LoveBostonSub

    After spending literally over 3 hours putting together a piece of furniture from Ikea (And I had power tools - I can only imagine how long it would have taken otherwise), I was somehow very very wired, and decided to update my profile.

    Me being the overly wordy person I am when writing online, instead of making it smaller, I think I just ended up making it about a paragraph longer.   I am happy with it, however, for the moment.

Also support cleared up my question about my profile pic not showing up, although my most recent update seems to have made my old pic re-appear.   I assume that'll change itself shortly.

I've updated my profile pic. In case it needs to be said, the pic is not of me :P.

$2 Pack of cheap canvases and some rather nice new type of sharpie with a brush tip, and I have a new fishy to watch over my sink. I still have one other canvas that came in the pack that I've yet to put into use, but it is nice being able to make your own decorations when you see some of the crap sold at big box stores, or the prices even at open studio events. Haven't had a journal entry in a while, so why not.

Hoping people survive the "trip" from "CM" to "CS", since it sounds like that's a dispute that's not going to be resolved anytime soon. People are not quick to forgive, generally speaking, and bad blood can run very deep, so whatever the problems are, I'm not holding out hope for a return of the domain name. I rant on that only because of a personal issue, sometimes I feel people can take things the wrong way or be far too unwilling to let bygones be bygones. I appreciate my friends that are like me, and are happy to be alive every day and not let anger or depression take up any of the precious time there is. It occurs to me that somebody could take that to be directed at them, to whom it isn't, so assume this rant isn't about you, and wonder, like I am now, why I even bothered typing it.

After a busy school year I'm on here again actively trying to find a play partner, or ideally, partner for an LTR. I suppose I will update my profile when I get around to it. Unfortunately I feel like most real Dominant woman don't check this site much, since it's full of people full of crap and devoid of worth. I wouldn't mind if anyone wanted to PM me other sites that could be of use in my search.. Ah, well, that's probably enough journaling for today. I don't even like journals. I hate writing down my feelings. I like doing. heh.

      I'd put this little rant on true submission in my profile before deciding that it was getting far too crowded for easy reading, and subsequently realized it would be an apt usage to make it my first journal entry instead.    I could go on quite a bit more about my idea of D/s, so perhaps I will do that and find a good continued use for this journal.

       I'll talk briefly about what submission is to me and my understanding of my role, as I think it gives a decent insight into my personality and outlook.  In my opinion, there are a lot of people looking for play that's not really true domination and submission.   Topping from the bottom or whatever you want to call it, it probably happens most with pro Dommes where their subs are actually paying clients (whose wishes therefore must be considered more if they want repeat business), and it is certainly NOT what I'm looking for.   Not that a sub's interests don't matter at all - similar interests and fetishes are certainly a factor in a successful relationship, and when it comes to punishments or rewards it helps to know what a sub actually likes or dislikes - but the Domme's wishes should be the ones that matter and shouldn't be primarily tailored to the sub's kinks.  In my mind, a true submissive finds their pleasure in fulfilling the dominant's wishes and needs, and the satisfaction derived from this is the purest and most satisfying form of submission.   This also allows for a more open and fluid interpretation of the D/s roles, as dominance does not have to marked by a commanding tone, harsh words and a firm back hand (not that I don't enjoy said back of the hand).   Complete submission means that a Domme's kindness isn't taken as any sort of weakness or easing up of rules, and that even without direct supervision the sub can be thinking and working towards continuously making the Domme as happy as possible, because over time thinking of Her well being becomes as natural as thinking of one's own.    And on that note I will end my little rant/opinion piece.  Thanks for reading :)