loulou74


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	About loulou74 Much as this subject intrigues me and even excites me, recently I found it also scares me. Its nothing to do with being hurt or abused but I found the pleasure from things some ordinary people might find strange really bothered me. As someone who is fairly new to this lifestyle, I dont know how to handle my fear so for now its going to be a read and learn time and leave it at that. I simply dont have the courage to take it further than this. Let's just update this and say that was how things were and now I am just happy having a read and corresponding with friends.

I am a sub or submissive but I am never a 'subbie'. Why on earth do Doms on here insist on using that word? A word that merely serves to irritate in my book. Perhaps they would prefer subs called them Dommies but where on earth would that leave the poor Dommes? Rant over.

Why has it taken me so long to write in here again? There is quite a gap in the dates and I seem to find the enthusiasm one day and then lose it the next which is really quite unlike me.
I still find the message boards a good source of information and revelation. Suddenly, all those dark and deep fantasies can be revealed with the touch of a few buttons and it is truly fascinating to read what other people desire. Some of those fantasies are a bit too extreme for me but I am not judging those that like to go that far. We are all made differently and have different tastes.

Sometimes just a friendly exchange can be a wonderful thing. Liaising with someone who shares my own passion or who reveals what gets them going. It's all extremely interesting and makes for great correspondence.

Of course there are days when tiredness outdo's any desire to communicate. Where reading takes such little effort, typing sometimes looks like too much hard work. If you did catch me on one of my tiredness days, I was honest about being tired. It was not a 'dismiss you line' just so you went away. Late nights tend to cause them and little else so it is self inflicted. However, to save you from me being less than communicative with you, better to announce my tired fingers than to respond in as few words as possible without thought to what I am replying to.

Happy reading is what I say!

It has been some time since I had the chance to write an entry.

Mother has been poorly and been busy playing nurse and housemaid, minus the uniforms to match.

Just been catching up with the latest topics on the forums and it feels good to be back.

Here's to 2008 being better than 2007 - things can only get better!!!

Why do people send chat requests before first sending an email introducing themselves? Surely this is much more polite. It allows an opportunity to gain a bit of an insight into the individual sending the request and thereby making the decision to chat or not a simple process. If someone takes the trouble to write first, they are far more likely to get a positive response instead of me reaching for the deline to chat button.

Glad I got that off my chest - when I am so busy, some days my frustration shows lol!

I really enjoy reading the Message Boards on Collarme. So many different subjects, so many different points of view. Some of the responses can be a bit judgemental and not at all helpful. I say each to their own and what is exciting to one person, may not be exciting to another. What I like and want may not appeal to someone else, but if I ask for help, I hope I won't get shot down in flames just for asking. To me its important to allow people to express freely their views but dont do it at someone's else's expense. This is a forum for ALL members, and each must be allowed their say. Don't make someone regret they asked in the first place!

Sometimes you end up corresponding to someone via email and they are not looking for anything, just nice people happy to write. No ulterior motive, no looking for a fantasy revelation, just a pleasant exchange like two friends catching up. Makes reading my emails a nice thing to do.

Not written anything for weeks and thought it was high time I did. Now decided it is time to get back on that horse. I have been sidestepping it for too long and this has become a comfort zone.
Still receiving supportive emails and goes to show there are many nice people on this site. Makes a refreshing change.
You can ride but not hide, so its out of the dark and back into the light for me. Just enjoy is what I say.

Not written anything in a while and thought I might do so now.

Its been quite heart warming how many people want to give their support on a site like Collarme. Some just offer a few words of advice, others want to give help in a more sustained fashion but all in all, it feels like this a good site with good people to chat to.

I am not one of those that ignores emails tending to respond if I receive one. It costs absolultely nothing to be polite and I think its only right if someone has taken the trouble to write, that I do likewise. Some are quite funny, some quite helpful but all show someone has taken enough time to read my profile and write to me.

With the recent spell of bad weather, its nice to know that it hasn't dampened everyones spirts and there are still those that find the time to be pleasant and friendly. Makes me glad to be a member of Collarme.

Another week has commenced and I come across so many interesting people. To those that are happy to send kind words of support, I thank you gratefully, as it does indeed help me enormously. Maybe I have spent too long hiding from my fear and the time must come when I come out and confront it head on. This is an enjoyable lifestyle and pleasure can be gained without fear surrounding it. Time to face those demons I think. Time to gain strength from all those lovely people who were happy to show support. Get on with it Lou.

To make it quite clear to anyone wishing to email me - I dont entertain trolls so if you want more than chat, dont even bother writing because I will block you readily.
I am not here to please anyone but to enjoy the forums and chat from likeminded people and providing that chat is pleasant, fine by me. You want more, find some other victim to bother.

You know sometimes you come across someone who pretends they want to help you but all they are looking for is cheap sexual thrills. The guy who wrote offering such advice when all the time all he wanted was 'hot pics' of me and to have sex with me, it just simply wasnt going to happen.
Suddenly, all the fears I held are magnified by such a creep as him and I am just glad I didnt entertain the likes of him for any length of time.
He is the kind who sets someone back when they had steadily been making progress and I regret even replying to him at all.
Oh Louise what a mistake you made but thankfully sense took over.

Time has passed since my initial fear and I am still no nearer to rationalising it now than I did then. I find it hard to put into words the exact cause and why it bothers me so much and yet I need to find a solution to this fear if I am to move on.

From reading the many articles on the forums, I am not alone in wanting to find answers and yet there is nothing in them to help me with my problem.

I dont look back to the past with any bad feelings; merely a stopping point. Along the way, I will hopefully discover others with a similar dilemma and between us, learn from the experience and move on to better things.

Once I know what it is I want and how to achieve it, I am sure I will feel happier in this lifestyle.

First I need to find my position and then take it from there with little steps. Who knows where it make take me?!!

It is heartwarming to get emails from people who appear warm and friendly. They recognise my fears and dont just dismiss those but are happy to liaise with me in an attempt to help. To all those speptics out there, those emails do help and there is no hint of ulterior motives in the continued correspondence. I read so much about fakes and trolls, but some are just nice people who wanted to share but dont want commitment and thats fine with me. And now back to reading the latest on the forums.

Well here I am again, enjoying the threads on the forums on site. So many people so dedicated to this lifestyle, and its easy to see why. Its a bit like being an addict and simply not being able to take in enough information without wanting even more. I try to be very openminded in the activities others indulge in but sometimes I wonder what particular aspect of a particular activity got them so hot and bothered. Perhaps its just the element of pleasing a Dom or Domme, and the enjoyment is knowing you have risen to the challenge and possibly rewarded for doing so. When I think of some of the activities, I think, I couldn't do that, but then I have a rethink and ask myself, would it be so bad to do what was required? Turn away from something tried and hate not something never tried and possibly enjoy. Life is a mystery and one which should be investigated to the full, reminds me of this lifestyle.

i really should amend my profile - i was a slave for a period of time but thats not the case now. I am just a submissive type woman who likes this subject. I was registered as a slave and one day I must get round to deleting the slave number and profile.

Each day I log on collarme, I always read the forums and find out the latest observations or queries. Its fascinating reading peoples views on the topics raised and its good to see peoples different view points from others showing nothing is really black and white. It also shows that we should be more accepting of others who maybe embark on things which we ourselves might find strange. I try to keep an openmind when reading things which I myself might find totally outside of what I would call normal. Just because I dont do a certain thing doesnt mean its bad, its just not for me. As I would always maintain, this lifestyle will hold a fascination for me and many others for a long time to come.

I have never known such a subject to dominate my thoughts and emotions as much as this does. I try to divert my thoughts and dreams to other things but no matter how many times I try, I always come back to this. Thats why my fear puzzles me so much yet the fear is real. I am glad there are some nice people out there who are happy to advise and chat with no strings attached. Thats nice and shows there are some genuine people on Collarme. Some even make me laugh and thats good - helps aid the fear and puts things in a better perspective. These same people will help me conquer that fear and I look forward to the day when the fear disappears.

My original profile stated my marital status which is married. Unfortunately, when I amended the information, I seem to have omitted that fact from my current profile.
I am married and happily so. No he doesnt like this lifestyle but is aware it does something for me though it does absolutely nothing for him.
I love the site and the information I can learn from it.
Dont ever approach me regarding cams because Doms do and I am not sharing me with anyone but him. My body belongs to him, not some guy on a website.
Want to chat and share with me fine, i am more than happy but i am not big into deception.

What's a journal entry? Its a statement of my thoughts and emotions regarding a given time or date, expressing my feelings for all to read.

I used to complete this, supposed to do it daily but often failed on the daily part, but not sure what to put in it any more.

Wish there was someone I could chat to about my feelings and why I run from something which was pleasurable but frightened me in any case.

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