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is it perceivable that a Dom could do a happy dance. Over the past few weeks my girl has been away, overseas working - and I have had to be content with tasks via the phone and video... they are not the same, not at all, they dont touch my heart or fill the void that being in contact physically does. But now she his home, in my arms, in my bed and in my dungeon. I started play gently first, her skin seems to have softened, and it was very easy to get her inot a good sub space after such a time apart. Later when she wakes we are going for breakfast, shopping and I have seen a lovely bracelet for her to wear - a rich gold, with ceylon sapphires and diamonds - perfect for her soft white skin.... hmm happy days.

Over the weeks I have been in communication with several subs on here, reading their journals, asking questions etc. I get so caught up and so angry when I hear of Dom's who dont respect their subs, who think they can add new subs without consultation, bad mouth the old subs that speak up about them (either their unsafe play or manipulation). I am also saddened when the new sub looks back at the old sub and has this poor image of them, believing malicious lies that the Dom has spread to cover his inadequacies. I wonder do Subs ever stop and think - hmm well he is treating me like this, I wonder if this is how his old used subs feel, I wonder if they were as bad as he has implied? I am curious, as I have had Subs tell me awful stories about ex Dom's, and I always like to hear two sides to a tale, but admit that Dom's are very good at mind fucks and manipulation, so of course their new subs will believe the lies they tell.

To the Dom's who treat their play partners badly - please think of the affect you have on them, think of the mental scars you may leave behind, and ask yourself why are you doing it.

Honesty is a must, integrity is a must and compassion is also a must..... so please, look at how you interact, look at how you "use" others and remember that Karma will come and get you.

Well time has flown, and it seems a time since I wrote in my journal. I have however been keeping up with reading journals of Subs I am following. The more I read the more aware I am that so many Subs seem confused in their role. Not saying this in criticism, but I feel that their Sir/Master/Dom are not assisting them to find the right path. Some seem to be constantly hit on by men on this site and other sites they are on, or they write constantly about how they are strong, rebellious, intelligent women, who love to give up their power... isnt that what being submissive is about. I treasure the days when I am with my Sub (who I might add is continues to amaze and please me every day) and I watch her hand me the power - but to see it written again and again, at how a sub is rebellious, or  bratty because they are intelligent - hmm not sure about that... will have to go and think about it

Slowly slowly, I have been developing a stable relationship with my lovely Sub. Her private journal enters fill me with pleasure and give me so much to think about and explore with her.

I love that althoughy she is bratty at times, she is never abrasive or aggressive. I love her giving manner, her compassion for others and her ability to be an independant woman. She has no desire to bully people - she is to me the perfect women.

I love the manner in which we are moving - so much fun....

The color blue - a deep rich blue that reminds of the ocean on a beautiful sunny day - that is the color of my new rope - soft, yet strong. It will match beautifully with the new corset I have bought my gorgeous submissive.

Now I have packed the corset, and will post it today. At our next planned meeting I will tell her to wear it, to be dressed like the sexy slut that she is, corset, stockings, high heels - how lovely that will be.

Bags are packed...

pegs, nipple clamps, feathers, blindfold, ball gag, rope, rope and more rope, new claws, candles

yep it will be a great time.

How I love to dedicate my time and energy to the one who has given me so pleasure by agreeing to be my submissive. To know that she offers me her submission, her trust - makes me so very proud.... so I dedicate much of my spare time reading, learning and watching.

Wow some people on here seem to use it to vent rather than to enjoy their experiences.

I have advised my sub not to post on here, I do not want her pestered by people who think after 6 months play that they know everything.

Her journals are showing good signs of learning, I love the way she finishes each entry with a comment, like kneeling before you, waiting for instructions... she is advancing beautifully

My girl has been sending me naughty messages since our last play. Daily journals are keeping me up to date with how she is feeling and thinking.

I can tell that right now is the best time to have a play session, but alas I have to work. I have set her some simple tasks - pegging her labia, sending pictures etc to keep her busy. As much as I would like to play girl knows I will play when I have enough time to really enjoy.

Oh for the scent of a lustful sub , who begs and pleads for release, who tolerates the pleasure of the pain and then can lay back content and in her own space..

Despite my desire to play with two subs, I am reconsidering this. I want to dedicate my all to just one, - perhaps have two subs, but only play with one at a time, so my mind is clear and decisive..

agghhh aghhh what a lovely weekend.

Surfing around, reading journals - always interests me what people write about.

I had a little play session today that although short was extremely satisfying. To tease so slowly until my sub is linking her begging and screaming, and then the final orgasm.

Cuddles and nice ginger tea afterward for my lovely girl.... thanks for that today.

Sorry if I dont befriend people on here... I will keep in touch, but I enjoy reading journals and learning from this site.

For those who I have messaged (or you have messaged me) be assured I will be here, just not blatantly obvious. I have a business to run, and vanilla friends who also enjoy my company. Mind you none of them can understand my enjoyment in purchasing Rope!!