this morning and had to rush to the vets to check up with the dog because their were complications.
My diaper is currently wet. i did not change it this morning so i will keep it on till next change time.
i'm sorry Daddy for not writing this sooner. Have a good day Daddy. |
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Going to be up late tonight.
Had to bring my brother dog to the vets, she's out of surgery and will be coming home in a few days. im going to be staying at my parents house to help clean it so it is ready for her to come home. By help, i mean do it all by myself. This sucks because if anyone who has seen the show horders, well it's like that but it's not dirty, just very disorganized with piles everywhere. i have already cleaned the kitchen, living rm, and muddroom. my father came in and started yelling at me that this place is disgusting. my mother will be home in a few hours and if i cannot get 80% of it done i'm sure il be hearing her yell at me to. How can families use their own daughter and not even thank them. To me what's worst is earlier i told my mom about my final grade (98.3) for my criminal psychology course and i get told "thats nice". Any human being would have been more happy for me than them. it hurts me to know that my own parents dont care about me, i am so much happier knowing that i have a Daddy who cares and thinks that i am amazing :-) thank you Daddy for making me want to continue this lifestyle even though it's so hard to face everyday life with my real parents around. Thank you Daddy for allowing me to be able to have my true self out in this world when ive been hiding it all these years.
i hope Your day has gone much better than mine. If i don't talk to you tonight Daddy i hope you have a good night aswell |
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Just woke up, and my diaper isn't messy or wet at all... Guess it will have to stay on till next change time.
i have an interview today for a potential job, wish me luck!
Have a good day Daddy! |
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Picked up some more diapers today. Now that i have a nice clean diaper on i can go to bed with my stuffy and my pacifier to have sweet dreams:-)
Tomorrow i have a job interview and then a bunch of appointments .. Yay. :-s
Hoping to see Daddy soon... i know you've been busy but i just want u to know i miss you.. xox |
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Wearing the same diaper as last night.. Went to the store and they do not have any in stock until tommorrow..
i guess i am stuck in the same diaper till then.
Off to my other job now... Running a little late.
Have a good day Daddy |
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Since it is past change time, i guess i will write that unfortunately because of lack of money i have not been able to buy extra diapers. Sooo tomorrow morning i will go out to buy some more but because Daddy says i am not allowed to never have a diaper on, so i will be going to bed in a wet diaper.
i would like to take the rest of this journal to let Daddy know that i miss Him very much and that i can not wait to see Him again, soon.
Good nights Daddy xox |
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Today i received one of the most amazing messages in my CM inbox that i think i have ver read. ?It honestly made me tear up. I was so full of honesty, caring and full of hope.?
i would like to share a little bit of what He sent me, because i know that there are many people out there who are seeking for that true Daddy or Dom or even a Domme, and they are out there you just have to be strong and keep searching!
Here is something He said;
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"Sadly, the internet is filled with fakes and mean-spirited individuals. There are fake Doms and Daddies, saying and doing things wrong - representing themselves irresponsibly. There are fake subs and slaves misrepresenting themselves or misleading others for their own fulfillment. I don't get it. Sometimes it makes me angry, other times it frustrates me and still other times it makes me question reaching out to anyone online.
Then, occasionally, I will meet someone that I connect with... either as a friend, a confidant, a playmate or I can act as a mentor. ?It's then I realize it's worth it."
Remember that everything we do their are consequences, people W/we need to think twice about what we sent to eachother! Because in the end someone is reading it, and let's face it, first impressions are important.
The main thing He told me, which really hit home was:
"Keep up the good work. Be a true to yourself and to your (under consideration) Daddy. I'm confident things will work out just fine for you and your Daddy."
The hope of another member of this CM community who shares my desire ad wanting to be with someone. i hope that my training with Daddy will make me the luckiest little girl out there, when he decides to choose me. Until then i am thankful for all the extra hope people seem to be sending my way.?
Thank you again.
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This morning i woke up, and noticed that my diaper was soaked and messy... Then i felt the sheet on my bed and it was a little wet :-( i must have wet my diaper too much last night.
So i changed it and hopped into the bath to get all cleaned up. And i've noticed that i am starting to get a small rash on my bum. i put some cream on it so it's not itchy n sore... Hopefully it goes away soon cuz it hurts :-(
Anyways off to do some studying for another exam... Have a good day Daddy! |
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Just finished a diaper change... Can't believe after a few days that i do not have a rash :-) even with a diaper that was on for like 2 days and a bit... It was soaked and messy...
i am getting use to this and i believe it's becoming more natural for me :-)
Anyways off to bed soon... Good night Daddy |
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First off i would like to say I am sorry to Daddy for not doing a morning journal. i ended up in the hospital late last night in slot of pain.
i got out of hospital around 4 pm today and then had to go to my exam for school. i am hoping for a least an 80% on this exam.
i have had to wear the same diaper for two days now, and can't wait to change it tonight. It is very wet n messy... i hated that the nurses wouldn't let ms go to the bathroom :-( |
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Home now... Changed diaper at work again... Wasn't too bad. Lol
Because diapers are getting low Daddy has decided that i can only have one diaper a day unless it's really messy and wet.
Anyways good night Daddy and everyone else!!! |
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Home now... Changed diaper at work again... Wasn't too bad. Lol
Because diapers are getting low Daddy has decided that i can only have one diaper a day unless it's really messy and wet.
Anyways good night Daddy and everyone else!!! |
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Changed diaper this morning ... It was soaked and really messy... i guess that's what happens when your not feeling good :-(
i felt really gross wearing it and felt like i couldn't get it off soon enough lol
Anyways spent the night sucking on my pacifier and slept like a baby... Meaning i was up every how or so :-(
Anyways off to work for 3 hours then i have to study for my exams... Have a good day Daddy! |
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Changed diaper this morning ... It was soaked and really messy... i guess that's what happens when your not feeling good :-(
i felt really gross wearing it and felt like i couldn't get it off soon enough lol
Anyways spent the night sucking on my pacifier and slept like a baby... Meaning i was up every how or so :-(
Anyways off to work for 3 hours then i have to study for my exams... Have a good day Daddy! |
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Just got home from work..
i ended up having to change my diaper at work today. It was really awkward. But i also enjoyed sucking on my new pacifier throughout the day.
Anyways only 5 more minutes then i must go to bed.
Already going to bed with a wet diaper ...
Gnight Daddy |
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i really hate when someone messages me and has not viewed my profile. W/we all has profiles for that reason. Do not message me asking to be ur daughter or submissive or slave, without reading my profile, because if you did you would see that i am under consideration from Daddy. Please e respectful and read profiles first. Thank you..
And sorry if i come off bitchy it just annoys the heck out of me |
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Woke up about 15 min ago, went downstairs to get some milk, and went to bathrm to change diaper. i had a really wet diaper and i think only one mess cause it wasnt too bad.
Last night i promised Daddy that i would do better with my journals, otherwise i would loose the use of my diapers and i really dot want that.
Daddy i promise to do better, please don't take away my diapers.. |
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Spent the night waking up every half hour to throw up :-( i lve getting heat stroke:-(
Daddy messaged me earlier and i had gotten up not long after and i told Him what was going on. i did not change my diaper this morning, so all day i was in a wet and messy diaper until tonight.
Still not feeling well, but hopefully il sleep better. Gnight |
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So i just bought my first pacifier.. :-) so excited to show Daddy and to use it all the time :-) i love being a baby slave :-) |
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Last night Daddy told me That I had to wake up at 645 and that i had 2 hrs to cum ten times
i'm pretty sure i came ten times my diaper was soaked when i was done. i guess it didn't help that i had messed last night during sleep and that i had also wet my diaper to.
i love being in diapers so much, and im not scared to be in public anymore and i wish all the time for when no one is home so that way I can walk around in just a diaper and shirt.
Even though i am the only one changing my diaper right now, i am feeling more dependent on them and that means ecause of my change times Daddy gave me i am also dependent on him.
Sorry Daddy for not writing this sooner.. |
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Soo... today ... umm what to say. Well since my change periods are at 9 AM, unfortuneatly i was unable to change my diaper this morning until i got to my training class. So i sat in class for over an hour, with a wet, messy heavy diaper waiting for 9 AM to come around. The trainer gave us a break at 9 AM and i went and changed my diaper. After i changed the diaper i felt soo much better. i am getting use to having a wet diaper, infact i have caught myself a few times pushing myself to wet the diaper just so i can have that feeling back :)
Something that i am starting to get better with is messing. The other day i told Daddy that if i increased my milk intake that i would mess more because i am a little lactose. So now everyday i ave to increase it some. Today when i increased it, starting at 9 AM until 845 PM, i had wet the diaper 3 times and messed 2 times. i feel like this is a big accomplishment for me :)
Even now as i lay here in bed typing out my journal for Daddy, wearing my diaper and shirt, all i can think about is the feeling it gives me when i wet or mess it. i think i am really starting to become an almost perfect baby slave. :) And i'm loving every minute of it :)
Have a good night Daddy :) |
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The perfect day with Daddy!!
i would say that if i was to have the perfect day with Daddy it would start off with Daddy waking me up in the morning, at 7:50 AM.?
We would go into the kitchen, i'd make Daddy breakfast and sit at the table in my dirty diaper and a Tshirt..... Daddy would then make me a bottle, and we would go back to the bedroom were Daddy would pick out my outfit for the day and get a clean diaper to change me. Daddy then would hand the bottle to me as i lie on the changing sheet, he undoes the diaper and takes it off and rolls it into a ball. Then Daddy takes a wet wipe and wipes the skin where the diaper was making sure that all mess is cleaned away. ?Daddy would then take my Tshirt off and puts a cute dress on me.?
Daddy and i go out for the day. We would go to the park, or even for a little walk down a path somewhere. Somewhere where there are people but not alot of people.?
Then when Daddy and i get home we would watch a movie together or maybe that's when daddy puts me down for a nap... Really it's up to Daddy. ?When Daddy wakes me up from a nap Daddy would eat dinner and i would be having another bottle.?
After dinner it would be bath time, so Daddy would run a bubble bath with maybe some toys in it to play with :-) after the bath Daddy would have a clean diaper ready to put in me for the night, and a nightgown to sleep in. ?Daddy would tuck me in to bed, and then the last, and best thing of the night is that daddy would make me suck him and make me swallow his cum. ?After that was done, daddy would read or tell me a quick story and i would go to sleep..?
This is the perfect day, in my eyes with Daddy :-)?
Good night Daddy?
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Daddy has asked me to write a detail journal about my messy diaper, Feelings and sensations.
So anyways my diaper right now is wet n messy and it feels really weird. i am very self contious about the smell... i just hope no one can smell it :-s
It feels really weird.. Like it's mushy and warm which I'm not overly liking although i know Daddy loves it:-) but i will learn to enjoy this part of it
I do love the wetting part of it though :-)
I know that this is suppose to be long but I have to get back to my training class so I guess il have to write more later tonight :-)
Thanks Daddy for giving me this amazing lifestyle :-) |
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Sitting in my class and Daddy knows that i have not messed in diaper yet today and told me that I had to mess right then and there.
So when i messed i now have a huge feeling of embarrassment and I'm worried others will be able to tell :-(
Oh well 3 hours till change |
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First of all i would like to say im sorry to Daddy for not writing a journal last night. And thank you to Daddy to allow me to have some extra time to catch up.
Because i am in a course for a job with a company and am doing 12 hour days yesterday Daddy made me stay in my diaper for 24 hrs. During the course it was wet n then when i woke up it was messy.
i have been very busy to be able to post any journals
Again im sorry Daddy... I will write more later
Back to class!
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So today is the second day of my new life wearing diapers:-)
Yesterday was alot of fun and i hope today will be aswell...
I love wearing and i love thefeeling of being protected D hopefully soon i will get to learn the feeling of dependancy on Daddy |
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Last night was my first real night with the diaper. i slept all through the night with only one mess... i kinda feel a little embarrassed about it but at the same time i'm also happy that i did :-)
It feels weird to have to change my diaper by myself, i wish Daddy was here to help me
Anyways time to get my say started , diaper chance is at 9am :-) |
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Just started to wear diapers full time starting today. i had errands to run and forgot that i had the diaper on.... It felt so amazing to be wearing them.
Daddy talked to me about my rules when it comes to wearing diapers, last night. Daddy said that i will use double day diapers. So that way i can wear the diaper for a long time without changing. So i'll need more ASAP. And the rules for changing my diaper are the following times: 9am and 845pm
The next rule Daddy made was my Bedtime which is 9pm and i am to be up at 750am. |
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Since i have decided to begin my life in this amazing lifestyle of being an "Adult Baby Slave" i have done much reading on it. One thing that i came across is a description of what a slave in diapers will feel and basic reactions and such.
"A slave in diapers is no less dependent on the master than if she were in bondage. As soon as the diapers are pinned and the plastic panties in place the slave realizes that he or she has been deprived of the most basic and private decision of adult life -- when and how to relieve oneself. It will not, at first, occur to the slave that attempting to refrain from elimination will be futile, that it is the master's plan and desire that the slave suffer forced incontinence. The slave will, instead, be initially concerned with the strange feelings of the diaper such as the bulk between the legs which alters her walk and the growing heat caused by the plastic panties. The second concern of the slave will be his or her appearance. We are an image-based society and the slave will have cultivated a personal image which includes some degree of vanity. Forcing an obviously diapered adult to mingle with the public forces the victim to re-evaluate her image, causing more anxiety and distress. The master may take some assurance that anyone who guesses the cause of the bulges under the slave's clothing will presume an innocent reason, but the slave has no such comfort. Every strange look, every whispered comment will torture the slave with the suspicion that someone has guessed that he or she is wearing diapers and therefore is less of an adult."
You can find this at : " http://www.adultbaby.co.uk/stories/archive/dominating-your-slave-with-diapers"
i found that this site really did help me understand completely what wearing diapers is all about especially when your a baby slave.... and i definately think i am going to love every second i am wearing a diaper...
anyways.. thats all i have to say, its almost 2 am >.< and i promised Daddy that i would make a few journals before 2 AM.
so good night everyone, sweet dreams :P |
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Since i haven't been able to write much during today, Daddy has told me to make a few journals.. i think its only fair enough since i do think about diapers ALL THE TIME NOW!!!
i am so excited for tomorrow to pick up some diapers so that way i can wear them all day and night. i love the feel of having the material of the diaper tightly up against me. it makes me feel so secure if only i was with Daddy while i was wearing it i would feel incredibly dependent on Him :) |
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Today i went to the states and all i could really think about was how much i missed having the diaper on me. i looked at prices and different types of diapers. But Daddy told me that He would prefer Adult Baby Diapers. So i am going to look into ordering some offline. Until then i have found some depends that should work for now. i want to get use to diapers more. And i want to be able to wear them 24/7. i love diapers and i am so happy that Daddy has shown me something that i am going to love for the rest of my life.
Thank You Daddy!!! |
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Since only a few hours ago i have had my diaper on, and love the way it feels :-)
Daddy wants the diaper to be soaked . Daddy said that i need to wet it two times.
i am looking forward to being in diapers more and to be in them potentially forever :-)
Thank You again Daddy for a great day, and it was very nice to meet You :-) |
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So just met up with Daddy and had a great time!!
Was really nervous at first but thats to be expected...
Seems like it ended to fast but probably made my day the best day in awhile :-)
Driving home now with a diaper that Daddy put on me ... im starting to like it alot more
And because i was a good baby slave daddy allowed me to either spit or swallow his cum
So i decided to swallow... Not as bad as i though
i had a great time Daddy i hope you did too |
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Been speaking with Daddy today about training when i become a live in baby slave. ...as much as i do not like pain, i understand that i must be broke first.
thinking about my life as a baby salve is starting to really excite me. i can't wait for that moment when i can be completely dependent on my Daddy.
There is only one more sleep until Daddy puts my first diaper on me :)
very excited..
wish me luck!!
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Just walked past a baby store for adults.... So much is going through my mind right now...
Can't wait till Monday:-) |
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Monday i will be meeting Daddy for the first time.
And that day will start my training of wearing diapers. Since i have a 5 hour drive home, Daddy wants me to wear a diaper so i can get use to it.
Also, Daddy is going to make me suck Him while i wear the diaper. And even though i hate cum being in my mouth and swallowing it, Daddy allowed me to beg to not swallow it.
Little did i know that their was a catch. :(
i am going to have to keep the cum in my mouth until i get home to spit it out :(
i guess this is just another test of my obedience towards Daddy.
Can't wait to see You Daddy :) |
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i am currently being considered by a Daddy. i will not say who, as it is not proper protocol.
i have talked about a life best suited for myself. Daddy believes that because of my life, that i would do best being his baby slave. i have begged Daddy to keep me in diapers for ever. being in diapers means that i will be able to be completely dependent on my Daddy, and that i will do what He says when He says.
as time goes on i will learn what is necessary to be His baby slave, and in hopes will soon be His, forever. |
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