i am a 62 year old married white male and for the last half of my life, i have realized that my purpose in life is to serve and please Black Men and Women.
From my teens, i knew that i was a submissive. i was led there through little side drawings on my father's porn catalogs. tiny little men and Amazonian Women, men clinging to stiletto heels, disappearing into the cleavage of massive breasts and struggling to hold up Black nylons on the perfect Amazonian legs. i knew my place was to serve. Through this time i also developed my fascination with Women's clothing, wearing my Mother's panties, stockings and yes, even girdles.
For nearly twenty years, i struggled to get my submissive fix serving Dominant Women. i continued to be a closet cross dresser, i frequented video stores where i became fascinated with Tranny videos, and i kept a constant supply of Fem Dom literature on hand. Becoming the sissy for the Domme was always my dream.
Through these years, i had two encounters with trannys, neither of whom allowed me to make sexual advances on Them. They made me orgasm but i was not allowed to reciprocate. Deep inside i knew i wanted to.
Into my 30's i turned to Men for my submissive fix. For a few years, i had been leaving the door ajar in the video booths and allowed other Men to service me. i felt if They could do it so could i. i sucked a few cocks through glory holes but it seemed so hollow, like something was missing.
One day i was surprised to see an unescorted Black Woman in the video area. We made eye contact and i followed Her to a booth. Once inside, She exposed a more than ample breast and i began to suckle it. After a few mins She pushed me to my knees and there before me was at least an eight inch Cock. I sucked it to completion and swallowed.
i was hooked at that point. It still took me a while to accept my role as a Black Cocksucker but i have. i fond it difficult and nearly impossible to complete a session with another white guy, unless i am being directed to by a Black Man.
Today, i am married with children and grand children. i would love to find and give myself to a deserving Black Master and become His property and be femmed to serve Him. Alas that does not seem to be an option.
So, i am left to move from one sexual encounter to another with "Top" Black Men Who don't seem to quite get the Superiority thing.
i continue t wonder "WHAT MIGHT HAVE BEEN" if as a teen, i had been taken by a Black Man and taught the joys of what i know understand. If i had been femmed then and used for His profit and entertainment. Would my life have been fulfilling?
