libraryladysub

About libraryladysub

Before sending a message to me, please read my profile/info. And do be aware, that I am not interested in discussing anything sexual. The only physical intimacy in which I shall ever engage is with my husband (and I imagine with my Master, although He has been "en absentia" and we have never met in person, so that is probably pretty much a moot point).

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You might be wondering at the lengthy list of interests...well...it isn't even a complete list! As the greeting indicates: I am curious...about so many things! "So much to do, so little time..." However...I am not seeking to become Anyone's slave/sub at this time. I had a Master, and I miss Him still-- "miss Him still" --that is stating it mildly...
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Not meaning to be rude, but there are too many messages to respond to each one personally. I shall do my best.

Sincerely,
~"libby".
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Again...not meaning to be rude...but I am not interested in getting a new Master. I do, however, appreciate interesting conversation.


p.s. location is irrelevant as i am not planning on meeting anyone.
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MY STORY IN A NUTSHELL:
It is strange, isn't it? I had always been extremely faithful to my husband, to our marriage, quite prudish, in fact--nearly a nun, other than being married...then the internet came into our house. I hated it--because it took so much of my husband's time and attention away from family life. We got rid of it for a while, but eventually, because the children needed it for their schoolwork, it became a necessity. Hubby promised he could handle it, but he still overused the internet. I did everything I could to dissuade his overuse without demeaning him--tweaking the technology so it appeared the computer/connection was "down" (I'm smarter than I give myself credit for) ;-) To no avail. Eventually, I decided, well, if you can't beat 'em--join 'em. Perhaps if I take an interest in chatting, he will begin to moderate his behaviour. He helped me create a chatnick, and I sat beside him while he chatted, and interacted a bit with the people in the chatroom he enjoyed so much. I refused to talk with anyone but women, however, because I did not feel right about talking with men. Until one day, a gentleman with a common interest in classical music was in a chatroom he frequented, and my husband encouraged me to make contact in the room. That broke the ice. And I began to make friends of both genders. Then I realized that my husband got "turned on" by seeing his wife talking with other men...gradually, I gave myself permission to talk with more and more men who had something interesting to discuss. To make a long story short, eventually, I met my Master online--He swept me off my feet, so to speak, weaving His magick upon my heart with His words. I never met Him in person, but my love for Him is real and deep.

My husband eventually got into some online affairs and followed his nature, carrying them out...blinded by his urges, he believed that he could have real-time affairs and it not affect our relationship. I told him to leave. After nearly two years separation, we realized we still love each other and neither of us could bring ourselves to sign the divorce papers. So we reconciled. Living together again was strained at first, but gradually, we have re-established our relationship and it is getting better. I believe that his mild age-related ED is what perpetuated the interest in online affairs--the "new cow syndrome" remedy to ED. We now have an understanding, that it is all merely for his fantasy, and shall remain in that realm. He enjoys imagining this one with another man...she only imagines ever being with Master, even though it seems likely that Master shall never return.

Wow! I've said a lot! How embarrassing! But there it is...an open honest assessment...in a nutshell.