LouFu

So a few weeks back pet and I started playing with rope and we are both now in love. Two of our more experienced friends agreed to a little exhange of knowledge, she is going to show me and pet some things she recommends and I am teaching her how to make chainmaile. That is all for now

It' s been a while now. I had a break from this place, for no other reason than forgetting to log in. Things are going better now and I am feeling more confident. Which means that my dominate side is comming back out. Though I still love being on my knees. I have been thinking a lot, mainly about what being dominate means to me and what is my resposibility when I am in charge. Even though a Dom/sub relationship is for me a purely in the bedroom kind of thing, I have some rules for myself as a dom. The main idea is that I want my sub to feel safe with me. Safe enough to let me tie them up or whatever else we are doing. As long as they are wearing the my collar they don't have to worry about anything. I'll fix it. Kind of like when you were a child and your parents could fix anything, right? I want them to know that no harm will come to them while I am there and while I might inflict pain I will never hurt them. For me pain and hurt are two, though related, different things. If I am the leader I'll do whatever in my power to keep you from harm. In slightly different news I am also active with reveiwing sextoys. If you want to read my reviews they are here http://www.edenfantasys.com/contributors/snow/ I have another reveiw waiting to go up. That one is of a collar on their website. Next I am asking for a harness. Pet is really exited about this. So am I. Gonna be fun and open up for some new and interesting play

Realizations: So I have discovered that I might not be the switch I thought I was. Which I am not sure how to feel about. Maybe it is just the way things are in my life right now, but I just can't. My gf, the pet, practically begged for punishment yesterday, and I just couldn't. The only kind of punichment I can deal out right now is silent treatment and that is not what either of us need or want right now. She pushes it though, one of our friends, whom we both jokingly call mistress, commented on it. And I know I should, for the sake of what she wants. She's a sub too and she does want that mistress. I just can't be that person right now. I told her last night, I had a break down about other stuff (related to my studies and livining situation and other stress) and she just kissed? me and told me not to worry about it. And that we could drop that part of our relationship for a while and just be us and be together. But yeah, I think I am going to drop this idea that I might be a switch and just embrace the fact that I am a sub.

So the package from Eden arrived today, I am quite exited. It looked like something that would be very fun to play with. But hey I guess that is what break is for right, that and catching up on homework. Pet picked up an interesting book today, 'Sex for Lesbians' I belive it was called, and I found my Christmas gift to myself. Yes I by myself gifts, and?... Anyway, that book was called How to be? a Bisexual or something like that and look hilarious. Maybe I'll bring it home and I can discuss it with my mom. I told my mom last year when she came visiting, mainly because she would meet my girlfriend at the time and I thought it was only fair to warn her. She took it well, especially when I told her I had known since I was 14. "Some periods of your life you like one thing, some another, that is completely ok" And now she had accepted and talks about my girlfriends much the same way she talks about my sister's boytoys. It took another ten months before I found the guts to tell my dad though. When I told him he was just quiet, and didn't say anything about it for a few weeks until he made the joke "Well, at least I don't have to worry about no man being good enough for you" (I just told him I was dating a girl). Sometimes it is easier telling people you are gay/lesbian than bi, at least in my experience. Bisexual people often get the 'you are only saying that to get more sex' look. And I guess there are 'bi' people to whom that applies. Myself, I am not in that catagory. I like men and I like women, I have a friend who refuses to use any owrd to describe themselves on the basis that "I like people because of their personality, not because of their gender". Some times I wonder about doing the same. A person's gender does not matter to me, on the other hand confidece, character and a sense of humor, are more important? things when I fall for someone. ....And I just realized this became a rant, I apologise.

So, just because I figured it was about time to start filling this journal. This I guess will be my collarme and generally sex related stuff. So you guys will get all the fun details that no-one else gets, enjoy. So, about a week ago, I got approved as an Eden toy reviewer. Pet was very exited about this. I filled out my profile and every thing and on friday they sent me a toy, this means the toy is in the mail. I want it now. I am in the mood for new toys. But at the same time, I have my period so I am on probation when it comes, damn. I want to get off my period now. Also because I am going out on tuesday, and Master requested no underwear, and if my period is not done I am going to have to disapoint him on that one. But at the same time he is aware of that. Thank fully.

Male Dominant, 51

Male Submissive, 47, MORRISTOWN, New Jersey

Male Submissive, 59, Arlington Heights, Illinois

Male Switch, 31, boston, Massachusetts

Male Submissive, 66

Male Submissive, 53

Female Submissive, 51, Bossier City, Louisiana

Male Dominant, 59

Male Submissive, 43

Male Switch, 34, louisville, Kentucky

Male Switch, 57, West Chester, Pennsylvania

Male Dominant, 30, ayer, Massachusetts